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Celestial Traveler
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Have you ever had psychedelic revelations? 1
#23541998 - 08/14/16 07:39 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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By "psychedelic revelations", I am not asking about philosophical realizations such as that we are all one or whatever. What I mean is that the experience basically told you what the "right path" to take was, pertaining to a real-life matter. Maybe the experience told you what career path to follow, or gave you an epiphany about how to solve a relationship problem.
If you have had a revelation of this sort, did you adhere to the revelation? And if so, did it turn out to be a correct one? Also was the trip itself pleasant or unpleasant?
In addition, which psychedelic drug did you use?
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yabbahabba
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Yep. Hadn't done acid in a few years, was going through a real bad "fuck everything" period that had been going on too long. My behaviors and habits and drinking was just sending me down a shitty out of control spiral and the people who were the last on earth to care for me and take me in, I was taking advantage of and treating badly.
This Beck song sums me up pretty well.
Anyway, was just out to have fun with two buds who really don't take psychs seriously, they chill and talk like they're sitting around a campfire just drinking beer. They were having fun and they have a tolerance. When it really kicked in I had to be by myself. Eyes closed. No pretty visuals, just rapid fire ugly, ugly vivid shit, all of it, bombarding me.
I was going through withdrawals and missed my boat to buy booze and I knew there was shit I should be taking care of right then and there and there I was absolutely bombed on the worst guilt trip ever. No mind tricks with myself, no "hey man it's just a drug it'll wear off. Don't obsess over what you already know is fucked up about you" But fuck that. How dare I not?
I was so fucking pissed at myself for being too much of a pussy to stop the bullshit that was clogging my shit covered gas station toilet of a soul. The last thing I wanted was to be in for another 8 hours of this burning shame.
It wasn't so much not wanting to feel that way. I wanted nothing more than to immediately from that point on start taking every opportunity to do what I should be doing for all that is GOOD and completely refuse and reject any thoughts of indulging in gross shit like porn and getting drunk and stuffing my face on a couch. Fuck procrastination, I do not deserve a fucking hammock on a beach with two pina colodas. I want to be free of this residual guilt muck that sticks to me like a foul stench and regain that smile that comes with winning at life and having what I would call humble earned pride and peace. That just got out of the dentist's office clean teeth feeling.
Horrible trip. I'm glad. I went through some "flashback feelings" of that horrible burning for a long time. But while I was going through that I weened myself off the alcohol, got healthy, turned yellow from jaundice I guess from detoxing from years of HARD boozing. Went to the ER, they did scans and tests. Fortunately I've been giving my body all kinds of good healthy shit all my life, but not so much the past 10 years of killing myself with ethanol, so my liver was rough but not damaged beyond repair.
I had been on the rehab waiting list for almost 2 months at that time. And I still haven't had a drink. Going on a month sober. I wanked once in like a 40 day period. Had to get that out of the way. Shrug.
Anyway, this is my life, my one chance and it was so clear on that trip that this is not doing it right. This is what happens to bad people. I had turned into a bad person. My first trip was beyond bliss, euphoria, I called it heaven. I was a good person then. I regretted nothing. The rules of the universe were being followed and I was correctly in my place and I was free.
I want that again. I can't take back what I've done but I can forgive myself, and so will others. I just have to do what's right and everything will be alright. Even when it gets difficult. New opportunities, new people, new life. Every day's another chance to make yourself better and others better. That's why there's more than one of us. We're all either trying or not trying to get it right and we shouldn't do it alone.
That's why I'll never condemn psychedelics. Alot of us are lost and/or alone, and in the sad situation that you can't wake up, there's some force in these things that want to help you if you want to be helped.
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ergoticmandala



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Re: Have you ever had psychedelic revelations? [Re: yabbahabba]
#23542657 - 08/15/16 12:27 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I've had the "we are all one" revelation. I think mescalin and acid have helped me reaffirm certain conclusions which my subconscious mind had already decided upon, it's hard to give specific examples of this, but the fact that I want to pursue soccer and play it to the best of my ability, as well as learn how to play guitar surfaced on acid
I just had the realization that you can only focus, and dedicate your time to certain things in this life so you should just find the ones which fufil you the most in your heart.
However, I feel that these ideas were already in my mind, the acid simply helped me realize these things clearny and motivate me
Psychedelics can't totally create an idea out of nowhere, they can however help you organize your conscious/subconscious thoughts in a productive manner
at least thats what I think
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yabbahabba
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Re: Have you ever had psychedelic revelations? [Re: ergoticmandala]
#23542675 - 08/15/16 12:46 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Mescaline really makes the "we are all one" revelation hit home in the most beautiful beyond words way. You can say that phrase and get the concept but cactus lets you be it. My favorite. If I trip again that's the ticket.
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Jokeshopbeard
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Not as such OP, but psychedelics have brought me more in touch with everything, such as that I now notice synchronicities when I'm sober. Coupled with meditation, spiritual readings and practices, and a belief in, and reverence for, the force of life itself.
The 'synchronicites' which guide me seem to abound when I'm most aligned with my path, whatever the fuck it is, cause I really know not. I'm just tryna follow the signs, but signs I truly believe they are.
I'll tell you one thing though, what's brought all this about so much more than psyche's themselves, is love. It just so happens that psyche's allow me to feel that love more powerfully than I can in my 'day to day' existence.
Love is the key IMO, not the drugs. They're just a catalyst, in the same way that experiencing, and loving, other humans deeply is...
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Jokeshopbeard
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Re: Have you ever had psychedelic revelations? [Re: yabbahabba]
#23542855 - 08/15/16 03:10 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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yabbahabba said: Mescaline really makes the "we are all one" revelation hit home in the most beautiful beyond words way.
That's precisely why mescaline is my all time favourite drug, by far. It brings love to the fore like no other. DMT does it too, but I can't go about my day and meet people on DMT. Mescaline just enhances that feeling of love in ANY situation.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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