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ModestMouse
IM WALKIN ON SUNSHINE


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Re: Shot out of the sky, falling but not resigned [Re: Repertoire89]
#23601553 - 09/01/16 03:30 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm in the process of building a social media app with some other recent college graduates. We won 10,000 dollars back in April to kickstart the development and have been working ever since.
Unfortunately, one of the other programmers on the project has been showing complete incompetence to the point where the other 4 of us are ready to kick him out and the other programmer is not very knowledgeable and works very slowly.
The other 2 team members are business graduates who are focused on marketing and branding, so essentially I'm trying to build a massive social media application by myself, with occasional help from another person. It's very trying and there's no money actually being received for my work so at times it feels like it's all for naught.
We haven't quit though.
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ModestMouse
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Re: Shot out of the sky, falling but not resigned [Re: ModestMouse]
#23601554 - 09/01/16 03:30 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I need to pay the bills though.
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koods
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Re: Shot out of the sky, falling but not resigned [Re: ModestMouse]
#23601559 - 09/01/16 03:32 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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ModestMouse said: Heroin is a symptom of an underlying issue. In my case, a desire to be employed. Not just employed at any job but the job I know I am capable of working. I am a competent software developer and have been passionate about the craft since I was 12.
It's just a lot more of a fight to find employment than I anticipated and I'm struggling to stay optimistic. Yes I am actively working to end my heroin addiction despite recent issues. It's an internal fight.
For what it's worth heroin has absolutely not barred me from job opportunities up until this point. It has fucked up my financial life but I keep myself well groomed and have not used several days prior to job interviews etc. I'm not a daily user but I've slipped up on several occasions recently after having a month clean.
If you're addicted, then you might be off your game if you don't use for a few days.
I feel like you're not that deep into the heroin are you? Do you experience withdrawal? Right how you're using for fun (to kill the boredom). Things get much worse when you start to use because not using is unbearable.
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Repertoire89
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Re: Shot out of the sky, falling but not resigned [Re: ModestMouse]
#23601574 - 09/01/16 03:40 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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ModestMouse said: It's very trying and there's no money actually being received for my work so at times it feels like it's all for naught.
We haven't quit though.
I need to pay the bills though.
Well I'm a composer and spent about 10 years developing the theoretical background of my work, it was necessary to do what I need to do. Anyways I perform sometimes, but never on a consistent basis, and I've turned down a few good deals to perform with groups which were already touring. Not going there until the work is up to standard (which is very soon).
I know how you feel working an average of 3-4 hours a day on something for years, having partners drop out on you and generally get in the way, working shitty jobs to survive.
Just keep putting one foot in front of the other until you get there man.
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ModestMouse
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Re: Shot out of the sky, falling but not resigned [Re: koods]
#23601668 - 09/01/16 04:07 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Thanks rep. It's comforting knowing others have fought the good fight.
@koods I don't experience actual withdrawals as I don't use daily for life than a day or two typically. I'm honestly striving to stay clean but I slip up once in a while and it seems like I've been slipping up more frequently this past week.
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