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MarkostheGnostic
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Are you terminally ill? Blind? Deaf? Mute? Sexually impotent? Crippled? Paraplegic? Quadriplegic? Disfigured? Brain damaged? Are you illiterate? Homeless? A convicted felon on the run from the law with felony warrants issued in your name? Are you due to remand yourself into custody for a lengthy prison term? Do you have Hansen's Disease (Leprosy)? Are you a convicted pedophile? Are you guilty of treason, sedition or espionage in your country of origin? Did your parents attempt to drown you at birth (like an acquaintance of mine)? Were you birthed and left to die in a dumpster? were you left on the steps of a church or fire department after being born? Did your parents or guardians kick you out of the house on your 18th birthday?
No? Then STFU. You want some cheese to go with that whine? I have, in fact, socks that are older than you! I just turned 63 years old and have experienced a LOT of disappointments and failures as well as triumphs and achievements, and here you are threatening to euthanize yourself at the tender age of 19. 19! You're a still a kid, a teenager with two minutes of mistakes under your belt and some teenage angst. I'm a psychotherapist for over 30 years, and worked with adolescents for 27 of those years. What YOU need is a methodology called Tough Love® because without a Zen-slap (or God-smack) you won't WAKE UP and celebrate your youth in glory and in health! You'll get out of life what you put into it. SO, start taking responsibility for your actions for God's sake! The decade of the 20s is awesome even in the most boring of people. Man, when I used to start belly-aching about nothing at all, my long dead mom used to say "Go bang your head against a wall." Maybe that's all YOU"LL need to do instead of blowing your brains out. You're guaranteed to feel so much better when you stop.
-------------------- γνῶθι σαὐτόν - Gnothi Seauton - Know Thyself
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Buster_Brown
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Trippedytrip said:
...I dont really know what i do next? I maybe gonna go into a Monastery to live , i cant see anymore a life in society . I think il be well in a few years to unconsciously comprehend all the things that i have learned .
What do you think ?
Saint Anthony didn't do antipsychotics
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LunarEclipse
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Trippedytrip said: But i am conscious maybe in my head not in pure awareness.
I feel this neck pain and mye eyes stare at the front. I sure got stucked on MDMA + cannabis from all this months
I bet you are the life of the party.
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MarkostheGnostic said: Are you terminally ill? Blind? Deaf? Mute? Sexually impotent? Crippled? Paraplegic? Quadriplegic? Disfigured? Brain damaged? Are you illiterate? Homeless? A convicted felon on the run from the law with felony warrants issued in your name? Are you due to remand yourself into custody for a lengthy prison term? Do you have Hansen's Disease (Leprosy)? Are you a convicted pedophile? Are you guilty of treason, sedition or espionage in your country of origin? Did your parents attempt to drown you at birth (like an acquaintance of mine)? Were you birthed and left to die in a dumpster? were you left on the steps of a church or fire department after being born? Did your parents or guardians kick you out of the house on your 18th birthday?
No? Then STFU. You want some cheese to go with that whine? I have, in fact, socks that are older than you! I just turned 63 years old and have experienced a LOT of disappointments and failures as well as triumphs and achievements, and here you are threatening to euthanize yourself at the tender age of 19. 19! You're a still a kid, a teenager with two minutes of mistakes under your belt and some teenage angst. I'm a psychotherapist for over 30 years, and worked with adolescents for 27 of those years. What YOU need is a methodology called Tough Love® because without a Zen-slap (or God-smack) you won't WAKE UP and celebrate your youth in glory and in health! You'll get out of life what you put into it. SO, start taking responsibility for your actions for God's sake! The decade of the 20s is awesome even in the most boring of people. Man, when I used to start belly-aching about nothing at all, my long dead mom used to say "Go bang your head against a wall." Maybe that's all YOU"LL need to do instead of blowing your brains out. You're guaranteed to feel so much better when you stop. 
Lighten up, old timer.
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MarkostheGnostic
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(Someone can't write "brain damage" without the song title filling your mind?)
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Trippedytrip
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Hey guys thanks for posts!
Its just i came i had fallen down to the extreme and there is no going up again. I see everything through my mind and bot through my eyes.
When i look in the mirror i feel stucked , eyes roll with me.
I dont make progress , just thoughts and there is no going forward , my eyes dont get the info going forward. I am cannabis abstinent since 4-5 weeks.
I tried shrooms last year , should i give them a try?
I have nothing to loose anymore.
I am in a ward and they say i will be fine but i dont trust anyone here. It is just i am in this permanent state with brain zaps sometimes and nothing more.
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Where are you from out of curiosity?
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Trippedytrip
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Re: When a life is over at 19 [Re: 404]
#23526779 - 08/10/16 01:13 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Germany/Spain living in Germany
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Germany and Spain always seemed like really really pretty places to go visit, moreso germany.
At any rate, if you are in a Ward I would wait at least until you were out of there for a while to try any sort of psychedelics or otherwise avoid them altogether as psychedelics may exacerbate mental illnesses like schizophreniform disorders and mood disorders.
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Trippedytrip
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Re: When a life is over at 19 [Re: 404]
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But i think my life is over , i dont know if it is the problem but i had MRTS done and everythings fine and in the other tests 2.
It is just i see life through my mind and not eyes.
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hTx
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Trippedytrip
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Re: When a life is over at 19 [Re: hTx]
#23527071 - 08/10/16 03:41 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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How do i light up the darkness? How can i escape captivity?
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hTx
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rid yourself of death anxiety.
spread joy and forgive.
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zzripz
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first, your not on your own wondering that. Your not the first person who feels fked up in THIS world and won't be the last!
So your in a psychiatric ward? Can you tell us the story how you came to get stuck in that?
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Re: When a life is over at 19 [Re: zzripz]
#23527384 - 08/10/16 07:32 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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You're* (you are) not on your (possesion) own. You're*(you are) not the first person~ So you're* (you are) in a psychiatric ward?
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Trippedytrip
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Re: When a life is over at 19 [Re: 404]
#23527492 - 08/10/16 08:11 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I came to this to a point. Everything started fine a day. I woke up an everything was fine. It was different to other days , everything seemed so real. It went good 3 weeks with that mode.
It then took negative paths , a lot of memories from past wich led to enlightment and more madness. I remained sober in that time but also kept smoking some days. Had constant thoughts still i was detached from my body and mind , just hovering around.
My world has gone 360o around. I feel reincarnated and new to body and mind . Then came anxiety , isolation and fears . Now i got to the point where i was in a hole , feeling lost and no self feeling.
I then came to the ward , abstinence week 6 .
I have better concentracion , self feeling is better but i dont feel grounded yet.
I dont know what helps me but i am leaving now the meds wich have blocked this sensations and it is my time to put some effort in.
Thats all
Peace
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zzripz
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Peace
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Eywa_devotee
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Re: When a life is over at 19 [Re: zzripz]
#23529680 - 08/10/16 09:04 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Your life would be over if you got caught with lots of drugs in the US. If your use of drugs is excessive and damaging, just stop using them. If it's MDMA you overdid, stop and take some Syrian rue to gently boost your seratonin back up.
-------------------- "Love one another." "To Love is to know me." "Love is the Law, Love under Will." "In Compassion, all sorrows end." Regardless of the Master, the message is the same- Choose love and you shall live, Choose Fear and you shall die. Help bring peace to this Earth: Love one another, and serve others before yourself.
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You would be amazed at how life can turn around sometimes. I have over done drugs before too and thought I would be stuck in a permanent hell and wanted to end my life, only to come out of it and find some joy again.
A lot of the difficulty comes from not knowing how to cope with loss, realizing what you had and that you can never have the past back. Its quite a shock at first.
The best thing to do is relax and accept how things are now, and give yourself a lot of time and then see if things dont improve.
-------------------- The path of the herbalist is to open ourselves to nature in an innocent and pure way. SHe in turn will open her bounty and reward us with many valuable secrets. May the earth bless you. - Michael Tierra
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Re: When a life is over at 19 [Re: Peyote Road] 1
#23529939 - 08/10/16 11:52 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I think it is not that bad , my psychosis led to this inner enlightment of who i truly want to be from my soul and not the old ego i had constructed. I guess i need to build my own reality again.
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