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EnDelfisE
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2000micsLSD+500mgs2-CB+3 Grams MDMA 200mg4FA +. Paranoid going to jail Ate em all. 1
#23505328 - 08/03/16 11:52 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Hello everybody, this is my first trip report maybe because think I got very close to a point were I'd never get posting one so I might as well do it right now :P
it's been exactly one week since my experience everything started at about this exact time I am currently writing this, Its a little weird every time I try to travel through my mind back to the images and emotions of that days but I will try doing my best.
About a week ago we decided to go to this Amazing 6 day psytrance festival(Modem) in Croatia, we traveled through many countries there in a van living the adventures that the road brings! arriving there 2 days after we stared pretty sleepless but so happy and pumped of being there! we picked up 3 more other cool people on the way to the festival that needed a ride from a near city! they seemed really cool too! so we arrive at about 3 o'clock at the first night of the festival we park the van and we go straight to the main stage! every person at the festival had these really cool vibes about him, everybody was smiling! dancing to the amazing sounds of the Djs and oh god the setting was just outside of a fairytale! Well anyone who is familiar with Modem should know what I'm talking about! really something out of a fairytale! so feeling this unlimited source of energy from the music people and the environment had really taken me to a nirvana by that time even though sleepless stinky and tired from the long trip I danced almost until noon next day then went swimming into to the river near the waterfall witch was so amazing! and after that we set up the tens and took a little nap! waking up after just a few hours is was dark already about 10:30 we wake up meet some other interesting people get ready and head for the main stage again! Its then when I decide to take 4-fa and acid ( I have done this again and its always been great! I take 200mg fa and after 30 minutes while we are walking through the festival and towards the stage I take this 3 bloaters of acid I have been waiting to try for quite a while they are 125mics each from one of the best chemists back at LSD AVENGERS, so I knew it was really pure acid. I take them and I start coming up.. I feel AMAZING! out of this world ,,, orgasmic... all over my body the music .. the people the lights everything i'm having amazing connections with people all around and I feel really happy!!! Now after about 1 hour or my friend suggests we go get something to eat, I wasn't hungry but I joined him for the company, we go to this quite place near the main stage and he orders something to eat, by tht time I'm really tripping balls! I starting conversations with random people and the bartender witch he seems a little strange but I don't really care since I'm having a blast! I start talking about psychedelics and other drugs but I wasn't really being quite about it and the place was pretty much full with people, so after a while I start to pick up stranger and stranger vibes in the air.. the bartender says we shouldn't be talking about that because there are undercover cops in there.. and that's were I start loosing my shit.. I tell my friend we should leave.. we do that and this paranoia for probably the first time after all the years I've used psychedelics sets in.. I think we are being watched everywhere I go.. and the worst thing was that my vision was really realy bad because I had lost my contact lenses that day and I couldn't see anything in the darkness like anything farther than half a meter away was really blurry to me.. my friend was tripping also.. I ask him could it be true? the security was following us? I tell him man I can see shit and I start to get afraid? I was thinking I have all of my drugs in me right now.. everything I had to enjoy the festival! 13 more bloaters of acid 0.5 grams of 2CB and 3 grams of MDMA... so I'm freaking out more and more as we walk around I start seeing people everywhere we go people in black blurry images and a feeling like everybody was watching me.. I'm in a really really bad place right now... I'm loosing it! I tell my friend and he seems to be afraid to.. I don't know if all this you be a make up of my imagination.. I have never had a hallucination on psychedelics like to see something that its not there but I would really swear everything was real.. I thought that would come to us any second and search us that's were I did the stupidest shit of my life.. I rich to my wallet and I EAT everything... everything.. I didn't tell anything to my friend I just said we should go sit down to a chair an wait there he agrees in my mind I'm thinking ok now I'm now either burning my whole brain up ending in a nuthouse for the rest of my life or I'm surely dying since I never new somebody that has ever had that many drugs at once.. especially for the half gram of 2CB and the 3 grams f MDMA I was really afraid they would damage me real good..
So we are sitting there at the chair thinking I'm dyeing.. after that I have a very very limited amount of memories of the things I did or said.. I remember not being afraid of death just thinking I have had a wonderful life with people I love and have loved me back, I was also thinking about the bad things I have done in my life but I was feeling that was also a part o the process we have to go through to life in order to evolve ourselves and learn..
I was going deeper and deeper inside my psyche layer by layer my consciousness was shrinking into an abyss.. that's only feeling and fragments.. I have not very clear..
The only thing I remember very very clearly was this big book with black and white pages.. every page that turned it represented images and different stages-chapters of my life.. I was watching my whole life in an open book that somebody was closing marching the end of it.. I didn't feel fear.. I felt light and a sense of bliss as it closed leaving my passed life behind I knew that was not the end of anything just a change my life force.. my soul however you call it.. would move on recycle into something else something also beautiful and the circle would still go on.. then the book closes and I want to see who closed the book of my life who was GOD.. I take a look from above as my soul floats free and there I see It.. it was me the one who has always been it was been the one who wrote every page of this book, I was the god of my life.. strange feelings but good ones started to rush into me at that point .. then I don't remember anything the told me I was rolling into the dirt into the woods getting inside other peoples tents screaming that the universe is beautiful and that I couldn't believe how beautiful I felt.. a guy also took a video of me saying that.. I get goosebumps wen I see it... I cant even recognize my voice.. sounds so weird.. so high...
next people found the infirmary and they get the paramedics to pick me up, they are trying to get care of me but I don't remember anything.. I a point I shut down I am lying on the floor, over a towel outside the infirmary, every muscle of my body is stretched to the limits I'm also shaking... uncontrollably my friends find me there and the tell me that went on for hours but the doctor said my vitals looked fine except of the trembling and the muscles I was forcing to stretch in all of my body.. the next morning I remember I feel like a walking dead the try carrying me to the tent but I could barely stand on my feet..I cant communicate and I cant talk to anyone cant even hold my eyes open for too much.. I feel really shitty.. they take me to the tent and lie me down. give me some water and take a little care o me .. I feel like the stage before you fall into sleep like sleeping and not sleeping my body hurts really I cant even stand up on my feet an go to the toilet it seems impossible to stand up I sleep through the day and the whole night... next day morning I wake up feeling really tires I stand up to g to the toilet but my feet is really weak I'm shaking.. I can hardly make it without falling..
I come back and rest some more.. so.. it takes my about 2 days an nights to get back to reality.. the second day my whole body felt like I was working out for like 4 hours straight every muscle in my body was shore.. a little spaced out but happy to be alive.. my friends though I was gonna be permanently damaged after that and were really happy I was back.. now about weak after I feel I'm almost back 90%. my body can get a little tired easier than before, but I'm picking up. One weird thing that happened two times since then is that before I fall asleep I fall in this stage of mind were I think like I am lying to the bed still with open eyes but I'm watching something bad happening without me being able to react.. scream speak or move my body. I have this strange scary feeling like I am totally vulnerable and I something evil stands there wanting to harm me.. I hope its nothing and its gonna go away soon
Thank you for having the patience for going through my report, my English is not the best but I hope I could give you an insight of what I went through
Any comment is appreciated greatly
Peace and love to yall and be careful guys.. don't do the stupid sit I did..
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impatientguy
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Re: 2000micsLSD+500mgs2-CB+3 Grams MDMA 200mg4FA +. Paranoid going to jail Ate em all. [Re: EnDelfisE] 1
#23505375 - 08/03/16 12:05 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I think 3000mg of mdma would kill me easily by itself.
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EnDelfisE
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Re: 2000micsLSD+500mgs2-CB+3 Grams MDMA 200mg4FA +. Paranoid going to jail Ate em all. [Re: impatientguy]
#23505544 - 08/03/16 12:47 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I know man ... I thought the same myself I have had only done 0.25 of mdma in the pased like 5 times in total, I have a pretty decent scale to mesure 2cb into 0.02 doses soI know I measured everything well, I really dont fuck around with the dosages. it was the thought I was going to jail failing my family back home witch made me take this risk, to either survive loose my mind or die.. I have noticed an increased sensitivity to fear the passed two days like something spooky is there... I had never such problems.. the only thing worring me is the freaking dreams that I found myself half wokken and something ispulling me to the air and chocking me... that happened last night 2 times:/
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Re: 2000micsLSD+500mgs2-CB+3 Grams MDMA 200mg4FA +. Paranoid going to jail Ate em all. [Re: EnDelfisE]
#23505573 - 08/03/16 12:56 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Well you lucked out then it sounds like
Just ride the luck haha
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EnDelfisE
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Re: 2000micsLSD+500mgs2-CB+3 Grams MDMA 200mg4FA +. Paranoid going to jail Ate em all. [Re: impatientguy]
#23508117 - 08/04/16 01:23 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I agree man! it was a big lesson!
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Re: 2000micsLSD+500mgs2-CB+3 Grams MDMA 200mg4FA +. Paranoid going to jail Ate em all. [Re: EnDelfisE]
#23542839 - 08/15/16 02:59 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Wow, glad you survived it and got out without going bananas!.
The thing you get before sleeping has been happening to me my whole life on a daily basis, it's called "sleep paralysis", happens when your brain thinks you're sleeping but in reality you're wide awake, so you can only control the eyelids which is the only muscle you can work yourself at that point.. I just learnt to live with it, if you want to get out of it start moving your fingers as fast and hard as you can... When they start moving a bit keep going to moving them and the arm together, will be over in 10 seconds.
Mostly it happens when you wake up, but for me, just as you said.. I start to get this sensation in my head and stomach that if I don't snap out of it now it's gonna trap my body for a few seconds. And also I've been forcing my self to get to this paralysis over and over again just to stop being afraid of it. Which works until today as I learnt to cope with it. And if you keep on that stage and don't try to break free I know that it has it's awful dark scary feeling... But you start hallucinating visually and sound-wise pretty hardcore.(maybe because of the DMT)
Glad you're okay man! Keep on writing.
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Re: 2000micsLSD+500mgs2-CB+3 Grams MDMA 200mg4FA +. Paranoid going to jail Ate em all. [Re: psilosalvia]
#23554501 - 08/18/16 07:08 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I understand that feeling of evil when youre in between sleep and awake... i did far too much mdma at one point in my life and i experienced something similar. Chill on the drugs, live a healthy lifestyle, youll get back to your natural state. Time heals most wounds.
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Re: 2000micsLSD+500mgs2-CB+3 Grams MDMA 200mg4FA +. Paranoid going to jail Ate em all. [Re: FractalMind]
#23556932 - 08/19/16 01:33 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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The FEAR man, people say it's real.
I understand it as sleep paralysis too but some stories i've heard are so crazy that the mind instantly goes to demonic posession.
If it were possession, I know for sure that just the acknowledgement of it will not give an entity enough power to harm you physically. So if you believe it is a spirit, continue to acknowledge it but push it out through breathing.
In my eyes, you tapped into a part of your brain and now you understand tactile senses and sleep paralysis a little more. Who knows, i don't, i'd like to know, could hurt me, so forget it.
Live life every day as if that day you took the huge dose was the first day of your life. You're just learning things new again.
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Re: 2000micsLSD+500mgs2-CB+3 Grams MDMA 200mg4FA +. Paranoid going to jail Ate em all. [Re: EnDelfisE]
#23557166 - 08/19/16 03:07 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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wow you're extremely lucky you didn't die.
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Re: 2000micsLSD+500mgs2-CB+3 Grams MDMA 200mg4FA +. Paranoid going to jail Ate em all. [Re: Sheekle]
#23568367 - 08/23/16 08:05 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah actually the LD50 of MDMA is insanely high in terms of dosage response. As in 400mg of MDMA will black anyone out, and think anymore would kill them, whereas people can actually eat 5g of MDMA in a night and that's the LD50. I can't imagine what would be going on in the brain at that point...
Shit I used to eat 1g of MDMA moon rocks a night when I was 16, and I still scored A+ in private University although I will say the temporary damage MDMA can do is scary.
I also have sleep paralysis, from before even doing any substance, and I can tell you it is very scary. I've hallucinated that I'm 3rd person in the room looking at my sleep as a ghost or demon approaches to come kill me. Even woken up for a few seconds still with the perception change. I finally understand what people mean when they start "seeing" themselves from the 3rd person on psychedelic trips.
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