15 grams wet Psilocybe Cubensis B+ 6 hour trip on June 17th, 2016
So, I grew my first homegrown mushrooms on BRF/Verm, and they were amazing! This was my first attempt at growing any mushroom. My first flush only got about 80 grams wet from 6 1/2 pint cakes. Is that a good first flush for a newbie? I picked most when the veil was about 2/3 or 3/4 the way opened.
Most people say not to do shrooms if you feeling bad. But, this is exactly why I take them most of the time. I have been feeling kind of depressed lately and wanted to venture into my mind a little bit and see if I could have a breakthrough. Still a day and a half later I feel great, and I don't think I'll be depressed for a while.
I haven't eaten mushrooms in over 2 years, but am accustomed to 1/8-1/4 oz. So growing them myself and eating them fresh felt very rewarding. I ate 15 grams wet expecting a level 1 trip, but was probably at about a 3. I wasn't expecting this trip. I only wanted a small controllable trip to think about my life. It wasn't even this intense when I ate a 1/4 oz though. It could of been my low tolerance, not having cubes in over two years, or my bad mood. Who knows, but I was excited. I had CEV and OEV, thought loops, time distortion, and what felt like temporary paralysis at one point early in the trip. Is that normal to get temporary paralysis for 15 grams wet, or at all? I've never had fresh mushrooms before and went of the general 90% weight loss when dry information.
I was at my house with my roommate and we just sat in his room. He didn't eat any mushrooms and was my trip sitter, kind of(I told him I was probably only going to be in there on the come up). I sat on my computer in his room for a while and he played video games. After about two hours I went in my room and laid on my bed and watched a movie. After that I went on a walk around my neighborhood, came back home, and went to bed. Overall I had a good time, and came out happy the next morning. No depressed thoughts yesterday, woohoo!
Okay, so here it goes...
I ate the 15 grams at 7 P.M. and went on my laptop looking up songs and videos on YoutTube so I could watch them later. I also put a DVD of Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas in my laptop.
Within fifteen minutes I started feeling like I had to take a shit, I forgot how mushrooms made me do that. When I stood up to go to the bathroom, I felt like I kept floating upwards for second. It made me laugh, and I knew they were kicking in.
This happened a lot faster than the last time I ate mushrooms. It usually took anywhere from 45 minutes to an hour and a half in the past for me to feel anything. So, I went into the bathroom and already was having the melting/breathing visual effects. The walls breathed when I focused on them, but when I looked at the patterns on the textures in the wall, I saw them dancing and flowing into each other. It felt like I could manipulate the patterns as well. I felt like I was cloud bursting from The Men Who Stare at Goats... Haha
I washed my hands and noticed how fucking funny I looked in the mirror and laughed for a good minute. I rubbed from the top of my cheeks down past my jaw line while looking in the mirror and it looked my face drooped down and stretched. It kind of surprised me, so I left the bathroom and went back into my buddies room.
I was staring at a cigarette and my buddy asked me if I was feeling it yet. I just laughed and said yeah. I lit up a menthol and it cooled my lungs and stomach as well as give my body a tingling sensation.
It was 7:45, so it's been about 45 minutes since I ate them, and about 30 minutes since I felt the onset. I went on my laptop and sat on his couch. I put on Money by Pink Floyd, and all the sounds were very clean and I could feel the music in my body. It seemed like I could focus on any instrument at once and raise the volume of a single or multiple instrument/voice. I put out my cigarette when the sax solo came up and I laid my head down and closed my eyes. I felt like I was sinking into the couch, but had a floating feeling like I was weightless. I felt contradicted being weighed down and floating. There were swirls of red and white making objects and shapes I couldn't comprehend. I tried controlling the swirls and at one point I made out the shpae of an elephant. I stopped trying to control them and just let them happen. I started feeling like I was in a trance. I couldn't really make a thought for a while after I let go control of my CEV's. It just felt like I was floating in black open space. But, I couldn't think or even move.
I finally opened my eyes and got a little confused, because Shine On You Crazy Diamond was playing in my headphones, and last I remember, I was listening to Money. I felt lost for a second and told myself I ate mushrooms and everything was okay. I remember thinking, what the fuck just happened? This was the paralysis I mentioned earlier. What was that? I've never felt like that on Psychedelics before. I wasn't sure how long it had been, but it felt like hours. It was only about 30 minutes.
I looked at the clock and it was 8:15. I sat up on my buddies couch, took off my headphones, and put the laptop next to me. I asked him for a hit of some weed. He packed a bowl for me in his pipe, and I cleared it in one hit. I don't smoke to often but it felt like I had super lungs. I've never smoked weed on mushrooms before, and it made my body feel heavy, and my stomach warm. It was a weird transition from feeling like I was floating. He told me that was supposed to be a bowl, not a snap. I laughed, shrugged, apologized.
I went back on my laptop and I kept forgetting was I was going to do. I kept putting it down and picking it up again. I was sure I was going to do something, but when I picked it up, I couldn't for the life of me remember what I was going to do.
I gave up and I decided it was time to go into my room and watch my movie. As I walked through the door, the living room seemed like a whole new world. It was bright and colorful, my vision seemed like there was a film of soap on my eyes. Everything was bubbles, I told myself.
When I walked into my room the light was off and I had a hard time finding my lamp switch. I finally found it and plugged my laptop into my TV and turned on Fear and Loathing. I turned the light back off and I laid down on my bed. I got under the covers and felt very cozy, secure and comfortable.
I've seen this movie a million times before, but never on drugs. It made me scared, happy, excited, nervous. I would burst out laughing, hide under my covers, sit up in my bed and get super into the movie. I felt like I was in the movie with them. I would light up cigarettes every ten minutes because of that damn movie... lol
When the movie was over I was having a wonderful time. I put on my Infected Mushroom playlist and I felt very into the music. I turned the lights back on and saw colors swirling on the wall around the tv. It felt like I had synesthesia, certain sounds would spark different colors and patterns. It was like a mist with colored leds pointed at it flat on the wall. Sometimes it would even take a 3D form. I never had a visual I tried touching before. It looked like a spirit almost dancing to the music. It went away when I looked at my laptop and changed the music back to Pink Floyd. I listened to about a few minutes of the Animals album and turned it off. I lost interest in the music and decided I wanted to go on a walk down to the park down the street. It was about 11:30 now.
I started to put on my shoes and forgot why, so I took them off again. I remembered I wanted to go to the park and put my shoes back on. I did this a few times. I let my roommate know I was going to go on a walk. He asked to smoke a cigarette with me first. We talked about his game of Civilization he was playing. I had no interest at all, and it was hard to listen to him, but I held the conversation until the cigarette was over. Talking to him kind of brought me out of the trip a little bit, but I thought the walk might help bring the trip back a bit. It helped a little bit, but I didn't have as strong of feelings as before.
I was looking at all the plants, and they seemed very defined. I could see the rough, or smooth textures of leaves very well. It seemed like I had high definition eye sight. There was no more melting or swirling visuals, but some faint traces of things were happening in the corner of me eye I couldn't quite make out. I didn't end up going to the park, but just walked around my neighborhood, smoking cigarettes and looking around.
I went back to my house, laid down in the grass and looked at the stars. Staring at the sky made me feel very small, but in a good way. I understood the universe was big, but I was a part of it. It made me feel like a I had a purpose, when lately I have been very depressed. This made me very happy, and I started questioning why I was depressed in the first place. This was a bad idea, even though it's what I wanted, because I started thinking of bad things that have happened in my life over the last 2-3 years. It was rough, I started crying, and went inside and into my room. Crying on mushrooms is weird, I wasn't having a bad trip though, it felt good. After a good cry, for the first time in a few years, I felt happy. I accepted the things that happened, and let go. I wasn't bitter anymore, I wasn't angry, I wasn't sad. I was happy and understanding.
I wasn't feeling to much of the effects anymore and I was getting tired. I decided to put on a movie, lay down, and go to bed. I remember waking up and crying again at the thoughts I had the night before. I wasn't sad this time, but happy. I don't think I have ever cried from being happy. It felt amazing.
So overall this was the trip I was looking for. I overcame bad feelings, had a good time, and took a mental vacation. Does anyone else do shrooms to overcome problems?
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Edited by FallopianCubes (07/19/16 03:59 AM)
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