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MushroomAreTheKey
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Psychedelics help get over a fear? 1
#23490884 - 07/29/16 11:38 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Hey, I just wanna ask you guys for some help on something serious. Out of respect please don't post joke or anything ignorant, thanks. So when i was about 10 maybe younger i was exposed to some horrible shit, my dad was cheating on my mom and he had been beating me and my sister. Eventually we built up enough courage to call the cops on him after he said quote " im going to slaughter this family" and told us that if we called the cops he'd hunt us down and critically injure us. My mother had been going through this for 25 years. My mother has been a parent since she was 15 years old and had been with pretty harsh guys such as crack addicts. So the anxiety was basically in my genes. When I was around 10-14 i was in that rebellious I don't give a fuck about life phase. I watched my father drive away in the back seat of a cop car and I pretended like I didn't give a fuck but in my head I knew i would miss him even though he was abusive. A couple months later my mother gave in and let him back in our life and house after he had claimed that he had changed. This conflicted with my emotions and soon i turned to drugs.
At this point in time im 11 years old and my sister is currently dating a guy who's mother is a medical marijuana patient so my sisters boyfriend steals her weed and would share it with my sister. One day im walking by a lil park in my area and I see the 2 blazing it up and they let me smoke half a joint with em. At this point my sister gets her hands on a bong and occasionally i would sneak into her room cut a nug a lil bit and blaze when I was really having trouble with emotions.
Ik your all going to say bull shit you didn't start smoking when you were 11 but yes, I did. When I was 12 my big brother hooked me up with some marijuana seeds and started growing. My parents were big on gardening so I had steraliazed soil and all that. I just wanted to escape,my parents were always fighting at this point. So I would run to my plants and cry. By the time I was 13 i managed to get my hands on coke and shrooms and i was doing them regularly by then..
One day there was just so much paranoia anxiety and just overall horrible vibes in my house and my brother showed me this film about the exorcist and this shit scared me so much that I finally snapped and just basically went insane. You may say "Uhh with all the śhît you've been through WHYD this make U snap?" And my answer is idk . Im now 19 years old and I am still terrified, when I go outside at night I just feel Like it's watching me, if I go up the stairs I feel like that and whenever im alone.
My question is, could psychedelics help me get into my inner self and kill this demon im hiding? I. Buying half a sheet of acid and 100g of shrooms soon so just tell me where when and which dose should I take i really wanna get over this! Please help
-------------------- Botanist and trying to become mycologist Busy making crack with a spoon Amanita muscaria You got a week to live, live it well.
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connectedcosmos
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I've been through almost everything you have but my villain was my mother who did herion and abused me and everything and anything you could believe. I have found mushrooms have spiritually and mentally helped me more then lsd or Molly but all that did nothing for my stress but mushies and the right people and place it's been like being able to talk to God yours or mine or actually both because all gods are one God thee God. So yes you will grow beyond your past but it will and should build you to be better and stronger of a person and loved and father or mother etc. But you will get past this I believe in you. Try mushrooms and meditation I can tell you that WILL HELP and guide you. I'm praying for you and your oneness of the happiness you are about to hopefully try to achieve. Please try any kind of pyschedelic and your world will change for the better i guartantee it will open your heart and soul and mind it's the closest to being to God happiness and oneness------sincerely this guys accounts wife
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 54. The true nature of things is to be known personally , through the eyes of clear illumination and not through a sage : what the moon exactly is , is to be known with one's own eyes ; can another make him know it?
Edited by connectedcosmos (07/30/16 12:31 AM)
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MushroomAreTheKey
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Hey, thanks I've done shrooms lots of times before but I don't use them spiritually, I wouldn't even know how to. I use them to get high and release the pain for a lil while. If you could tell me thr right dose or someting? Like maybe 3.5grams in total darkness with some nice non lyrical music
-------------------- Botanist and trying to become mycologist Busy making crack with a spoon Amanita muscaria You got a week to live, live it well.
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TheGoat


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I would say try 3-3.5 grams and some Pink Floyd, I always start with high hopes but, I have a whole pink Floyd tripping playlist.
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Ulyssies
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Re: Psychedelics help get over a fear? [Re: TheGoat]
#23492113 - 07/30/16 10:08 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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To get a benefit out of the psychedelics make sure you ask yourself questions while on them. The therapeutic benefit comes from having acess to truthful answers about yourself that would normally be unavailable. Write down the questions ahead of time and dedicate time to answering each of them.
Things like: What am I truly afraid of happening? What is the true source of the fear? Can I forgive my father? Can I forgive myself?
Your brain will be making connections you wouldn't be able to otherwise, and chances are you will have epiphany moments where the answer you seek becomes so clear you'll think how did I never see it before.
My other advice is don't spend the entire trip doing this. Make sure the trip is enjoyable so dedicate time to just having fun listening to your favorite music or whatever. You want to be in a good head space before you start asking yourself the questions basically.
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MushroomAreTheKey
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Re: Psychedelics help get over a fear? [Re: Ulyssies]
#23492170 - 07/30/16 10:24 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Ok guys thanks! Im going to try this!
-------------------- Botanist and trying to become mycologist Busy making crack with a spoon Amanita muscaria You got a week to live, live it well.
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psillyboy
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Re: Psychedelics help get over a fear? [Re: Ulyssies]
#23492221 - 07/30/16 10:40 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Ulyssies said: To get a benefit out of the psychedelics make sure you ask yourself questions while on them. The therapeutic benefit comes from having acess to truthful answers about yourself that would normally be unavailable. Write down the questions ahead of time and dedicate time to answering each of them.
Things like: What am I truly afraid of happening? What is the true source of the fear? Can I forgive my father? Can I forgive myself?
Your brain will be making connections you wouldn't be able to otherwise, and chances are you will have epiphany moments where the answer you seek becomes so clear you'll think how did I never see it before.
My other advice is don't spend the entire trip doing this. Make sure the trip is enjoyable so dedicate time to just having fun listening to your favorite music or whatever. You want to be in a good head space before you start asking yourself the questions basically.

I too have many dark childhood memories. Classical psychedelics may not have the answer. MDMA and talking through these things with someone may have better therapeutic effect and may help you find the root of the fear. May be you can forgive (really forgive) your parents (i finally did). Take it from someone that has more winters past then summers to look forward too. What's done is done. Life is too short.
-------------------- "True terror is to wake up one morning and discover that your high school class is running the country - K. Vonnegut “The real truth, that dare not speak itself, is that no one is in control. Absolutely no one.” ― Terence McKenna "LSD is a psychedelic drug which occasionally causes psychotic behavior in people who have never taken it." - Timothy Leary
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