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lastsamurai
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I'm done!
#23480162 - 07/26/16 08:52 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Hello guys,
I felt the need to write my own story about the last life changing trip I got with some Mazapatec shrooms I'd learnt on this forum how to grow. It might be useful for those of you that are starting to explore the substance.
I had a good harvest at the beginning about a kilo or so. Then I dried them and put them in a zip-loc bag and kept it in my fridge.
After a week I decided to go on my first trip with my own mushies, and did 6 gr and it was fantastic as it took me to live an amazing spiritual experience. After 2 weeks I decided to take 8 grams and the experience was even more spiritual and intense to the point of meeting who I believe was god. It was really amazing.
Then I harvested a couple of newly born mushies that were left in my growing container. I decided to take them in a tea last Sunday. I was on my own as my wife was out. I had almost always taken the shrooms on my own with no problems till then.
Since my doses had been pretty high (over 6 - 7 grams) this time I had decided to take around 9 grams of these fresh ones I had previously dried for a couple of days...BIG MISTAKE!
I finished my tea at around 11 am and after half an hour I took off. It immediately took me back to my mother's womb. I was able to feel the warmth and calmness that you only feel when you were inside there but we hardly ever remember unless the psilocybin shows you so. I remembered all, and the thing I remember the most is a strange language the kept pounding in my head the whole experience even after I came around.
I saw the clock and it was 1 pm and I was now losing my mind...honestly. I felt I was in an spiral of psychosis and schizophrenia. I started recording on my cellphone as I was repeating those words I could hear in my head. It was like another language I couldn't understand. I am not exactly sure how I managed to manipulate my cellphone really but every time I listen to that recording it gives me the creeps.
I then had to stand up from bed and stop the music because I felt the mushroom was pulling me deeper and deeper...NOT NICE!
I opened the fridge and drank some milk expecting it would reduce the effects but didn't seem to work. I lied back on the sofa but then I knew I had lost control and the sense of individuality and of myself. It wasn't me anymore. I was in that other universe and was always fearful I would not be able to come back to this world. At that moment I totally understood what those psychiatric patients go through and their hellish suffering.
I then somehow was able to call my wife and ask her to come immediately, it was the longest wait of my life, luckily I also managed to call upstairs where my father was who says that on the phone I begged him to "rescue me" as soon as possible...and he did. Then I felt that the moment of being born had started...I recalled then how uncomfortable and traumatic that experience was...the cold, the lights, the unintelligible voices, the screams...HORRIBLE and traumatic. My father then came in and literally rescued me form that vulnerable state, I felt defenseless. This is the beautiful part of the story, like the first love you get when you are born is your parents'. It really was a deep moment of being able to feel the real love I feel for my dad and being able to express it to him while he was hugging me hard trying to help me. Then my wife arrived and you can imagine how she felt...really terrified to see me in that state. She also cried a lot. But then while I was coming back it all ended up in the best family moment ever.
I can say that the substance has such power that even made my father talk about his saddest moments when he was a child and made him cry and indirectly succumb to the substance as well...it was a moment full of energy that even our cat got involved and it can't be explained. I would not call that energy that positive at that moment though, it was rather dark.
When I was fully awake I felt better although those voices were still in my head and only disappeared the next day.
After the whole experience I feel I have changed and a sense of detachment has invaded me. Things that were important before have lost that status and don't bother me anymore, for example my long hair was very important to me but not anymore...I had it cut yesterday! I can even shave my head and I would not care at all. Another positive outcome is that the moments I spend with my dad and my wife have a lot more quality like I appreciate them more now. I can also tell that even my approach to my business will be different from that day on.
About that weird language I came to conclude it has to be the noise and voices you can hear but don't understand while you are in your mother's womb.
Now, if somebody asked me if they should do mushrooms my answer would be...are you ready to play with fire? Are you really prepared to see what it will show you?
From my experience the substance really taught me the kind of person I am and the things that are really important in my life. And in all modesty how brave I am that was able to come back. It honestly was very very difficult that you can't imagine. I would say a VERY STRONG MENTALITY is needed to recover from such experience. So beware!
I see it as opening a Pandora's box. Would you be really prepared to see the things that are inside?
I feel now prepared to leave all my search now as I feel I have found what I was looking for.
Thanks for reading!
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Shiithead
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Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Psalm 12:6 The words of the Lord are pure words: as silver tried in a furnace of earth, purified seven times. Hebrews 11:3 Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear. Revelation 3:11 Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown.
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UniverseOfTheMind8
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I'd say it's only "playing with fire" if you take a crazy high dose you're not ready for like you did. Rad story though.
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lastsamurai
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UniverseOfTheMind8 said: I'd say it's only "playing with fire" if you take a crazy high dose you're not ready for like you did. Rad story though.
You are right. However only knowing that scary parallel universe is out there and can be reached easily with the mushies is enough for me to avoid being there again tbh.
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