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pachoo
Witchakookoo



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Feeling lost
#23520647 - 08/07/16 11:03 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Lately I've been struggling with some sort of mental and emotional fatigue. I believe in some ways it has completely made me go into automatic robot mode and I fear that I may become further numb from my life. More and more so I drift into sadness and detachment with my life and thoughts. Sometimes there's nothing that runs through my head. I just am but it's not positive, it's from sheer exhaustion. I don't even know how to completely describe it.
Some days I sit and cry for no reason, perhaps dragged on by self pity or from the weight of responsibilities. I carry on shortly after and it feels like just a blip in the day. I hardly dwell on it later. I feel so detached from my emotions and thoughts. I often feel I AM my responsibilities. That I no longer am what my personality is.
I just feel so lost lately.
I know I need rest and hopefully soon I can attain it. But there is no time for me to do so now. I know this may sound like a dumb question but Shroomery, how do you rest without the time to do so?
How do you try to attach yourself to you? - might be the better question.
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Re: Feeling lost [Re: pachoo] 4
#23520833 - 08/08/16 12:16 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I recommend , firstly, daily exercise and a healthy diet. The mind correlates directly with the body and being healthy and active can make you less exhausted. Chakra meditation and exercise and living in strong physical health can help improve your attitude and bring you clarity.
Music, books and fresh air, baths, yoga, deep breathing, stretching and mediation help me the most. Emotions can never be suppressed because they always rise to the surface in one way or another, and are often manifested physically. Do not blame yourself for the suffering you feel; instead try to understand it and change your outlook and choices. It is okay to cry and to feel sad sometimes; it is only human. Examine how you can change what is in your power to change, let go of what you cannot change, and live in the present instead of the past or future. Learn from the past and believe in a brighter future. Change your thoughts and beliefs, change your life. Always love yourself and treat yourself , in any way you can. Get to the roots of your feelings and stress, however you can. Find basic comforts and outlets for your feelings. Express yourself artistically, talk to close friends and try not to feel so alone with your problems. I promise you are not alone .
Reading literature by Dr Wayne Dyer, Ram Dass, Alan Watts has changed my outlook on suffering and control. Learning about Buddhism and reading the Tao also helped me significantly during extremely rough times I've been going through.
I hope this helps you and I hope you feel better.
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Re: Feeling lost [Re: pachoo] 2
#23521010 - 08/08/16 02:23 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Anonymous said: I promise you are not alone.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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pachoo
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Thank you for your input. I'll try my best.
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Re: Feeling lost [Re: pachoo] 4
#23522077 - 08/08/16 01:58 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Pachoo take a relaxing vacation. A real vacation that is a week long to a beautiful place where your phone won't work. Reconnect with nature, lay in the sunshine and grin out.
Edited by Starstepper (08/08/16 06:10 PM)
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goldcaphunter
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I sit here lost inside my head. The silence gets us nowhere way to fast.
The emptiness is a game, just gotta play to win. It's not easy though.
https://g.co/kgs/sIYvCb Crank this and just listen
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pachoo
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I won't be able to take a real vacation but maybe after moving and slowly ticking off the long list of stuff to do I'll be able to take a sort of vacation. I'll be in the mountains and it's already so beautiful to me. I'll take a moment of pure laziness around my daily routines.
And I'll listen to that song Gold.
Thank you everyone for offering advice. I feel that I might have brought this on myself and dealing with constant trauma or drama has numbed me to myself when having to constantly deal with life and work. Plastering a smile and remaining happy go lucky is exhausting when forced. And believe me I remain virtually optimistic on the outside. I probably will never admit how hard it is for me. I feel almost empty and a shell of who I am. And unfortunately events have made me feel slightly bitter about things I probably can't change. All I can do now is let it go and focus on the moment and future.
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pachoo
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I haven't listened to Korn since I was a preteen. Thanks man.
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Re: Feeling lost [Re: pachoo] 1
#23528183 - 08/10/16 01:03 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Throwbacks
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TheShroomanizer
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I know your pain...emotional hurt that wont go away, well i thought it wouldnt...came so close to giving up, I have a hard time trusting people, and opening up as well...maybe because i dont want people to say "Oh Iv been there" or "hey cheer up it gets better" I just wanted something to keep for myself...or maybe it was because there was no word to describe that emptiness, that void that cannot be described...its a pain looking back at what was, and the blackness of looking forward and not KNOWING for sure that everything will be ok...but as long as there is the smallest minute feeling, that little bit of hope...it will be ok. And even when you cant find it on your own, sometimes we have to swallow our pride, and come to places like the shroomery, and ask for help. No one is alone, but we all have that little piece we want to keep for ourselves.
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Sometimes taking a week off from what is wrong just doesn't cut it. Just to dive back into what's wrong again.
Sometimes there is a time and place to completely erase, what is wrong.
This isnt how its supposed to be. Only around certain people, does this become the constant problem. Time and time again.
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I fall constantly stuck in myself and thoughts not finding way to express what I really think or feel. Endless reasoning why not do anything. I imagine some right drugs and proper relationship would help but these things are difficult to find. Every day is just masterful philosophical explanation how to manage forward. Telling yourself why must eat, sleep, move, act and speak properly and not dwell on negative emotions. Still time goes by wasted. That's just how it is. That is why we do stuff. Why we seek connection and why we create things. It's all basic stuff. We are just failing at it. Probably should just check our medication and "pull up our socks". Easier said than done though.
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I have been through (what felt like debilitating) depression at times in life. Where my life situation demanded things me that were not in alignment with my moral choices, and pulled myself further away from the ideal of myself that I held in my head. The growing dissonance between who I wanted to be and who was choosing to be here and I further detached myself from myself.
Not looking what I saw I subconsciously distances myself and put up a wall of denial. Whenever a crack in the wall would happen, sometimes for no reason, I would emotionally fall apart. Sometimes waves of anger and frustration, more often than not, overwhelming sorrow that felt misplaced. I cried a lot. Always in private where it was "allowed" away from others so they could see the crack in the wall that I felt protected them.
Eventually I came to face reality, have a true emotional breakdown about my choices and decided I deserved to give myself another chance. From that point on I decided to be stoic in my trials of life, steering clear of the easy path which provides no growth or challenge. Without challenge how can you ever know your potential?
Pachoo keep the hard path, blaze your own trail and be confident in your heart with your choices and do not let others dissuade you.
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pachoo
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You all are laying down some great truths and I feel connected to your stories. Thank you all of you.
I've been trying to put together a reply but I wanted to thank you all for sharing and I feel grateful for everyone opening up with me and giving advise.
I apologize in advance though if the following paragraphs seem very scatter brained and hard to follow. I'm still unsure how to properly communicate this.
Even tho I'm still in that slight disconnect, I feel slightly better than when I wrote the original post. Going thru my stuff was strangely helping as I was throwing away old things that I once held on to. I don't even know why I even kept some things in the first place. But it's just the beginning of a change that's been prompted for a long time I believe.
It's usually very easy to change my perspective on things and think optimistically. So I at least have that going on for me, but even though my brain is urging me forward my heart is telling me to stop. This time around it's feeling very blocked. I still have a lot of work to do I know. I'm glad there is a bigger opportunity for the time to deal with things now in my current situation. A sort of retreat from majority of stress that's been impacting me, but not really vacation. As in I'll get to finally be the stay at home parent and take time to focus on myself without having to put on a mask every day and pretend small talk and enthusiasm. Nothing seems better than the chance to nurture myself and my family for awhile.
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Re: Feeling lost [Re: pachoo]
#23537684 - 08/13/16 11:33 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Feeling lost is just being hyper sensitive to the unlimited possibilities of the universe.
Dont be critical of yourself.
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Re: Feeling lost [Re: pachoo]
#23538200 - 08/13/16 02:56 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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The end to unhappiness is found in god. God, being the supreme reality and not a being. Ego is the only barrier.
Edited by bigdoodie (08/13/16 03:40 PM)
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