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Re: What the fuck is Happening to me seriously? [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23640849 - 09/13/16 08:10 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Trippedytrip said:
I quitted now all Ap's cause they dont help anymore. They make me numb flat and anbig space in my head , i cant continue with them .
I am pleased with this decision. Let's move on to the next chapter in this saga.
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Re: What the fuck is Happening to me seriously? [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23640850 - 09/13/16 08:10 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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my guess would be it was a bad mdma batch, thats the only explanation i can think of
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Re: What the fuck is Happening to me seriously? [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23642365 - 09/13/16 05:35 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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You ask a question, and then supply the answer as a "Kundalini Awakening with MDMA/Meditation/Weed," which is of course questionable and open to interpretation. Then you supply a series of consequences which have more to do with Dissociative Disorder and Clinical Depression than is has to do with a psycho-spiritual awakening. A "Dark Night of the Soul" phase is a form of 'spiritual pathology' that John of the Cross, a 16th century Carmelite priest documented about a particularly depressing stage of spiritual formation. However John of the Cross was not smoking cannabis and dropping MDMA to deplete his Dopaminergic system thereby plunging him into depression and anhedonia. It sounds like you experienced a transient psychotic episode, like so many young Shroomerites who want to glam up their true-dope stories with metaphysical sparkle.
The Tantric Kundalini model explains in mythic terms a hyper-pranic, even a hyper-cosmic experience of Nirvikalpa or Asamprajnata samadhi (depending upon the school), but the results are an integration of consciousness and unconscious material, NOT an enduring negative experience of being overwhelmed with material from the unconscious which paralyzes one's life in the world. If you're continuing to experience derealization, depersonalization, and general dissociation, you need to stop using cannabis and any stronger psychedelics immediately. Then you should begin to ground yourself by doing manual things, even simple things like cleaning house or pulling weeds (literally). If it's still warm where you are, go barefoot on the grass if possible. Play with domestic pets if available. They live in the present and in their senses. Learn from them to come down to earth. Engage your senses and learn to inhabit your body again. As gestalt psychologist Fritz Perls used to say "Lose your mind and come to your senses."
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Edited by MarkostheGnostic (09/14/16 04:33 PM)
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Re: What the fuck is Happening to me seriously? [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23643614 - 09/14/16 01:15 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Probably you're just schizing out and need to calm down. All of the things Markos suggested would work.
I like to just bounce a ball against a wall and catch it again to ground myself in the physical. Played cricket today and it felt good.
Then again, I'm also on antipsychotics in order to not schiz out. If you've ruled those out you might have to think a but more.
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Re: What the fuck is Happening to me seriously? [Re: viktor]
#23643666 - 09/14/16 02:32 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Nice posts ! Thanks
Yeah i think i had a too long internal trip and went to farY The problem is my brain has remained unconscious and taking meds has stopped me more to go further.
I need to open my consciousness again wich weed to make the change possible because i dont want to be unable in life .
What do you think about that sounds pretty good right ? Weed will do that
I dont know other way coming out of this stucked situation.
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Re: What the fuck is Happening to me seriously? [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23643735 - 09/14/16 03:24 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I think weed is a spiritual medicine. Probably what's happened to you is that you've shocked yourself with too much truth in one hit and have burned your soul. Well, weed might soothe you.
Only I'd definitely be smoking indicas and not sativas if I was you.
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Re: What the fuck is Happening to me seriously? [Re: viktor]
#23644024 - 09/14/16 08:07 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yes weed does its job , well i got thought free due to meds so im gonna smoke some sativa , hash and indica to.
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Re: What the fuck is Happening to me seriously? [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23645241 - 09/14/16 04:55 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Trippedytrip said: Yes weed does its job , well i got thought free due to meds so im gonna smoke some sativa , hash and indica to.
You're obviously under no obligation to comply with advice you solicited, but be advised that my advice comes with 30+ years of experience as a PhD licensed psychotherapist, 34 years as a Substance Abuse Counselor (21 years as a Master Addiction Counselor). You're just 'spinning your wheels,' which if you have no experience with getting your car stuck in the snow means digging your car deeper and deeper into the snow because you won't stop and change your strategy to get unstuck. Intoxication has two meanings: inebriation AND poisoning. For your condition, it's the latter meaning, unless you're just attention-seeking and full of BS, in which case as my late mom used to say, "go bang your head against a wall [you'll feel much better after you stop]." I sometimes see people clinically who don't want to lose their symptoms because they get 'secondary gains' from them, like getting lots of attention. That's a separate clinical issue altogether. Looks like another case of 'careful what you ask for' (or who you ask).
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i have a general rule of thumb, that i generally have trouble applying myself, but i know it's generally true, nonetheless...never use medicines for no reason. have a reason. otherwise, it's not wise. it may, indeed, have counter-effects that are welcome effects, and as such, can negatively effect you...like me. after enough psychedelics, the art of my mind has drastically shifted. i feel it is a fine thing, but it needs to be refocused and shifted back into reality (which is a core teaching in the philosophy of psychedelic therapy) -- i find with what i did, ie, not taking heed, and not exactly having a spiritual reason for traversing the territory (as it were), it was all relatively chaotic, and now that reflects my current status now -- which i was purposefully prepared for, anyways, considering my mind and it's coordination with music, and art.
i did not 'ground' myself, and thus was left off in a place that i had to endeavor (and still do) to prepare myself for, to leave, as it's not where i need to be...though it has been a lesson on the realm of the real, and of course, this "taking heed" that i intent to fulfil (which i have a feeling most people have an easier time with with simpler...expression.)...this leaving to find a place i can call home, is only to be more comfortable in my own skin, and since i know this, i can feel relatively comfortable that i can handle my own skin, at present, because i know where and who i am. some people don't. it would be...alternately sad, and i'd have to say, insightful and interesting, to witness say those with certain mental aptitudes (like schizophrenia, for example)....(for it would be like seeing a door between two world...like seeing someone in a heightened state of psychedelia)
but regardless of that fact, that i am indeed fine, the world to traverse is inside, and also out, but there is no difference which, when you look at the inverse convolved springboard spiral of life that stems from radiational graviton singularity...to put it poetically.
so this world requires devoutness, to put it lightly. there's no stopping, the day i stop, is the day i'll start to want to truly die, which is to truly live. if i live in devoutness and everything halts in that devoutness, i'd have to presume i'm either truly forsaken or i've ascended into enlightenment, and at that point, there is no control but my actions -- thought will not be involved. and i prize life, so i imagine, i will probably effort to live & die, instead to continue to be stopped, and if i stopped, i wouldn't know it, anyway, so there's not reason to really apprehend anything there. the choice will not be mine, at that point.
i might be lost, but inside i am found, to put it all simply.
that's enough of this tract.
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Re: What the fuck is Happening to me seriously? [Re: akira_akuma]
#23646110 - 09/14/16 11:00 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Can you comprehend that i was in Hyperspace with this long mental trip. Fall down then and did a wrong move and got stucked behind.
By smoking weed i can open my consciousness again wich now is so limited or i hope i can.
I took some weeks AP,s wich made me go more numb and blocking all of my receptors and they have made the thing worse.
I am going to jogg now every day , see in front and staying calm and patience.
I am not trying to attract any posts or answers .
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