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the trippernaught


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HORRIBLE 4.5 gram trip that taught me a very valuable lesson 2
#23542664 - 08/15/16 12:34 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Hey everybody first time poster here
So to give some relevant background info, I had tripped multiple times off shrooms and acid in the past and had some pretty amazing experiences but none could compare to the absolute world shattering, life reflecting trip I have recently 'survived' Was in a long and happy relationship going into this trip which is also relevant
So I was having one of those lazy days, and decided I was going to have profound, introspective trip to pass the time Me and my friends had just picked a TONNE of mushrooms a few days prior and I still had around 4-4.5 grams worth- I thought this would be a pretty decent dose for this kind of experience Now prior to this I hadn't done anything more than 2 grams so I knew this was going to be nuts I got a journal and a pen ready for any revelations I had during the trip and put the first handful of shrooms into my mouth While chewing I started to hesitate. Did I really want to trip? Was a ready to trip right now? I instantly spat them out and talked myself back into going forth with the trip (this was my first and probly most crucial mistake) After downing the the full 4 grams, half an hour later the visuals began It was beautiful, my hardwood floor was breathing, phasing in and out and outside my window was a beautiful sunny day with colors basically sparkling they were so vibrant I started to feel very cold so I chucked on a few jumpers and jumped in my bed with a couple blankets on I then decided to chuck some Terrance McKenna on For the next two hours or so I was having the most amazing trip of my life, my eyes were rolled back and I was just lying there guided by McKenna's every word Taking in the strong closed eye visuals of mushrooms dancing I felt like I was tapping into some higher consciousness, feeling one with it and vibrating on a level well above the basic human level After coming out of this euphric state I decided to chuck on fear and loathing in las Vegas Now, something about mushrooms and technology ESPECIALLY TV just doesn't mix with me but I decided on it anyway and the first 15 mins I was in hysterics, everything was hilarious This is the point where I believe the downward spiral began The voices from the movie sounded like they were coming in from all different angles and the visuals became immensely more confusing as human bodies wwalking would somewhat detatch as their heads stayed in the same place.
I couldn't understand what was going on anymore and it started scaring me so I turned it off and tried to relax I packed myself a bowl and smoked it thinking it would calm myself down (this was my second mistake) From there the spiral got worse as the trip had been going on for well over 6 or so hours and I wasn't coming down yet I felt like I was almost stuck in a loop I would think I'm coming off the trip and everything was becoming clearer then I would lapse into super hard tripping again This happened over and over to the point where I convinced myself I wasn't coming out of the trip I started feeling like I had lost my mind and It was perfectly clear to me that I could now see into the mind of a truly crazy person and that I was now one of them This scared me beyond belief as if you've ever experienced something similar you know that the very thought of losing your sanity is by far the single scariest thing one can go through It was at this point I decided to call my then girlfriend for help She had no idea what to do and was just trying to do her best not to freak me out even more Now to give a bit of context we had been together for over a year and recently I had kissed and done a few things I am not proud of with another girl Well of course this surfaced and scared the living fuck out of me dealing with the things I had done I told I had to leave and sat there for what seemed like an eternity, melting into my chair before I left my room in a rush to get help Luckily my parents weren't home but both my step brothers were They sat with me for a while and calmed me down despite me being weird and awkward (I was coming out of traumatizing experience and couldn't really hold a conversation) After a little while I started to settle down and slept it off
What I had thought about on my trip stuck with my for the next month or so giving me the worst anxiety before I finally told my gf what I had done She appropriately dumped me and I don't blame her Looking back on it now I'm glad it happened I gained a lot of respect for mushrooms after that and it taught me a lesson I'd never forget Stay honest and loyal to the people around you otherwise you're going to eat yourself up inside which is both physically and mentally devastating which is what I imagine I would've done for the rest of my life or at least the rest of that relationship if it weren't for this experience
Edited by the trippernaught (08/15/16 01:01 AM)
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WishIwasACat
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Re: HORRIBLE 4.5 gram trip that taught me a very valuable lesson [Re: the trippernaught]
#23545996 - 08/16/16 04:51 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Man, your trip sounds like the bad trip I recently had.
I too thought I had lost my fucking mind, insanity is petrifying. I lit up during the trip as well...I've read a lot of bad shroom trip reports that involve weed....
The shit it bought to the surface for me gave me lasting anxiety and serious paranoia about going crazy...I had to change my whole lifestyle and start taking meds , but almost two months post trip I'm pretty much back to normal.
I had also, a few month previous to the trip, kissed some other dude (Been with my boyfriend for almost 5 years) and that came to the surface and was not fun...at fucking all, it showed me how truly fucking regretful I was to have done such a stupid thing and how much I love my boyfriend (luckily for me he forgave me).
I think what happened with you was probably meant to be, and what you said about honesty and loyalty is so 100% true. How do you feel now after the trip? Did you have any psychological after effects?
peace.
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the trippernaught


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Re: HORRIBLE 4.5 gram trip that taught me a very valuable lesson [Re: WishIwasACat]
#23547645 - 08/16/16 05:51 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah the feeling of insanity and anxiety was creeping up on me constantly for a month or so after the trip. I went to the doctor to see what what I can do and he instantly prescribed me Valium lol, I was so desperate I would've jumped on It without a second thought but thankfully I pulled myself together and dealt with the situation by just telling my ex
Hit rock bottom but from there everything got better (anxiety and insane thoughts left almost immediately)
Thats amazing that you too got back together! I'm still working on mine unfortunately Planning to contact her tomorrow after 3 weeks of no contact so we'll see how that plays out If its meant to be its meant to be
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Re: HORRIBLE 4.5 gram trip that taught me a very valuable lesson [Re: WishIwasACat]
#23550842 - 08/17/16 06:49 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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WishIwasACat said: Man, your trip sounds like the bad trip I recently had.
I too thought I had lost my fucking mind, insanity is petrifying. I lit up during the trip as well...I've read a lot of bad shroom trip reports that involve weed....
The shit it bought to the surface for me gave me lasting anxiety and serious paranoia about going crazy...I had to change my whole lifestyle and start taking meds , but almost two months post trip I'm pretty much back to normal.
I had also, a few month previous to the trip, kissed some other dude (Been with my boyfriend for almost 5 years) and that came to the surface and was not fun...at fucking all, it showed me how truly fucking regretful I was to have done such a stupid thing and how much I love my boyfriend (luckily for me he forgave me).
I think what happened with you was probably meant to be, and what you said about honesty and loyalty is so 100% true. How do you feel now after the trip? Did you have any psychological after effects?
peace.
i had a similar experience ended up takiing antipsicotics for almost a year , not sure it was due to the shrooms though , i had some schizophrenia look alike syntoms ... insanity is petrifing indeed ! what meds do you took and for how long? peace
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Re: HORRIBLE 4.5 gram trip that taught me a very valuable lesson [Re: the trippernaught]
#23551398 - 08/17/16 09:31 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Ha, yeah my doc prescribed me valium too, my symptoms had been going on for weeks and even trying to deal with what I thought may be causing it didn't help, so I did take them a few times, it was nice to have a break and feel normal again, but I had to go on an antidepressant anyway as it just wasn't leaving.
Yeah, I was more thankful than I ever had been, things took a while to get back to how they were with he and I, it took a lot of talking things through and me trying to explain why I did it and the feelings I had been having that "made" me do it...but those feelings are all gone now, sometimes it takes a big fuck up to make you realise what you have.
Good luck man, I hope things go well, I'm keen to know how things panned out.
Peace.
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Re: HORRIBLE 4.5 gram trip that taught me a very valuable lesson [Re: kamykazi3]
#23551412 - 08/17/16 09:36 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yep, its certainly something that scares the shit out of me, especially because my mum is actually clinically insane...
I'm currently taking Lexapro and 50mg of seroquel. Its been about a month on those meds, but I changed a lot of things in my life so I guess my feeling better is probably a combination of everything I did, I've made a journal of my 'recovery' progress if you like, I also made a trip report of said bad trip.
Are you feeling better now? Still on the meds?
Peace.
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the trippernaught


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Re: HORRIBLE 4.5 gram trip that taught me a very valuable lesson [Re: WishIwasACat]
#23554087 - 08/18/16 05:17 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Most of the time depression and anxiety is situational and can be fixed with lifestyle changes but there are some people who suffer from it for no reason which really sucks
We did the no talking thing for 3 weeks until yesterday I decided to call her. Worst mistake, she's pretty much moved on completely
Maybe for the best though, she was never open to the psychedelics and pretty much drugs in general which caused more than a few fights Where do you even find girls who are open to that stuff though lol
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Re: HORRIBLE 4.5 gram trip that taught me a very valuable lesson [Re: the trippernaught]
#23557894 - 08/19/16 06:49 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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the trippernaught said: Most of the time depression and anxiety is situational and can be fixed with lifestyle changes but there are some people who suffer from it for no reason which really sucks
We did the no talking thing for 3 weeks until yesterday I decided to call her. Worst mistake, she's pretty much moved on completely
Maybe for the best though, she was never open to the psychedelics and pretty much drugs in general which caused more than a few fights Where do you even find girls who are open to that stuff though lol
Definitely, I had someone comment on my trip report that what I was freaking out about during the trip were most likely parts of my life I'm unhappy with etc, which is totally true, and working on those things has made a world of difference.
Damn, sorry to hear it didn't go well, it's most likely for the best though. People make mistakes and if she doesn't realise that and didn't care or love you enough to forgive you and try to understand...you deserve someone who would.
I don't think you specifically go out looking for someone who wants to do those things...(Of course you can though but I have no idea where...there are heaps of clubs in Melbourne where its basically the culture to do psychedelics though so that could be a start...mercat jumps to mind if you're in Melb) I for one was super against drugs, I wouldn't even consider smoking weed for years, but my partner and I grew together and when the opportunity struck we trusted each other and it was something we wanted to experience together and I was open to it because we knew each other well and knew it wouldn't change the people we were completely.
Let things happen naturally and hopefully they'll pan out how you want.
peace.
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Re: HORRIBLE 4.5 gram trip that taught me a very valuable lesson [Re: the trippernaught]
#23559270 - 08/20/16 06:59 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I feel you on the whole insanity on mushrooms thing. Everytime i've done mushrooms I stupidly end up taking like 3.5-4 grams (i've done them 3 times, and then had an LSA trip that was just like a mushroom trip except with painful projectile vomiting haha, I even tasted mushrooms in that trip for some reason.) The trip for the most part is fine for awhile but then there's this super weird feeling that comes over me completely randomly. It's almost like the whole aura of the room changes, I get this super crazy deja vu feeling, time seemingly stops, I then start to feel this very alien almost God like presence enter the room and it'll start to put all these really terrifying visions and thoughts in my head, i'll start constantly feeling like there's someone behind me with their hand on my shoulder but when I look behind me there's no one there, my friends (i've tripped in a room with friends everytime) will start to look almost like cartoonish puppets and they'll all of a sudden start acting weird like in a way to were it seems like it isn't even them anymore, and they always end up sort of vocalizing what the god like presence is saying in my head and tell me to lay down and let it happen. I have a feeling that I need to do that but at that point i'm always so freaked out that I never do it because i'm afraid i'll be taken by aliens if I let my guard down or something haha. After awhile I always convince myself that i'm either dead and am trapped in limbo or hell, that i'm in an alien dream and they're trying to convince me to let my guard down so they can dissect me, or i'm experiencing the sort of insanity that tweakers do when they've been up for two weeks on meth. I still continue to do them when I can though because i'm determined to have a good experience and make peace with the mushroom. Next time though it'll be 1 gram during the day by myself and i'll increase the dose by like .5 grams every 3 trips until I can handle them haha
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the trippernaught


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Re: HORRIBLE 4.5 gram trip that taught me a very valuable lesson [Re: UniverseOfTheMind8]
#23564483 - 08/21/16 10:42 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah that's exactly right. I feel a lot of people won't even realize their situation is shitty until they have a bad trip that points it out. That's good to hear!, a lot of people around me have succumbed to popping pills to fix their problems and its really sad to see
I really thought she did love me enough to at least give me a chance but I guess 'love' can be deceptive Its definitely for the best, that much is clear to me now. its just crazy how a person you thought was your soulmate can move on so damn fast
Yeah thats so true its finding a great person and delving into that stuff later on when it feels right My experience thus far tells me a lot of girls are against that sort of thing but as long as I find someone who's generally open minded it won't be hard for them to at least understand why psychedelics can be used as a tool and not just have the perception of "oh all drugs are bad and you're a junkie of you take them" which is the exact attitude my ex had Close minded people man... I might check out this mercat though.. is it like most people who go there are the kind of people that trip or are actually tripping while there? Haha
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Re: HORRIBLE 4.5 gram trip that taught me a very valuable lesson [Re: UniverseOfTheMind8]
#23564503 - 08/21/16 10:48 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Haha your trip sounds very different than mine I think we were feeling insanity coming on for different reasons but you definitely need to take that advice and just let it completely take over you Sit back and try to enjoy the experience even though it may seem scary In the end, if you've thought about your set and setting thoroughly, i think your bad trip may be just a product of your inner demons Or you just have a crazy fear of aliens and that's surfacing.. Hahaha but yeah smaller doses are definitely the way you build up to a 3-4 gram trip as those can be pretty intense
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