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ThatsAllFolks
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Registered: 08/03/16
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MDMA & MDAI
#23504897 - 08/03/16 09:31 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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First time posting here. Need someone to tell me what's going on. I've been down many holes over my few years of experimenting with psychedelics & stimulants (mental enhancers as I like to call them) and in my opinion feel like I have one hell of a tolerance (first ever trip was 5 doses of 2c-I that was placed in my mouth at a party by a very friendly and attractive lady *partially lost my mind for a couple days*) but to cut to the chase, I spent a little more than a week consecutively binging on stimulants. I never felt like my serotonin ever depleted, especially after spending much much longer than I knew was safe eating X like it was candy. But that's another story. 5 grams MDMA & 5 grams MDAI Have had past experiences with both and never experienced comedown or after effects I always heard of, I figured I'd enjoy myself. The first 3 days I did a gram of whichever I was feeling like Orally or nasally. But then I started combining a grams worth of the two and would rail lines thought the day. It got out of hand and I'm not one to come to that conclusion. I was railing 80-100mg lines every 30-60 minutes. On the last day me and a buddy had decided to kill the bag and split a gram and a half throughout the night together. By sunrise he was in all ways possible gacked out of his mind. And I was feeling pretty dam dandy which confused me. As you can probably tell not much sleep or eating was involved. The following night was terror filled. This all happened in less than 1 hour. All my roommates left around midnight for some event which I thought was cool, time to get some quiet rest for the first time in a week. I took a shower beforehand, and as I was drying off. I heard music playing from the living room pretty loudly too and lots of talking and laughter which was normal in my home. I hurriedly dried off and went to see who was home just to find the living how I left it. Lacking any other human being and all the lights off. I panic for a minute and brush it off and start rolling a cigarette. As I'm finishing my cigarette I hear a very loud scratching noise coming from the Pantry 3 feet away from me. I instantly think it's a roommate, they mess around like that so I open it grinning just to find nothing. I go outside smoke said cigarette and head back to my room. Very confused. And right before the hallway I hear a slam like a bag of bricks falling from 10 feet. I ran to the bedroom and got into bed and was instantly out. It's been two days and I definitely don't feel depressed but not right. I can see weird bugs and creatures that aren't really there, shapes and figures sometimes realistic sometimes made of smoke. The scratching noise follows me everywhere. As long as I'm near something scratchable and it's so loud I almost have to cover my ears. Life itself doesn't seem correct anymore, there's this aura behind everything, it's not wrong but it's not right. My soul is being ripped from my body. I hardly recognized my reflection this morning. I needed to log this before I'm someone else. I don't know how much longer I have until my mind collapses in on itself. Don't ever abuse stimulants no matter how god like you think you are
Edited by ThatsAllFolks (08/03/16 04:49 PM)
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DedPoison
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My first time doing MDMA I did 6 doses. Figuring they were 150mg ea. that puts me at almost 1g of MDMA. I've never experienced any effects like these, however, I do see tracers and randomly running shadows in my peripheral vision. Experienced long term depression/anxiety. I would recommend to smoke some cigarettes or weed until you get better. Also try one doses of Benadryl to put you to sleep when you're seeing/hearing things. Don't want to aggravate some unknowns in overdosing MDMA/stimulant usage. All the best to you!
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ThatsAllFolks
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I seem to have lost my will to light a bowl up. It causes me extreme anxiety and paranoia, almost to the point where I'll faint. which Ive never had problems with.
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WishIwasACat
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Registered: 07/28/16
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Let your mind heal man,
Lay off any stimulants including caffeine and weed.
Maybe try taking something like 5-htp to help serotonin levels or Gaba to heal/act as a neurotransmitter and repair any damage done.
Give it time and this too shall pass, take it as a learning experience and don't do it again.
You will be fine.
Peace.
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ComebackKid
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Registered: 05/27/16
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Hey man. I used to binge out on grams of very high quality mdma quite frequently. My and a friend every weekend would get together and both do about 2 grams in a night. By the end of the weekend you're feeling pretty loops but over time the effects just didn't have that thing.
I luckily realized that this was very self destructive behaviour and have limited my use of stimulants. My tolerance is now low again and I use maybe once a month, if that even.
Well I went out about three weekends ago and even though my tolerance is low I'm not opposed of doing three or so pills of mdma in a night. I met someone with mdma through a friend while I was out and bought 5 pills off him. He cautioned me and said they were good and I thought nothing of it. I droped 2 pills and left to the bathroom to snort one more.
The effects started creeping up on me not long after and I had this dopy smile on my face and life seemed very dreamy. My thoughts would kind of just trail off places and I would catch myself thinking of odd things sometimes not knowing how I got there. It was extremely and overwhelmingly pleasant.
I messaged my friend at this point who was at an after hours club across the city to tell him about this amazing mdma that I had and told him I would save two for him. I decided to walk aND collect myself on the way. I have not felt that amazing and that spaced out from mdma in a very long time. Years maybe. On my walk I was fumbling with the pills in my pocker thinking about how my friend was really going to love them. All of a sudden I had swallowed them both.
What the fuck was I doing? I was supposed to be saving those! DI'd I have no self control? What was I thinking?
Well I had a lot more trouble collecting myself that night. At one point I was talking to someone at the after hours and I had a coin in my hand waving around as I talked and I was slowly putting it in my mouth. Very questionable behaviour. I would kind of just laugh it off but I was also slightly concerned about my behaviour.
I had an amazing night don't get me wrong. The music was great I remember everything. I felt amazing. After it was over I went back to my friends flat. This is where I lost it. I was feeling pretty normal still glowing a bit from the night and decided a bong of weed would make me feel even better. (I don't smoke weed regularily btw) I started to have very wild delusions. I could hear music and people snickering and laughing and talking loudly in the hallway although I couldn't quite make out what they were saying. Everytime I would open the door I would hear them 'scurry away' and the music would stop. I started to feel as though theu were plotting against me.
I knew it was all in my head. Everything started to feel staged like I was having a bad trip on psychedelics. I was feeling very self concious. When I would look at objects on the table they would grow in size disproportionate to its surroundings seeming like they would be bigger than the table itself. When I would stare in the mirror long enough my facial features would pop out of my face (like the board game perfection "POP! goes perfection") and move around. Sometimes they would look like cartoon drawings or play dough. VERY WEIRD VISUAL HALLUCINATIONS! !! Like stuff I wouldn't imagine possible. Stuff that I would accuse other people of making up because I just couldn't fathom it. And on top of it all my heart was racing and there were voice's and music in my head.
I didn't sleep until about midnight the next night. I was afraid to sleep. I was afraid to sleep cause I felt that, as long as I was concious, I could control how far gone I would become, and in the morning maybe I would not recognize a thing.
The next day I was fine. I was a little hazy and disturbed and slightly not right from the experience. But I was fine. And every day was more fine after that. I'm completely over it. Looking back on it now I feel a bit silly. But also I have a changed perspective and respect for the power of stimulants.
Stimulant induced psychosis. Not fun.
Get some sleep. Eat right. Stop stimulating your brain with chemicals. Have a break. You will recover.
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