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Jokeshopbeard
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Have you ever had psychosis?
#23451525 - 07/17/16 11:19 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Thankfully, of the two times I've experienced this odd and unnerving shearing of reality, both were drug/sleep deprivation induced. However I have seen it in others catalysed by stress.
What was it like for you if you have experienced it? Do you know what induced it?
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Drug induced, a few times.
Wound up in the psych ward more times than id like to admit.
Funny how real everything feels at the time. I can only imagine what it must be like to actually be psychotic. At the time youre convinced that everyone is out to get you. If that never went away it would be hell on earth and you wouldnt even know it
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: JvF]
#23451708 - 07/18/16 01:31 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Brief Psychosis episode with very negative mind-chattering patterns. Drug induced. I am in the ward because of other things now and here are many poeple who got psychosis from being sober .
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: Trippedytrip] 2
#23451750 - 07/18/16 02:12 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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hurray for drug induced psychosis! way better than the other kind
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: xzylocybin]
#23451834 - 07/18/16 04:17 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yes haha , i see people here having psychosis without and they struggle way harder although you can also have a very intense one of drugs due to highee awareness.
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Brief psychosis due to stress. Ptsd.
Was awful. Remembering is like a blur.
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: yeah]
#23455590 - 07/19/16 09:59 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I've had two episodes within 2 years. This was when I was using weed and mushroom daily, just cause I figured I was completely dropped out. I was also going through relationship problem and trying to figure out what it all means, between men and women. The first time it last about 4 months. Second about 4 years even now symptoms still persists. I do believe in the mushrooms but two psychosises really give me abundant reason to be cautious when using them. My symptoms includes thinking I was God and no one else is (one and only and more important than others) visual and audial hallucinations. Kinda like tripping on mushroom all the time. In normal everyday life, there is always another reality (that I was god) going parallel with conventional reality. I just kinda adapted to my psychosis. Even now I still talk to the mushroom about it, and it said she be patient, maybe it will all be important someday. As of now, I still believe nobody actually understand these things completely yet.
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: towelie2016]
#23455946 - 07/19/16 11:41 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Maybe thinking different helps. I dont like people who think theyr better lol. Start there
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: Trippedytrip]
#23456179 - 07/19/16 01:02 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Trippedytrip said: Maybe thinking different helps. I dont like people who think theyr better lol. Start there
yeah, of course that would be common sense. But when I said one of the "symptoms", or the main symptom where the other come from, is that I feel that "I am God, the one and only, and there is no other. Not you or my mom or any other person". It is more like a conviction that comes from deep inside. But somehow, i don't know how it does it, but it doesn't contradict with common senses. At first when it happened I was really hyper, like a first awakening, and it will persist, hence I landed in the nut house twice. I think it might not be a disease at all. I think we have psychoses because I struggle, really struggle, to find ways to articulate how we are feeling. Or what we are feeling. Therefore it comes through all distorted and out of proportion (what you normally call good, beautiful, and so on). Essentially, somehow the gate just got blown open for good, and we struggle to reduce, for lack of a better word, God to a few intelligible words so we can communicate about it <= there goes the problem, psychosis?
I'm not sure. I'm trying to feel my way around it to understand more what happened to me. But it just refused to be defined cause it keeps on changing and flowing.
I just took a hit. I'm so high right now. Excuse me if I don't make any sense.
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: towelie2016]
#23456944 - 07/19/16 05:35 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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All those things you felt are true, just in their unbalanced form.
When balanced by the motherly energy of heaven, those insights turn into you realizing that humanity itself is a farce. You really become something more than human as you go thoughtless
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: yeah]
#23457360 - 07/19/16 07:46 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yeah I had a psychosis.. mostly brought out from meeting my guru although I was also still doing psyches at the time. Had a lot of amazing mystical insights and very out there experiences, I am very glad I went through it.. it did turn terrifying at some points and landed me in the mental hospital for a time but all in all it was very positive
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Quote:
EternalCowabunga said: Yeah I had a psychosis.. mostly brought out from meeting my guru although I was also still doing psyches at the time. Had a lot of amazing mystical insights and very out there experiences, I am very glad I went through it.. it did turn terrifying at some points and landed me in the mental hospital for a time but all in all it was very positive
Is your guru a person or the mushroom or something the mushroom showed you. I'm asking cause I always think of the mushroom as my guru.
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: towelie2016]
#23458960 - 07/20/16 09:24 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Gurus don't lead you to psychosis
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: xzylocybin]
#23460219 - 07/20/16 05:30 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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xzylocybin said: Gurus don't lead you to psychosis
Seems a bit presumptuous of you to speak for the whole human race there. What are you basing this on?
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I think guru can be inside, outside, a person, yourself or a relationship with a psychedelic teacher. It's the universe manifesting itself to bring you to the source or awakening..
My guru happened to manifest as a person. Meeting them changed my life. I haven't seen them in years so a lot of the experience is unfortunately just memory now but some things have stuck with me and I'm grateful for the insights.
I was not prepared for the awakening so it led to psychosis I think. So many things I didn't understand what was happening to me or why.. my mind was trying to get itself around all these synchronicities and mystical experiences but could not. There was a demon of sorts conspiring to fulfill all material desires while the other half surrendered to purity and simplicity.
My psychosis ended when the wave collapsed but I was now a new soul.
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Yep, psychotic thoughts are incredibly enlightening and everyone should get their hands on them!
Seriously though, I've been living with PTSD induced psychosis and it has been a miserable nightmare. A coworker can make a harmless quip that throws you into disturbing childhood flashbacks that disrupt your ability to render a single coherent thought. I can't say a single good thing about psychosis.
If you can find enlightenment down that rabbit hole, then best of luck to you, congrats, kudos. I just couldn't imagine deliberating subjecting yourself to that, let alone glorifying the experience.
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: RigbyLoves]
#23462508 - 07/21/16 12:07 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I don't really understand what psychosis is - can someone fill me in?
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I'm always a bit psychotic, its inherent part of my personality. I don't "lose it" though, psychosis and I are in harmony unless I take too much drugs in too short a time span.
Mild psychosis has become useful to me just like hypomania had become useful to Robin Williams.
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Depends on how you define psychosis.
I've experienced amphetamine psychosis before. That's easy, just do a bunch of stimulants and don't go to bed for 3-4 days.
In terms of schitzophrenia like things, when I was very young and hit puberty, I developed a huge number of delusional and possibly schitzophrenic beliefs/ideas/ways of thinking. I was going through a lot of stress at the time, picked on quite heavily in school, poor home life, no friends, and I was going through puberty, so it's entirely possible that I would have just grown out of it naturally.
Instead I ended up taking seroquel for about 7 years. That completely ended my experience with psychosis. It's possible it would have ended on its own as I grew up, or its possible it may have gotten worse had I not gone on such a strong antipsychotic for so long at such a crucial developmental period in my life.
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: Asante]
#23465405 - 07/22/16 09:35 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Asante said: I'm always a bit psychotic, its inherent part of my personality. I don't "lose it" though, psychosis and I are in harmony unless I take too much drugs in too short a time span.
Mild psychosis has become useful to me just like hypomania had become useful to Robin Williams.
I like the way you say your psychosis and you are in harmony, and of course unless you take too much drugs in too short time span. When you did do that did you feeling like you were pushing your brain a bit? like how you work out to gain muscle by pushing a bit? I am just curious. Whenever I take something and feel tired, it's like a red flag to me, like I'm pushing it too much too fast, by taking it too often. Then I'll be weary and be like I gotta slow down, I can't risk another psychosis.Then I'll be trying to feel my way around to find my limits, know my body better, then try to push the boundaries a little bit. Haha, I'm not too sure what the goal is here but I always have a feeling like I gotta explore more and report back what's useful, like as soon as possible as much as possible. It's just that I take this very seriously. It's life to me. Like was it you that said "these chemicals are me. funny thing?"
I just had a really good journey last night, and my mind is filled with things to share with somebody and I don't have anyone I can talk to. It's really lonely.
Btw, whenever you're in hyperspace, Do you feel like there is like a kind of etiquette of how to behave for those who go in those realms? It's like if you can reach those realms by either one mean or another you should be expected to know how to behave? Is there anything like first rule about fight club is you don't talk about fight club? or none like that? I know it might sound like nonsenses but that how I felt
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Re: Have you ever had psychosis? [Re: towelie2016]
#23468976 - 07/23/16 11:08 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I've had psychosis a whole bunch of times and been in mental hospitals more times then I can count. The first time it was labeled 'drug induced psychosis' - Prednisone and Weed. For me it's pretty much always been strong persecutory delusions usually coupled with aural hallucinations. (hearing voices - for me they seemed to be coming through my ears not just 'in my head')
It usually cleared up within three weeks to a month but usually like I said I ended up in a mental institution closely monitored on a whole cornucopia of drugs. I've been diagnosed with a bunch of things in succession, currently "scizoaffective disorder." I'm on an anti-psychotic. No episodes since getting on the most recent one.
I agree that there is nothing good in psychosis.
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I have experienced drug/sleep depravation induced psychosis once.
The hallucinations were the most realistic I have ever seen, and I could feel everything too - angels, fairies and lots of other wizard/magical type stuff.
At one point I was hallucinating that all these tiny little fairies were nesting in the threads of the carpet in my bedroom - My boyfriend was still in bed at this point and I remember telling him "Don't step of the fairies when you get out of bed"
The angels gave me angel hands and wings and helped to clean up our back yard.
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