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SleepyE
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I find myself tripping more often these past few months
#23561702 - 08/20/16 11:15 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah i took a pretty long break from tripping to work on a big piano piece project of mine and once summer hit i was like fuck it i want to explore, life is short.
So i did a few oral dmt trips, lsd trips, and these past few weeks ive done mushrooms multiple times in a row but only cuz i was trying to break through and finally succeeded on the third try.
and a few days ago i had another 1p-lsd trip and for just recreational purposes because holy fuck it feels good to be on it, also i smoked dmt for more shamanic purposes later on. I find that mushrooms are much better as a OBE and ego death producing than acid/1plsd but 1plsd is more euphoric and orgasmic which is great for recreational adventures.
But ive been finding myself celebrating a bit more these past 2 weeks because im pretty much finished learning this piano piece because its literally all ive been working on for a year with virtually zero days break so im just excited that i actually made it to the finish line and am almost ready to make a recording of it. Ive been super worried that id mess up my fingers and not be able to train cuz the abuse on my fingers causes bruises and joint/tendon pains. Plus the piece has a high chance of breaking my finger if i miss the note in a bad way on certain parts. I literally only know one piece on the piano now because i have not played anything else for a year and forgot everything but i figured its not a big deal because its not like it was anything much impressive in terms of a repertoire except maybe rachs prelude op 3 no 2.
Anyways i was somewhat itching to drop 200ug of 1plsd but i figured i should hold off so i can wake up to keep working on things.
I want to smoke DMT but im kind of afraid of whats happening inside there because it keeps taking me back to an experience i had 3 years ago that was very confusion and kind of traumatic and i dont feel ready to confront it and embrace the memory. I hide from it whenever i smoke a little and the memories start coming back. Im sure this wont happen all the time, ive smoked it recently before and wasnt sent back there but its just so unpredictable. but the visions are so beauty its often hard for me to turn away. But i think once i record that piano piece il want to shift my focus a little more to my art so il definitely need DMT to dream up some landscapes and patterns.
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Edited by SleepyE (08/21/16 08:50 AM)
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: SleepyE] 1
#23561851 - 08/21/16 12:31 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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hmm, well thats awesome! I know you are not exactly asking any questions or for advice, but I'd love to give you my input on two things.
I really suggest doing lsd/shrooms/1p-lsd once every 2 weeks, or less often. They are cross tolerant, and lose their magic when you do them more often. They can get even more magical if you wait a long time, and blow your mind! It's nice to trip every 2 weeks though too imo. I feel close to the inner me, and open minded.
As far as the dmt goes, don't think about that! I know where you're coming from, and it's much easier to say than do. I feel like this is where alot of peoples bad times/trips start, though. I think all bad trips are insecurities going into the trip, believing something false, or tripping out about something bad that's actually happening. If you're scared, or you're worried about it bringing back the traumatic experience, I feel like it's more likely to! If you're not worried, maybe you can just realize that all of this is a reflection of stuff around you, and inside your mind. You can realize that you're above that traumatic experience, and you should not be worried about it happening again! Instead focus on something else you wish to get from the experience. The big plus is dmt only lasts a short amount of time too. If for some reason you can't get past the traumatizing experience (which don't listen to that last line or you're setup for failure, you can), it won't be long before you're sober and normal!
edit: and you spoke of eating shrooms 3 times in a row to breakthrough, maybe it's just time to push the psychedelic envelope! Most people don't like it on here when I condone eating large amounts of shrooms/lsd (never done 1p-lsd period) You seem to be ready to get more from your experiences though. I will admit, I've had a few bad times on large doses of psychedelics. I've had some of the most amazing memorable times as well though. I plan on pushing the envelope again someday soon, and I would never trade the amazing high dosage experiences I've had, to erase the shitty ones.
Edited by bigbitch (08/21/16 12:40 AM)
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SleepyE
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: bigbitch]
#23562355 - 08/21/16 08:36 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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i dont think about the event in my dmt trips it just brings me back there, i wasnt expecting it when i smoked it last but it happened anyways.
I wouldnt say its traumatic in a tradition sense. more of it is like it is the climax of my whole life or like the point of highest resonance and i find it intimidating to go back there and uncover the memories. Like i will relearn something that will put a lot of mental stress to integrate it.
It brings me back to some sort of dialogue i had with voices long ago, or memories of the event come racing back to the point where i think ive been transported back to that event and its about to happen all over, and it was just an extremely intense experience in my life.
its very hard to explain, dmt is beyond strange. and thats why its so fascinating for me
but yeah once every 2 weeks is the ideal if i do want to trip.
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Edited by SleepyE (08/21/16 08:45 AM)
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: SleepyE]
#23562385 - 08/21/16 08:50 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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DMT is whats up!!
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SleepyE
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: JesusDaMartian]
#23562404 - 08/21/16 08:58 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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it has gotten progressively scarier and realer ever since i first tried it, With the most intense scary and realness when i had that traumatic event with internal dialogues with voices. It was making my whole room come to life back then.
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Edited by SleepyE (08/21/16 08:59 AM)
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: SleepyE] 1
#23562446 - 08/21/16 09:18 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I always say that dmt is "terrifyingly beautiful". Good luck on the piano piece, can't wait to hear it.
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: Kinshino]
#23562730 - 08/21/16 11:21 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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ahaha, thanks, if im lucky and my vision come true it will be epic
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: SleepyE] 1
#23562782 - 08/21/16 11:40 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Can we expect to hear your piano piece anytime soon? I would love to hear what you're working on man.
As for your increase in tripping, I envy you. It sounds so stupid but I don't have the time to trip since I landed a full time gig.
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: Sham87]
#23562829 - 08/21/16 11:59 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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yeah im trying to have it done for august 30, but it might take even longer if i want to record a really perfect performance, but ive been dedicating large amounts of my time to finish it.
Ive built up a pretty advanced degree of dexterity speed and stamina from practicing this piece at full bore everyday but it is extremely unsustainable i have to admit. Its like 100x more unsustainable than body building and keeping the muscle on.
i can go a few days without the gym and not loose any performance or strength, but with piano playing at this level, if i dont practice in as little as 12 hours then i rapidly loose ability to play it the way i usual do. then it takes around 1 or 2 days full of practice to get back up to speed. its exhausting but then again i knew it wasnt going to be a walk in the park cuz this piece is considered to be the most difficult piece in the entire piano repertoire.
The piece is an etude so it is specifically designed to teach technique. It contains every possible fingering patterns that would be considered advanced or difficult. Apparently if you can play the piece at a professional level then there is nothing in the piano repertoire you cannot play. I read that the piece is listed under the 'Fellowship' level of the Royal School of Music syllabus (equivalent to senior year in a conservatory, or first year of Master's degree in music).
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Edited by SleepyE (08/21/16 12:08 PM)
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: SleepyE]
#23562903 - 08/21/16 12:30 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Is there a name for this piece, your description has intrigued me.
What kind of piano do you play?
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: Sham87] 1
#23562934 - 08/21/16 12:42 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I only have an electronic yamaha that like from the early 1990s, its decent, old but still in tact and has some decent weight to it.
ahaha yeah the piece is Paganini-Liszt - La Campanella
Here is the miraculous Nobuyuki Tsujii playing it as someone who is blind from birth, absolutely incredible.
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Edited by SleepyE (08/21/16 12:42 PM)
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: SleepyE]
#23562975 - 08/21/16 12:58 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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You should post your artwork more frequently. I've always loved the art in your signature.
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SleepyE
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: nooneman]
#23563119 - 08/21/16 02:09 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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thanks! i will, once my music project is done im going to spend much more time on the art, im just trying to meet a deadline right now. But i plan to try to split my focus between art and music equally.
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Edited by SleepyE (08/21/16 02:11 PM)
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: SleepyE]
#23563620 - 08/21/16 05:46 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Shrooms are euphoric and orgasmic.
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SleepyE
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: AuroraBorealis88]
#23563688 - 08/21/16 06:07 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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yes that is true, but lsd type chems have a specific overall pleasant feeling that is really good for more recreational things. shrooms for me i take heavy doses so its more of a shamanic experience but its also euphoric and orgasmic.
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: SleepyE] 1
#23563817 - 08/21/16 06:55 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah that's true lysergamides are definitely more recreational and mushrooms are more of a sacred ritual for me and like you said feels vey shamanic. I guess I only said that because I find specifically mushrooms to be very MDMA-like in its euphoria. Comparable to molly in its blissfulness and optimism.
LSD is quite empowering and fun though.
Edited by AuroraBorealis88 (08/21/16 06:56 PM)
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: SleepyE] 2
#23563927 - 08/21/16 07:36 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Quote:
SleepyE said: I only have an electronic yamaha that like from the early 1990s, its decent, old but still in tact and has some decent weight to it.
ahaha yeah the piece is Paganini-Liszt - La Campanella
Here is the miraculous Nobuyuki Tsujii playing it as someone who is blind from birth, absolutely incredible.
how lovely! thanks for sharing that!
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: LuzaW]
#23564040 - 08/21/16 08:07 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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no problem!
and yeah i find lsd chems are a little more sexual too, which i guess is included in the overall description of pleasant in a recreational sense
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Edited by SleepyE (08/21/16 08:08 PM)
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: SleepyE]
#23564431 - 08/21/16 10:16 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Quote:
SleepyE said: I only have an electronic yamaha that like from the early 1990s, its decent, old but still in tact and has some decent weight to it.
ahaha yeah the piece is Paganini-Liszt - La Campanella
Here is the miraculous Nobuyuki Tsujii playing it as someone who is blind from birth, absolutely incredible.
Dude that was phenomenal, made me shed a tear. You can actually play that?? Props man, takes some serious skill.
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: Sham87]
#23564451 - 08/21/16 10:24 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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yeah, i still have to put the finishing touches and fix fingering blurs in a couple certain parts, some are a bitch to iron out but it seems its almost done developing into a solid quality performance
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Re: I find myself tripping more often these past few months [Re: SleepyE]
#23564810 - 08/22/16 01:13 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah back on the internal voices dialogue thing, I've had a similar experience. I wasn't hearing voices internally per se. I had a very intense experience on dmt and dpt (separately twice), that I guess I wasn't ready for. It was filled with confusion as you said, because I started to do strange stuff and went kind of insane in a bad way. I had parts of my memory of the dmt trip missing, when I reached the most intense parts.
Sometimes I can almost see something like that coming, and stop it from happening mentally. It's like a wrong train of thought that causes me to lose grasp of any reality. Sometimes I also wonder if I could be getting more from my experience (entity contact directly, very memorable times), if I just let it take over and don't block out the insanity. Same thing with big doses of shrooms and lsd. I like to stay as sane as possible, and keep as much of a sober mindstate as possible, to keep from having a bad time. Then my friends talk about their buddies rug being a train track, or seeing faces all in the wall, talking to aliens on shrooms etc. Sometimes I'm kind of envious that I'm blocking my imagination out on purpose, and they are having a much wilder experience due to their imagination.
I don't really know what to say about your experience directly. I guess you can try to keep from slipping into that mentally, or let yourself slip into the same experience on purpose and try not to be fearful.
I don't know what I think about dmt sometimes. I don't see lsd as being just recreational either. When I haven't tripped on lsd in awhile, it really helps me analyze stuff inside my head and around me. I kind of "get my mind right", and I feel like it can help me. dmt hasn't really helped me do any of this. I don't feel mixed up after dmt, like an rc though. I like the intensity, and the pleasant feeling I have afterwards. I keep chasing it for some reason, but I don't see it helping or hurting my mental situation in everyday life. It's almost sacred or something.
Edited by bigbitch (08/22/16 01:18 AM)
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