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Dark Magician
Amateur psychonaut

Registered: 08/08/16
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Fear of going insane
#23523728 - 08/08/16 11:55 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Hello friends have a nice day ,swim has been worrying about some things recently and wanted to share it with others so he can have some opinions and views.Swim has been a pot smoker since 15years old and is now 19,swim has used shrooms three times,mdma about 10,and recently some days ago smoked salvia x15....swim has had anxiety and fears of going insane in the last year but nothing too serious... The problem is that a couple days after salvia he still was in this dreamy salvia state and everytime he smoked pot he felt kind of anxious and too high,like salvia high....one of those days he was at home with friends smoking pot and swim made a thoughts in his mind which had to do with satan(someone had mentioned a bad trip he had about satan earlier and this could have affected swim thoughts a little ),it was more of a funny joke thought and not something taken seriously,swim does not believe in these kind of things,at least not in this way...after swim made this thought he laughed in front of everybody(cause it was something funny)and his friends where asking him why but swim didnt say cause he didnt thought it was important,at that moment,allthough swim did not reveal his thought to his friends, a friend of swims started telling him that the thoughts swim made was not funny at all and that swim should not think about such stuff and started acting like he was reading my mind,its kind of like a joke thing swim and his friends do some times teasing each other aknowledging that reading each others minds is not possible,the thing is that for some minutes swim was convinced that his friend actually did read his mind and his friend was satan cause the thing swim thought had to do with satan(its worth mentioning that the friend who did this was the one who had a bad trip and saw satan)at that moment swim actually believed it and went to his room to think about it,after some minutes swim reallized he is just paranoic and forgot about it, Swim also had some small delusions the days after and questioning reality a lot and has been thinking about that incident since,could swim has started to become delusional?should swim worry about it?has someone else had delusional thoughts that only lasted a minute?swim is generally a little anxious person watching his thoughts and checking his sanity very often because of the deep fear of losing his mind,what are your opinions on the subject? Is this a symptom of some mental disorder,maybe triggered by salvia? swim has been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder a year ago,i know this post is kinda funny but swim is a little pussy sometimes and wants some advice
Edited by Dark Magician (08/09/16 06:44 AM)
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Rollin.n.Strollin



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Anxiety and overthinking thoughts, a mental disorder? If it's just Delusions than that doesn't exactly mean mental abnormalities. You could be just suffering some ongoing side effects from salvia, I had similar symptoms with my first large dose of dextromethorphan, severe depression and suicidal thoughts, but it fades away with time. But if you are worried about actual psychiatric disorganization than see an actual psyche.
And "SWIM" isn't really that necessary on the shroomery.
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Jokeshopbeard
Humble Student

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Quote:
Rollin.n.Strollin said: And "SWIM" isn't really that necessary on the shroomery.
Agree, 'tis 'old shit'
OP, can you please add some paragraph spacings? I's like to help but I'm very tired and I can't work with a solid wall of text.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Dark Magician
Amateur psychonaut


Registered: 08/08/16
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Im sorry for making the text a pain in the eyes ,anyway i appriciate any helpfull reply
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Thayendanegea
quiet walker



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Honestly, op....I don't see any big flags here. My first recommendation would be to lay off all drugs (yes, including weed) for a couple months and see how you feel. My gut says your psyche will most likely reset to normal.
-------------------- Look Deep Into Nature,and Then You Will Understand Everything Better. Albert Einstein
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