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My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz
#23475486 - 07/25/16 01:11 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I'm very busy today so I'm going to make this post as short and sweet as I possibly can because I'm dying for some feedback and would love to hear from others who've experienced what I'm going through and what they did to get through it.
So about two years ago during the year 2014 I started using drugs ranging from 25i to LSD to shrooms to molly all about 5 times each throughout the course of about anywhere from 5-6 months except for 25i about 15+ times (Like an idiot I know but I wasn't aware @ the time). Anyways, continued using and abusing and basically what I would call binging these drugs to the point where I basically had that whacked out and just overall brain tiredness feeling and just wasn't getting the same effect I once was when I first started using the drugs. So I put them all to rest excluding my one love Mary Jane just hoping that soon time will heal all the over stimed brain and I will be back to normal feeling fine and happy again..... Welp here I'am two years later and I'm in the exact same boat. All these horrible feelings came on bassically when i quit using the drugs and never subsided BUT have noticeably gotten better over time a bit.
First it was anxiety of all sorts just scary thoughts and social anxety to the point of not even being able to look at someone in the eyes for more than a couple seconds. Then came the dumb headed feeling whereas before I used to be able to do simple tasks without even thinking now I have to think so hard to even tie a ladder down to the top of a work van. After that came the personalization and the random sharp pains thorughout my brain like I've fried it perm and Its fucked for life. The world just feels different now and all I think about everyday is how my life was before the trips and if it will ever be the same or at least as happy and fun as it was before the trips/drugs. It's like its this never ending cycle of waking up everyday hoping everything will be back to normal then its not and I'm in these depressed thoughts and horrible feelings of anxiety its all just horrible.
A little bit about me thought before all these trips just so you guys can grasp what I'm talking about. I was the highschool jock was on the varsity bball team got all the girls had all the confidence in the world and no matter what thought I was always the best or smartest person in the room even if I knew I wasn't because I thought I could be. I was happy everyday and weed made my life even more amazing and now its something I can't even really enjoy anymore without feeling the feelings I felt from the tripping and feeling dumb and paranoid and just not all there. Idk its very scary and is getting to the point of me on a suicidal brink. I've thought about killing myself a few times just because I feel like I'll never be able to live normally again even though I know damn well I'll never go through with it.
Now I have done some research and explored the web for others going through what I'am and I've heard of 25i alone and basically any other drugs causing these problems through prolonged use and I have heard of people recovering through being sober for up to 6months-2years and recover fully. But its a very few amount of people and it just gives me no hope that I will ever recover. I was hoping some of you on shroomery could give me some feedback if you've experienced these problems and what you did to overcome them? Was life better or worse after and what did you learn from it?
*****By the way***** I have picked up a few positive things from all the tripping though. I think about things differently especially when im not stoned and I feel as if I think in a way nobody else does. I also have a sense of caring more and appreciate much more now then I ever did but besides that its a shitshow. SOME of the brain problems I have like the dumb feeling like when I go to move something quickly I have to be slower because I might fuck up now when I wouldn't of before the tripping and drug abuse. But that was something that I noticed while tripping and it never went away? Also slight HPPD trails and wall movement slightly. I feel like tripping was a huge cause to this. Haven't smoked bud today. Help.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23475520 - 07/25/16 01:26 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Never have partaken in 2ci that I'm aware of. Smoking bud isn't going to reset your imagination or brain. Sometimes you need to just distance yourself from what's going on within. Some people can do that with this or that aid, but mostly you need to quiet what's causing you internal problems.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23475531 - 07/25/16 01:31 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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You fried yourself bro.
Seriously though, you're probably focusing on it too much. You quit weed too? If not then definitely do that. Otherwise, just try to accept it and roll with it. Can't see many other options. I can't see how you'd be having such long term effects from such few drugs tho...
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: AcidStrippedMind]
#23475539 - 07/25/16 01:33 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Tbh with you I think its because i never actually quit using drugs all together? maybe thats it. I used xanax a bit for anxiety and tripped 2 more times since then because my friend told me about "resetting" luckily i tripped on L tho not that 25i shit. Just stupid though and that was a year ago anyways.. Maybe weed needs to go..
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: AcidStrippedMind] 1
#23475542 - 07/25/16 01:35 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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It's like you took the drug that you cannot untake. Learning something about vulnerability that doesn't go away.
There are reasons why people have gotten strength from eastern religions after taking very strong mind shattering drugs!
You weren't going to get into heaven this life anyways. Now you've learned a bit about your own personal hell. Just make your life as stable and as strong as possible!
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Morel Guy]
#23475557 - 07/25/16 01:40 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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i remember when i had some pretty traumatic things in life happen while i was using psychedelics alot, and i took a break from anything that alters my consciousness and i thought i went stupid or slow or something. no turns out i was just depressed which has causing cognitive sluggishness.
but anyways i started bodybuilding and quickly gained my confidence and stopped overthinking about what might be wrong with me and now im functioning at a much more productive rate than i ever have been and have been feeling very confident that i can literally take on any task.
its very important that you just focus your energy on developing a craft because it will give you purpose that overshadows your fears of what might be wrong with you. its all in your head you are pretty much creating this reality in my opinion.
Atm i smoke weed everyday and dose heavy psychedelics once every 1 or 2 months now.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Morel Guy]
#23475566 - 07/25/16 01:43 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Good advice
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: SleepyE]
#23475570 - 07/25/16 01:44 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Happy to hear that and could def be possible. It's just that those problems seem so real ya know. Especially when i first got done tripping. The problems were so noticable i couldn't even talk to my girlfriends family without losing my mind and sweating especially while being high. crazy feelings man
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX] 1
#23475579 - 07/25/16 01:46 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I sorta developed a fantasy from drug use that life would gain some sort of permanent groove or flow. Life is a river and she flows alright but there are some pretty damn big rocks.
The people that I've met that seem to flow tend to be dicks. They tend to feed and mooch of everyone and never really share their gift.
I'd rather live a horrible life and give good times to others than take away peoples good times for a wonderful life.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23475581 - 07/25/16 01:47 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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you'll get over it, im pretty sure its all psychosomatic. never doubt your minds ability to make problems that aren't there. you just have to have will power and mental strength.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Morel Guy]
#23475584 - 07/25/16 01:48 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Wdym by seem to flow? interesting. you don't?
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23475588 - 07/25/16 01:50 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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iLLeXXXX said: Wdym by seem to flow? interesting. you don't?
There is a flowing and there are some crashing rapids. It's not much of a perfect zen dream or scenery. Sometimes it's easy to live those on the right trips.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23475590 - 07/25/16 01:51 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Also crazy random thought: When I was tripping I always seemed to think that social skills and being the most socially skilled person in the room was important and vital and just awesome in general. I remember feelings i had where i thought i could talk to anyone and have an incredible intellectual convo while tripping or flirt with any bitch i wanted to. Those feelings didnt last though clearly.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23475604 - 07/25/16 01:57 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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That is ego
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX] 1
#23475607 - 07/25/16 01:59 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I think you're thinking about it way too much thus manifesting a problem that doesn't exist. I would suggest re-connecting yourself with the things that you loved to do before taking drugs. Start occupying your mind with positive things that you like to do. Spend time with friends and family who love you for you. Drugs can alter your social perceptions for sure. I used to binge on MDMA (a gram or two in a night) and found that this really fucked me up socially in the long term. Psychs actually helped me realize how self destructive this behavior was and I stopped doing this. I had to cut myself off from certain friends who were negative influences on my life. I reconnected with old friends who liked doing things like playing basketball and going bowling. I started hanging out with my family and enjoying their company. I foul that eventually I stopped feeling "stupid" and started to excel at lost hobbies and work. Gained my self confidence back. Started becoming interested in other peoples lives and striking up good conversation with new faces.
It all gets better man just start making the right choices and start living a life that you can be proud of and you want to share with the people you love.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Morel Guy]
#23475608 - 07/25/16 01:59 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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So is it possible i had an ego death? Largest trip was 6 gs of cubensis looped for 3 hours but was actually enjoyable. Thought time was meaningless and nothing mattered but what i was doing in the moment.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: ComebackKid]
#23475613 - 07/25/16 02:01 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Thx man glad to hear you got better great advice and could very well be the problem. Gonna start today and post weekly updates on this thread : Today : drinking gallon of water 30 min meditation and first day no pot. Also doing an hour work out.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23475614 - 07/25/16 02:01 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Also any supps that help?
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23475623 - 07/25/16 02:03 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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The ego only really dies once. If your one a drug it's that you know why you experience beyond the ego realm...it's not a real death or dying but has a close nature to it.
The real ego loss is what your not enjoying. Your ego has learned to gain power from drug use and is somewhat dependent. Even non-psychically addictive drugs can have a psychological dependence. I think the spirit of it never really goes away. It just gets stronger or weaker with continued use. It's a love, an attachment. A way of life and outlook on reality for every one who's experienced. Lot's of people that haven't used drugs will also share some semblance.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Morel Guy]
#23475646 - 07/25/16 02:11 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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So what're you saying exactly?
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#23475800 - 07/25/16 03:00 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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iLLeXXXX said: So what're you saying exactly?
Just live and when it's time try to die in peace. That's the basic message for all living things. Doesn't mean it's going to occur for everyone.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Morel Guy]
#23475806 - 07/25/16 03:02 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23475940 - 07/25/16 04:12 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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If you need some help, try giving Lemon EO a go. Not only does it clean up how the Cannabis feels (helps reduce anxiety and paranoia, ime, and makes for a better headspace) but it also helps to integrate or ground you after a good bit of Psychedelic experimentation. For me, i'm big into Ayahuasca, i've taken it quite a lot and back in 2014 i had three traumatic events that kinda made me step away from the DMT a good bit, and i noticed that Cannabis didn't feel like it used to and was causing me a lot of anxiety, negative thinking, paranoia and made me feel slow.
But, ever since the Lemon EO, things have pretty much returned to normal, i definitely say give it a try, but make sure it's a good brand, 100% pure Lemon Essential Oil (therapeutic grade). I get mine on ebay, a brand called Rewarding Essentials, haven't tried other brands though. I started out taking 6 drops of Lemon EO a day (put the drops in a capsule and ingest) but here lately i've upped the dose to 10 drops a day and it seems to be doing better. If you try it though, try out different dosages and see what works best for you. Also the Limonene in the Lemon EO, has a long half-life, so it takes about 2 days or so for a dose to get completely out of your system, but if you take it daily/regularly you should definitely notice some benefits.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Sabnock]
#23476000 - 07/25/16 04:36 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Thanks for the feedback should def give it a go.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23476776 - 07/25/16 08:02 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Im curious as to if Marijuana has delayed the process immensly?
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23477037 - 07/25/16 09:25 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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iLLeXXXX said: Im curious as to if Marijuana has delayed the process immensly?
Possibly. I know that when things were messed up for me, i ultimately figured out the problem was the Cannabis, because i seemed fine until i smoked but after i smoked that's when i'd notice the anxiety and paranoia and such. Lemon EO cleared that up for me though and i didn't have to stop smoking.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Sabnock]
#23477096 - 07/25/16 09:43 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Wow thats incredible. Gonna try a sober break till my birthday for a positive gain from this as weal as healthy eats and exc ect.. i'll give that a try as well... But i wanna get to a point where i dont have to take something ya know
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23479077 - 07/26/16 03:06 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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iLLeXXXX said: Im curious as to if Marijuana has delayed the process immensly?
In my experience, yes. It may feel like it's helping but it's just temporarily making you content.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23479111 - 07/26/16 03:18 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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iLLeXXXX said:But i wanna get to a point where i dont have to take something ya know
Yeah i hear ya there. I view it as a kind of supplement though, but one can use it rarely or regularly. I do think it'll help and you won't have to take it anymore, but ime without the Lemon EO the Cannabis, while no longer causing anxiety or paranoia, can still leave me mentally feeling stoned, but with the Lemon EO the Cannabis headspace feels much cleaner. Another thing you could try is Celastrus seeds or oil, helps take away the burnout feeling and cleans things up as well.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Sabnock]
#23479127 - 07/26/16 03:25 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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By head space you mean? and also yeah i hear ya im def gonna give it a go when i get a chance and i feel as if i could easily come back to baseline. Over this two year period i have not once tried for more then maybe two days to heal myself because i would just give up. Nt anymore.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23479237 - 07/26/16 04:13 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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iLLeXXXX said: By head space you mean? and also yeah i hear ya im def gonna give it a go when i get a chance and i feel as if i could easily come back to baseline. Over this two year period i have not once tried for more then maybe two days to heal myself because i would just give up. Nt anymore.
Headspace meaning how you feel mentally. With the Lemon EO, Cannabis has a more clear headspace, not foggy, hazy, stoney, cloudy, but feels pretty clean, and kinda restores the high feeling ime. Whereas without the Lemon EO, for me anyways, i just get that foggy headedness and stoned feeling. I think it's cool to make Cannabis feel different, or better, by mixing certain plants with it. Also the Limonene in Lemon EO is also present in Cannabis, so the Lemon EO naturally seems to synergize with the Cannabis. I guess in the same way they say to eat some Mangos or something before smoking, to enhance the "high".
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Sabnock]
#23479250 - 07/26/16 04:17 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Ah okay makes sense im going to see a nureo tomorrow just to clear up and brain damage type issues so thats not my worry.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23479298 - 07/26/16 04:39 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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If anyone else has anymore ideas feel free. Day two of cleanliness.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23479465 - 07/26/16 05:52 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Maybe you could try to ground yourself. You said you were trying meditation/exercise. That's really good. I take Psychedelics often and I noticed that the more I 'dived' into the Psychedelic states very frequently, the more I felt that my relationship with the world around me changed. Everything in my life from friends, my job, school, took on new attributes and I had to treat everything in my life differently. I had to get used to it.
Changing my lifestyle helped me personally a lot. I noticed that the more I ate right, explored things like meditation, tried to become more socially-connected, etc... the more I was able to adjust to the changes in my consciousness brought about by Psychedelics and live "Psychedelically" in a successful way. I haven't taken any very controversial drugs except MDMA a couple times. For a while I thought I "messed myself up" somewhat by taking Psych's very often and at high doses. Then I realized that it was just that I became a different person. I changed. Undoubtedly from Psychedelics. What I had to do after that was adjust to it and "Learn" to live in this new way.
For example, sometimes it was hard for me to speak. Like I would stumble over words or it would take a while for me to come up with something to say. Well... Now I see this as not a negative effect from Psychedelics. Just a change in the way I speak. Because to be honest I speak much more creatively than I used to. I don't speak in a boring, 'brick-by-brick' monotonous way. I actually have things to say now. So I don't see it as a negative thing. Even the negative aspects of it I'm sure will pass. But It wasn't the kind of thing where I would just let time pass and hope it would disappear. It was a new part of myself I had to learn how to adapt to.
You did a couple drugs whose effects are sort of controversial. You know that. But I would really suggest to continue exploring changes in your lifestyle to try to deal with this change brought about by the drugs. It may not be only negative side-effects from bad drug choices. I mean maybe that's a part of it, but maybe it's not. Or not a significant part of the problems you're experiencing. You may just have to find other things to supplement the Psychedelics/Drugs. Looks like you're doing that. Keep exploring and keep your options open.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: mctaveesh]
#23479581 - 07/26/16 06:27 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Thank you wow crazy about the stumbling of words thing.. I too have noticed this and sometimes its annoying but the way i speak is deff different.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23480376 - 07/26/16 09:47 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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wow maybe I am in the same boat as you it took me like two days to realize that B&A stands for before and after
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: FriendlyFace]
#23480534 - 07/26/16 10:25 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yep you're fried.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz *DELETED* [Re: FriendlyFace]
#23481118 - 07/27/16 02:40 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Post deleted by mctaveeshReason for deletion: Changed mind
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LogicaL Chaos said: "humans are like cubes, lots of strains but cubes a cube. Not much difference really."
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23481564 - 07/27/16 08:15 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Just lay off the weed for an extended period. Your whole first post screamed that as the prime candidate for your current condition. I'm not saying that weed was always the culprit but it appears to be that now.
Anyway, it seems logical to me to try quitting for a while and see where that takes you. You may be pleasantly surprised. Why is it that the things we want to give up the least are the things we need to give up the most?
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Thayendanegea]
#23481977 - 07/27/16 10:51 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Taking a very long sobriety break until my 21st 6-7 months from now. Excited to do so and will keep this post going throughout the process on my gains and improvements and hopefully long term this post will be able to help others who were in my situation.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz *DELETED* [Re: mctaveesh]
#23482905 - 07/27/16 04:40 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Why delete such an insightful post.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz *DELETED* [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23483279 - 07/27/16 06:31 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Was it insightful? Ugh. I don't know. I guess I don't trust my own ability to write things like that. I also wrote it super late at night. I guess I should trust my own spontaneous thoughts more.
Thanks for reading it though.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz *DELETED* [Re: mctaveesh]
#23484399 - 07/28/16 02:34 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yes and np m8.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: iLLeXXXX]
#23484790 - 07/28/16 07:49 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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iLLeXXXX said: Taking a very long sobriety break until my 21st 6-7 months from now. Excited to do so and will keep this post going throughout the process on my gains and improvements and hopefully long term this post will be able to help others who were in my situation.

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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Thayendanegea]
#23484961 - 07/28/16 08:52 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Congrats on your choice to take a break from the drugs. It will help you heal.
One thing that may help is to do a water fast for 3 days or so to help you detox a bit quicker. Also microdosing on Syrian rue for the first couple weeks may undo some of the damage the 25I did to your brain and prevent the depression that comes with quitting MJ.
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Re: My life B&A Drugs/Psychs Problems now faced. Feedback plz [Re: Eywa_devotee]
#23486043 - 07/28/16 02:46 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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My experience with fasting is that it builds up for a huge major desire for whatever drug you are detoxing from. Detox itself is a fasting. If your stopping lot of substances you're going to want to do nothing like work and maybe be somewhere safe. It's hard on the psyche to go without crutches.
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