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LunarEclipse
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OrgoneConclusion said: Death by organic salsa is The Way!
I'd suggest a diet heavy in Pepsi and Nacho Cheese Doritos.
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Murzelpfrumpft
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Not death is bliss (for aforementioned reasons) but dying for sure can be. I always read about those romans offing themselves euphorically by bleeding to death in a warm bath. Then when it was my turn to bleed out by accident, I finally understood, despite of freezing november streets providing a lot less comfort than a hot bath. It's pretty obvious that a human life passing by the mind's eye seldom shows all joy and good memories, and so I went from shock, over denial to acceptance and appreciation, in a flash. Seeing the aforementioned "nothingness" doesn't scare everyone, in fact this was an intensely happy moment for me, providing a relief so powerful, I felt it lift my body a few inches off the ground.
It was very hard to accept waking up again, two weeks later in an intensive care unit. It still is, a decade afterwards.
I can say that if I had a latent death wish anyway, and would be diagnosed with cancer, I would sure as hell refuse treatment. What I would not do is to ride it out, long and painfully. The little bit of self-pity that was the cause of this thread would only be the tip of the iceberg. Dying of cancer is as miserable as it gets. What I would do is go out with a bang of some kind, if literally, metaphorically or intravenously would be dependant upon mood. Something along the lines of dying like a man and not like a coward.
Dying can be an utterly beautiful spiritual experience, don't waste it by waiting for a miserable mindset to set in.
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LunarEclipse
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Murzelpfrumpft said: Not death is bliss (for aforementioned reasons) but dying for sure can be. I always read about those romans offing themselves euphorically by bleeding to death in a warm bath. Then when it was my turn to bleed out by accident, I finally understood, despite of freezing november streets providing a lot less comfort than a hot bath. It's pretty obvious that a human life passing by the mind's eye seldom shows all joy and good memories, and so I went from shock, over denial to acceptance and appreciation, in a flash. Seeing the aforementioned "nothingness" doesn't scare everyone, in fact this was an intensely happy moment for me, providing a relief so powerful, I felt it lift my body a few inches off the ground.
It was very hard to accept waking up again, two weeks later in an intensive care unit. It still is, a decade afterwards.
I can say that if I had a latent death wish anyway, and would be diagnosed with cancer, I would sure as hell refuse treatment. What I would not do is to ride it out, long and painfully. The little bit of self-pity that was the cause of this thread would only be the tip of the iceberg. Dying of cancer is as miserable as it gets. What I would do is go out with a bang of some kind, if literally, metaphorically or intravenously would be dependant upon mood. Something along the lines of dying like a man and not like a coward.
Dying can be an utterly beautiful spiritual experience, don't waste it by waiting for a miserable mindset to set in.
My poor sister died of a cancer likely put upon her by the same monster of a mate that likely strangled her when she fought too hard and might have survived. What can I do, I can't change things and it's far too late for an autopsy. Anything would just punish my sisters kids to have their dad gone.
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Murzelpfrumpft
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You don't need to explain but that surely is a very strange story
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LunarEclipse
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Murzelpfrumpft said: You don't need to explain but that surely is a very strange story
Shall I bring in the stolen research and the Rockefeller Foundation connection along with the disappearance of the original researcher?
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demiu5
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did she ask her partner to strangle her?
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LunarEclipse
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Re: Passive Suicide [Re: demiu5]
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demiu5 said: did she ask her partner to strangle her?
no. she wanted to live but this prick did her in right before my mom and dad drove up to see my sister.
unlike some gutless folks, my sis had a shit ton of courage and fought with every fiber of her being. she just made a bad choice of a cheating murderous mate.
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Edited by LunarEclipse (08/09/16 07:58 PM)
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Murzelpfrumpft
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Murzelpfrumpft said: You don't need to explain but that surely is a very strange story
Shall I bring in the stolen research and the Rockefeller Foundation connection along with the disappearance of the original researcher?
This sounds pretty confusing to say the least.
Did you notice any other suspicious activities around recently?
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LunarEclipse
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Murzelpfrumpft said:
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LunarEclipse said:
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Murzelpfrumpft said: You don't need to explain but that surely is a very strange story
Shall I bring in the stolen research and the Rockefeller Foundation connection along with the disappearance of the original researcher?
This sounds pretty confusing to say the least.
Did you notice any other suspicious activities around recently?
Recently? No, the murdering bastard no longer is in my life. Confusing? Not really, he is a thief a murderer and a prick. I think he has tenure at the university and makes a nice pension living with his murdering whore fellow researcher. At least I don't have to worry about it their kids are fellow whores and not worthy of my time.
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tump
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Besides any fiber will make it worse. Screw organic go fully processed crap form dallor tree.
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OrgoneConclusion
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Re: Passive Suicide [Re: tump] 2
#23530009 - 08/11/16 12:48 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Update: I started this thread when I was at one of the lowest points of my life and that was obviously self-pity talking. Am I all happy and balanced now? No, but I will seek medical treatment and put up the good fight.
Death is way easier than living, but there is plenty of time for that.
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Fucking glad to hear that OC. My feeling is that you've still got much to do, much to learn, and much to give, before your time here on this plane of existence is up.
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Brian Jones
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OrgoneConclusion said: Update: I started this thread when I was at one of the lowest points of my life and that was obviously self-pity talking. Am I all happy and balanced now? No, but I will seek medical treatment and put up the good fight.
Death is way easier than living, but there is plenty of time for that.
Way to go good. Keep fighting just lost an eye right after losing the 2 most important pe0ple in my life. I feel terribe but maybe I can get it back under control.
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OrgoneConclusion
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Sorry to hear that, Brian. What happened?
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I fell on a guitar, facepalmed the buckle for the strap on the upper cutaway of a Fender Squire (student version of a Stratacaster). The funny thing is I thought I did this at my house at 7AM after me and my friend did afterhours drinking since the bar closed at 2. He drank heavily at the bar, I drank light for 90 minutes, and was catching up fast at home. It wasn't till a week later that a 3rd friend told me he came to my house after he got off work at 6 AM and stayed till 8 (I had no recollection). He said he asked me to tune the guitar cause I'm mostly tonedeaf and I couldn't find my electronic tuner. The guitar got moved from behind the love seat to right where the coach an loveseat form an L. So at closer to 9AM I do this 1 out of 10,00 fall and my eyeball made pefect contact with the buckle. So this was the price for me being sloppy and not being able to find the tuner. The eyeball is still in and they wont take the sutures out for another month but there is no hope for sight. To be fair I guess 2 pitchers at the bar and 23 cans afterwards runs toward excessive.
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OrgoneConclusion
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Awww, man!
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Yikes I keep going to get my right retina welded back in place, going to lose that eye some day I guess. It's still flashing every day so the last fix hasn't been a good one. laser retinal surgery is very very painful and HOT!
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OrgoneConclusion
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I noticed that when I read Brian's story, my focus shifted from my problems to his tragedy; from the inner to the outer - and in that moment, my pain stopped.
Compassion > self-pity. That is today's lesson.
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OrgoneConclusion
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redgreenvines said: Yikes I keep going to get my right retina welded back in place, going to lose that eye some day I guess. It's still flashing every day so the last fix hasn't been a good one. laser retinal surgery is very very painful and HOT!
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OrgoneConclusion said:
Am I all happy and balanced now? No, but I will seek medical treatment and put up the good fight.
Have you considered you might not have a biological problem.
What is it exactly you want to change, and what is the fight about?
Glad you are doing better.
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