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Trippedytrip
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Dont know how to continue life
#23474465 - 07/25/16 05:21 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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So guys this is a serious post.
I have been 4-5 months on a long mental journey. I wasnt really conscious when i took it to the extreme. I was hovering over ground.
I recovered 5 weeks from that . Then had a panic atack. My diagnostics arent confirmed yet but i think i have Depersonalisation disorder a long time ago and smoking weed made it worse.
After that , i went to the Ward. Its my week 3 now and the things that have improved are :
-Getting the feeling of my body -Having emotions but not many -No fear or anxiety
Things that kill me : -Having the feeling being separated between worlds. Feeling of body / thoughts as different things -Having a sight that goes only in front -Permanent feeling of being stucked in my body. -Being conscious of everything , people taking looks feeling that i cant see them -Being aware of this dumb society -Having like a firm glass wall in front of me constantly -Having someone sit on my neck constantly
I am fucking desperate now cause i am living in this hell since 4-5 months and cant get out. The eyes havnt improved and i cant see through them. Nobody really knows how much i am suffering and from outside they say i am okay.
I started accepting it a few weeks ago and went with it but i dont see things getting improved really.
I dont know if this is DP or i just have gotten stuck in my mind and cant get out of it.
It is a nightmare. I havnt thought about suicidal yet but if this continues a long time i will.
I dont know what to do anymore , i am completely numb.
Peace
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23474471 - 07/25/16 05:31 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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For me conquering one issue with all my strength lends me the strength to tackle the next more difficult issue ya know? I wish you luck and clarity.
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Karl]
#23474480 - 07/25/16 05:36 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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What a silly dumbshit are you talking about , would you like to be in my state and hear such a dumb answer.
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23474487 - 07/25/16 05:42 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Trippedytrip said: What a silly dumbshit are you talking about , would you like to be in my state and hear such a dumb answer.
At least he took the time to try to help 
Get professional help if it's that bad instead of coming to a forum about illegal drugs and get over yourself in the mean time. How's that for an answer?
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Kush_Zombie]
#23474492 - 07/25/16 05:46 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I just expect better answers .
I am just pissed off today and i can post my shit where i want to and i dont want to discuss anything here.
I am on professional care didnt you read.
Thats why i am so desperate
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23474499 - 07/25/16 05:50 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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If you expected better answers then go to a place that is reasonable to expect professional advice from and stop being a dick to people who actually want to help you feel better and are offering support if you're so desperate.
Yeah, you can post your shit where you want, but if you're gonna be a dick about it then expect people like me to post their shit when they want.
Best of luck with your struggles. Hopefully you seek professional help and quit taking it out on others just because you're "pissed off today".
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Trippedytrip] 1
#23474508 - 07/25/16 05:54 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Only advice I can give is - Don't fight it, just go with the flow. The exact advice I would give to someone who is maybe finding a trip a bit too intense/disagreeable. Sometimes you just got to endure things, and sometimes a shift in your perception of situation can give a completely different experience. Life has its ups and downs, and the bad times will give way to better times.
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: wicca mixer]
#23474511 - 07/25/16 05:57 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Thanks ,
That is what i do bro , constantly going with the flow but you know wich feeling it is being aware that everybody stares at you and think you cant see them?
I am living this now since fucking 4-5 months and nothing helps . I gonna go hining with a friend and take a LSD trip and try the fortune out . I have nothing to loose
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Trippedytrip] 1
#23474517 - 07/25/16 06:02 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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LSD isn't going to help your problem.
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: koods]
#23474520 - 07/25/16 06:04 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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What instead men?
It is these constant blindfold upon my face and this sensation on the neck.
Have i got seriously stucked on this journey or what then?
I really need some good advice and professionals really dont know much. It is more a spiritual thing
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23474528 - 07/25/16 06:09 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Walk with your head up and your eyes straight forward with a smile on your face and make a conscious effort to ignore the people you believe to be staring at you. It will feel awkward as hell at first and you'll feel stupid doing it at first but it helped me and helped build my confidence.
There's nothing you can take to just magically make this stop (unless you're on some crazy medications that don't make you feel shit), you have to make a mental effort to change these things. The placebo effect is very powerful and something that can't be proven by science. Use it.
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Kush_Zombie]
#23474560 - 07/25/16 06:33 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Thanks i am tryng always to do that but its hard and constant people saying i am stucked etc.
I give a shit on that because i still am capable of many things but the feeling of being stucked inside of me when i look in the mirror and having the ears full also kills me .
It is just this feeling from neck throat to above of the head. It is fucking horrible and i am with that a long time already. I dont fucking know .
I also have like head convulsions sometimes.
I am so desperate because it has made me so numb. My memories and feelings are like blocked by a barrier.
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23474572 - 07/25/16 06:39 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Working with psychedelics might possibly help, but you have to understand that if you use psychedelics for therapeutic purposes then you have to put in effort as well. It's not an easy thing to do and it could easily be perceived as a "bad" trip if you don't go with it and learn. And is usually something best done alone imo.
But it could also make your situation worse. You know more about yourself than we do. All I'm saying is that IF you do decide to work with psychedelics in the hopes that they'll help with these issues then you can't take it with the mindset that the psychedelic is supposed to do all of the work.
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Kush_Zombie]
#23474600 - 07/25/16 06:55 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I have great respect to it and i feel in the inside that they would help to use all of my senses again.
I have so much inner sstrength inside that i cant use cause it is stuck inside and i need to release it somehow . Sport doesnt help much either i could do 7 hours kickboxing.
It fucking dissapoints me .
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23474724 - 07/25/16 08:17 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Kundalini Yoga may be extremely helpful and transformative for you (:
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Trippedytrip
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Thanks i will try that out mate
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: wicca mixer]
#23474855 - 07/25/16 09:15 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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wicca mixer said: Only advice I can give is - Don't fight it, just go with the flow. The exact advice I would give to someone who is maybe finding a trip a bit too intense/disagreeable. Sometimes you just got to endure things, and sometimes a shift in your perception of situation can give a completely different experience. Life has its ups and downs, and the bad times will give way to better times.
I agree with wicca it'd be best to just go with the flow you will get mentally stronger in time when doing that also. I also recommend that you most def not try and do this all by yourself make sure you are seeking professional help. Best of luck to you my friend!
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: AVShroomer]
#23475313 - 07/25/16 11:54 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I went with the flow always , it led to this unconsciouss mental trip inside me wich led to my spiritual awakening wich led to the state in wich i am now.
I am going with it seaking for peace and relief
It is hard and it is a real struggle but docs say i am going to be alright. It needs time to fade away i think.
Thanks for your answers
Peace
Trippy
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23477576 - 07/26/16 03:19 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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well damn lol just saying take it one step at a time
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Karl]
#23477734 - 07/26/16 05:32 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yes thanks , it is hard and i think time will repair and will to continue.
I am young 19 and my whole life upon but i dont have any force.
I dont get fully grounded it doesnt work.
I dont know what to do , just keep going
Peace
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23477939 - 07/26/16 07:42 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Honestly, the OP is showing classic signs of paranoid schizophrenia. Taking LSD would probably not help this and may even set him back. This is a fucked up disease that I think few people here other than those that actually can relate to his symptoms should offer any real advice. OP...I strongly urge you not to take any LSD right now.
Hopefully, someone that can relate will chime in.
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Hey there , i will not take any drugs . I quitted nicotine now too.
I dont know what i have or if i have something but i need to chill down and take things very slow and put all paranoid shit away. I need to put all worries aside and try to enjoy it. I am in a fucked situation that only time and will power can repair .
Peace 2 you all out there i hope i come back.
Trippy
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Re: Dont know how to continue life [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23478059 - 07/26/16 08:41 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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think about what you want and what is good for you...work towards it.
doing that, realize what your obstacles are..
use a positive mindset so you won't forget failing is learning.
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