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blufiz
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I call it
#23570210 - 08/23/16 07:07 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I posted here about 5 years ago on an account named Shrk. I posted about my first and only time taking cubensis mushrooms and ending up in the physcotic ward at the local hospital cause I couldn't handle "it"
"It" has come to haunt me 5 years later. Reminding me I can't shut that eye.
I call it “It’
This may confuse others, or you may understand it on a level you thought did not exist. If you think you understand … relies this is targeted to communicate to whom have seen “It. The sober mind is lost but “it” will surprise you.
Now when I say “It”. “It” is an experience. It’s a journey. I used to think of it as a truth. What I saw was real and in the moment I kept saying to myself about how real “it” is, reminding myself that this is not just my mind fucked up. I also started questioning “is this my third eye”. If so it opened 5 years ago and I will never be able to shut it. I have seen this truth to life and in the moment I understand what life is, all the colors we see and emotions we feel. It’s all for us. This is life. Love is what conquers all. To feel complete terror and fear is something no one deserves or will ever have to experience.
…but when I say no one
… do I mean myself
Is “it” a trick? No.
This truth leads me to believe this world. This UNIVERSE. Is set up for me. That’s the lie. We are all connected as one. Physical touch is the lie.
Music is the great communicator.
At first it’s fucked up. Seeing “it” for your first time. But as you ride the spiral into the depths of fear and at the heights of love. You fragile mind understands why you exist.
Isn’t it fucked up… but at the same time so amazing.
Are we few who have experienced “It” chosen?
When you come back to this realm, this sober mind, you are left in confusing and asking why. Only to long for it to happen again.
“It” Is a level of understanding. A level so high that it is unexplainable... but you understand.
Maybe I am just fucked
But everything is going to be okay.
“it”
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YeOlde
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Re: I call it [Re: blufiz]
#23571915 - 08/24/16 05:49 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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The first time I took acid I did 3 hits. I had a bad trip half way in and it was hard.
Days after I had a very mild HPPD. Shit kept coming back, stuff kept wobbling and melting, odd flashes of colour on the vision etc.
This went on for a couple weeks. I believe it would have been permanent.
I decided I had to do more. I needed to leave the experience on a good note and guess what? it went.
I took 2 hits of some different acid that was "cleaner" (freshly laid) and i've never had a flashback or anything since. No HPPD.
-------------------- My Psychedelic experiences: LSD - 30+ times (2 hits min / max 3 hits) every time. Shrooms - 4 times (2.5 - 3.5g) DMT - 5 times (Powerful breakthrough only once) Life can be one hell of a bitter pill to swallow so I chose acid instead -YeOlde
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bigbitch
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Re: I call it [Re: YeOlde]
#23572047 - 08/24/16 07:17 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Quote:
YeOlde said: I took 2 hits of some different acid that was "cleaner" (freshly laid)
I believe as well, that it is a bad idea to "end" on a bad trip. I have experienced a negative phase in my life after a bad trip, until I had a good trip. I personally, have not experienced the HPPD though. Just to lyk though, freshly laid means nothing. If you lay some lsd xtal on blotter properly, it won't degrade for a very long time, if stored properly. (I'm confident vacuum sealed at the proper temperature it would last well over 30 years) When it does start to degrade, it just loses potency, it doesn't change.
The "cleaner" thing is debatable too. Some very knowledgeable people say that the impurities in lsd are too small of a dose, and not active. Therefore, you can't feel them. So if you had a 80 percent pure sample and a 99 percent pure sample, The 80 percent would just take a slight bit more since it's weaker. The only thing that matters is the amount of active lsd. This is a factor that's difficult to prove though. A ton of people involved in the lsd game these days, believe purity makes it cleaner/dirtier. I personally don't believe that.
That makes me think either 1. Your first sample was adulterated with another chem and lsd
2. Your first sample was a different drug entirely.
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3. It was lsd, and your environment/mindstate caused it to feel "dirtier". Sometimes a weaker sample can cause people to think it's cleaner, because it's not so much on your mind.
edit: Ohh and bluefiz, I wouldn't go so far to call you fucked. Most of the stuff you say in your post is true, and some of it is kind of far "out there". If you didn't think that way before your intense experience, maybe it was a little much for you. Idk what I recommend, tripping more could make it better or worse. I would say don't focus on the experience so much though, and remember that you are the same person that you were before your cubensis trip.
Edited by bigbitch (08/24/16 07:25 AM)
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YeOlde
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It was definitely LSD. The interesting thing is it happened to other people who tripped on the same tabs. Lingering trippy vision days after.
Since I acquired a fresh batch and have tripped many many times (2-3 hit high doses) it's never happened since.
The other batch of LSD that gave me perma trippy vision was old, I could tell by the cardboard it had been sitting about.
The tabs were tested to be LSD as well though that wouldn't rule out an adulterant it confirmed the presence of LSD.
Another feature of this other batch was there was more noticeable vasoconstriction. I'm not sure what that was about.
In fact I actually remember now that I erased my "HPPD" using the very same batch of acid that gave me it, the difference was I took 1 hit instead of 3 and I had a good trip!
If psychedelics give you some long lasting shit and it ended badly, I'd say give it another go, perhaps with a benzo, lower the dose and end on a good note.
It worked for me and another buddy who had the "problem".
It wasn't the end of the world anyway, it only happened if I stared at objects for too long they'd start morphing.
-------------------- My Psychedelic experiences: LSD - 30+ times (2 hits min / max 3 hits) every time. Shrooms - 4 times (2.5 - 3.5g) DMT - 5 times (Powerful breakthrough only once) Life can be one hell of a bitter pill to swallow so I chose acid instead -YeOlde
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blufiz
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Re: I call it [Re: YeOlde]
#23572761 - 08/24/16 12:54 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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It wasn't a bad trip at all. It was the most enlightened moment of my entire life. Getting arrested and admited was all part of it. Like a movie. Very rarely do I hear someone explain or relate to what I went through.
5 years ago I took ahrooms and has that "awakening" expierance my "it" 4 years ago I smoked alittle and was hit like a truck By "it" 3 1/2 years ago I inhaled nitrous and was overwhelmed by "it"
I haven't touched anything since and was walking and creeped up by "it". As a reminder that to myself it's still there.
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