I had seven grams of shroomies at least I think I had seven. I wonder if they're as heavy as I think they is. I should get a scale, but I'm being mentally imprisoned by the demons that haunt my mom and dad. I thought about the psych ward again and how I am not scared to go back there. I forgot what I was scared of but it's something like around that but not going back. I thought about what if I was still there and they brought me back and I saw myself. We'd probably come to terms and agree to look in the mirror at each other. They'd just let me out. I really don't want to spend nine days there again where I learned Xanax is a hell of a drug. I'm still not sure what medication the nurse gave. I hope it wasn't Resperdal. That'd just suck. And I really don't want to go to the other side like that lady that looked like Lauren Hill. I listened to Muse and my it could be heard from the kitchen. I definitely wasn't watching anything. Just listening outside. My cat looks Egyptian tonight. It could just be something she ate, and she didn't want to come inside with me. She told me that usually she just looks at me and makes noise but she was purring. I was listening to Make Believe and the lyrics were totally different like I had just made some of them up before. That was weird and I didn't feel good after that. I must be trippin'. I have to know when to keep it hood and when to strip. I wonder how big of a difference there is. I figure I can learn to do both at once. I like going both ways. Like that time I drove on LSD and the rode became a one way street but they let me go my way anyway. I swear to God I wasn't doing it for a reason. I just wanted to go home. Either way it felt badass which is good. I love to rep my city in that particular way. btw that rode or street was only one way on that particular night or day. Don't remember. It felt like night but it looked like daytime. There was a cop waving me to go pass. There was construction zoning but I didn't see any work being done. What could this mean? I just knew it was a one way. It is almost 6AM and I was literally dying to have a coffee with 10 scoops of sugar and 1/5 milk while I smoke a few ciggies. Not at the same time, please don't be all ridiculous Kurt Von on me Oh my God. I can't believe that perv died. He was so good in bed. I really fucked it up. If I really am a virgin what could that mean. My mind seems so burn.??? Hello, hello the word "hello" seems almost Plutonic witch rhymes with "demonic". It always seems like people look at me like I am opening a portal when I say that word. I guess everyone lives in fear of something usually not dying like Slim does. But I wouldn't bet on that, and I am hell at the casino. I guess that's the reason my Man doesn't want (he hates that capital) me to go there so much... Which could be my saving grace... I'm so confused about this latest Ariana Grande performance and why is she trying so hard not to be a rapper? I guess MTV can't censor everything even if they didn't want to be censored that's there fault not mine I could fall asleep during that stuff and never wake up to turn down the volume. I guess I better give all this some rest. I don't want to go frank on the media. That could be a real drainer. If I could be one hero then I would be catwoman because she has that cool whip and she survived a nine-story fall. And she doesn't take shit from anyone. I really wish I had some weed. I don't think people understand not really I don't want to be tripping at least not like that. It is such a drought even though it rained. I guess it is like that mewithOutyou song after all. I really hope The guitarist from my chem just does drugs and doesn't kill anybody. I went to New Orleans by myself and I saw bodies lying in puddles of vomit I felt so detached I never felt so detached before and I went to the bar and had a PBR. I ordered the damn beer and then asked to use the restroom. I got the keys from the bar tender woman and went in and I changed into the cyan shirt I had just bought from the tourist shop. Then I drank my beer while I stood next to the bar woman and a woman drinking at the bar beside me and watched a commercial on the TV you can't tell if it's a different commercial or not and I watched a gentleman play Billiards. I WAS SO JEALOUS! I can't believe I remember this stuff. I wonder how my friend is doing and if he can get over what happened at the coffee shop I don't want to see him heartbroken over that stuff and he is the kind of man that would just get drunk and let me observe him while he stands in the middle of the street and stops traffics. That's so cool. Things like that don't just get my heart-pumping. Only I would say that I guess. There was this guy and I can't believe he would just stare at me while I watched anime he was asking for a relationship that's weird. I really want to audio for a living but would look at me all crazy. I know they really have good working values and I don't want to make them anymore upset than I already have.
Edited by Lucy9 (09/04/16 09:33 AM)
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