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ZippoZ
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I LOVE LIFE!
#2316453 - 02/09/04 12:12 AM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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In the past week somthing has changed inside of me, i am no longer holding back the fellings i have for people because i am afraid that it might seem a bit out of place. i ihave been telling everyone how much i care about them and telling those i love that i love them. all of this is bouncing back to me 10x. no drug has ever made me feel this good.
ALl of my problems stemmed from me being afraid to be too haappy because i knew that it wouldnt last forever, and that i would become sad sooner or later. this lead to me living in a comfortably numb space that i thought i liked. a little bubble that surronded me.
well about a week ago i burst this bubble, and now im flying high.
i have been in that place for almost a year. it has been very lonely. i always wondered why i didnt like MDMA,why all that euphoria was so un-comfortable. it was because it was because i was afraid to go to a happy place.
2 days ago i ate some MDMA with some close friends and i was finally able to be as happy as the substance would allow. and the crash that usually comes in the following days has not been seen.
GOD I LOVE LIFE.
and i want to say thank you to everyone who offered me advice in this forum. without your words i wouldnt be here.
-------------------- PEACE zippoz "in times of widespread chaos and confusion, it has been the duty of more advanced human beings - artists, scientists, clowns, and philosophers - to create order. In such times as ours however, when there is too much order, too much m management, too much programming and control, it becomes the duty of superior men and women and women to fling their favorite monkey wrenches into the machinery. To relieve the repression of the human spirit, they must sow doubt and disruption" "People do it every day, they talk to themselves ... they see themselves as they'd like to be, they don't have the courage you have, to just run with it."
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pattern
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Re: I LOVE LIFE! [Re: ZippoZ]
#2316502 - 02/09/04 12:42 AM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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Sounds like a good trip man!
I'm proud of you.
Careful with the MDMA, you'll feel great and have an afterglow, but I find that the following weeks after a trip can be a little downtrodden. I think it's something to do with the expectations you get off the E, making bonds with people during the trip that don't hold up later on. Stick with your closest pals, tell them whatever is on your mind, their advice will help you out in life.
-------------------- man = monkey + mushroom
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Suffer
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Re: I LOVE LIFE! [Re: ZippoZ]
#2316557 - 02/09/04 01:16 AM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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...and i was finally able to be as happy as the substance would allow
OK... now you need to be as happy as YOU can allow. Sure, sometimes substances help people feel things... but the important part is what your feeling inside. Just don't end up relying on a substance to make you feel something eh? A mistake ive made many times.
Oh yea... CONGRATULATIONS!!! I know how wonderfull it is to reach that place. May it last FOREVER
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Sparklehorse
If Im here whosgrooming thefoxes for theparade
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Re: I LOVE LIFE! [Re: ZippoZ]
#2316754 - 02/09/04 03:10 AM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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I have this sometimes. Turns out I'm bi-polar haha. It seriously does make you love life though, I know exactly how you're feeling
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Oook
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hehe Zippoz its great isn't it, a while ago I used to feel awkward if I smiled but that was just because I wasn't used to doing it. My face really hurt when I got back to normal because I smile so much now.
It's excellent to hear your enjoying life, I just wish everyone could feel this way.
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filthysock
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What are the symptoms of being bi-polar? Great zippoz
-------------------- Magic mushrooms are not addictive, the shroomery is!
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ZippoZ
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Re: I LOVE LIFE! [Re: ZippoZ]
#2317214 - 02/09/04 09:17 AM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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I would like to add that i was feeling this wat days before i took the molly.
i have been telling everyone exactly how much they mean to me, more and more. it seems that those that werent letting me in to their inner souls were holding back because i was holding back my inner feelings. and once i let mine out theirs came along with me.
this is just so wonderful. im off to chemistry lab and other classes, ill talk to you kids later!
-------------------- PEACE zippoz "in times of widespread chaos and confusion, it has been the duty of more advanced human beings - artists, scientists, clowns, and philosophers - to create order. In such times as ours however, when there is too much order, too much m management, too much programming and control, it becomes the duty of superior men and women and women to fling their favorite monkey wrenches into the machinery. To relieve the repression of the human spirit, they must sow doubt and disruption" "People do it every day, they talk to themselves ... they see themselves as they'd like to be, they don't have the courage you have, to just run with it."
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filthysock
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Re: I LOVE LIFE! [Re: ZippoZ]
#2317224 - 02/09/04 09:30 AM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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STEAL STUFF FROM THE LAB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shh.... we can make buisness
-------------------- Magic mushrooms are not addictive, the shroomery is!
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Oook
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Get some of that glass wool stuff, on a quick glance it properly looks like bud.
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SlapnutRob
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Re: I LOVE LIFE! [Re: Oook]
#2318505 - 02/09/04 04:09 PM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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I always wanted to steal the sweet digital scales the science department had at my high school. Those would be handy
-------------------- Anything stated above is fictional roleplay dialog by the character that is Slapnut Rob, in no way representing the actions or beliefs of the man behind the keys.
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Adden
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i regret not grabbing one
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Strumpling
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Re: I LOVE LIFE! [Re: ZippoZ]
#2320375 - 02/10/04 01:31 AM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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I love life, and at times I hate loving life, and at times I love hating loving life, and....
-------------------- Insert an "I think" mentally in front of eveything I say that seems sketchy, because I certainly don't KNOW much. Also; feel free to yell at me. In addition: SHPONGLE
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WhiskeyClone
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Re: I LOVE LIFE! [Re: ZippoZ]
#2360966 - 02/20/04 07:49 PM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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Congratulations buddy! You have found the secret to happiness! Don't lose it!
I'm not being sarcastic here. Some people die without ever discovering it.
Beauty is truth, truth beauty.
-------------------- Welcome evermore to gods and men is the self-helping man. For him all doors are flung wide: him all tongues greet, all honors crown, all eyes follow with desire. Our love goes out to him and embraces him, because he did not need it. ~ R.W. Emerson, "Self-Reliance"
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barfightlard
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Re: I LOVE LIFE! [Re: ZippoZ]
#2361174 - 02/20/04 09:06 PM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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Sounds like me on MDMA. Sometimes it's hard to hold onto all of the feelings. Good to hear your doin better dude!
-------------------- "What business is it of yours what I do, read, buy, see, say, think, who I fuck, what I take into my body - as long as I do not harm another human being on this planet?" - Bill Hicks
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Frog
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Re: I LOVE LIFE! [Re: ZippoZ]
#2361801 - 02/20/04 11:07 PM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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I love life, too! Life is so damned entertaining, with it's ups and downs. Never know when it's going to go down, and then never know what will happen to bring it back up.
-------------------- The day will come when, after harnessing the ether, the winds, the tides, gravitation, we shall harness for God the energies of love. And, on that day, for the second time in the history of the world, man will have discovered fire. -Teilard
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filthysock
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Re: I LOVE LIFE! [Re: ZippoZ]
#2363187 - 02/21/04 10:07 AM (20 years, 1 month ago) |
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This is not my reply, its a friends... just bare with me here: mai neib?r livvs in a br???lekasse.
Ok....
-------------------- Magic mushrooms are not addictive, the shroomery is!
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