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 Bill_Oreilly
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 Does this happen to anyone else?  1
#23436434 - 07/12/16 10:50 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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So whenever im really learning deep teachings about my life and the mystery behind it, something happens.
I become overwhelmed and ask "God" to stop because i am not ready.
Ill be seconds away from finding out what i have been waiting for..then it becomes too much for me and i ask "the source" to stop.
Now i never would have believed that i would ask the source to STOP rather than asking for more..but when you are in the moment getting REAL info from a REAL SOURCE it becomes too too much.
Anyone relate?
Edit: This has me convinced that we humans are not fully in control nor alone. We are being guided by a force and/or being. That same force knows what we need more than we do.
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Something there is mysteriously formed,
Existing before Heaven and Earth,
Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging,
All-pervading, unfailing,
I do not know its name; I call it tao.
If forced to give it a name, I call it
Great (ta). Being great, it flows out;
Flowing out means far-reaching;
Being far-reaching, it is said to return.
It's just a shot away..
Edited by Bill_Oreilly (07/12/16 10:57 PM)
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pineninja
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#23436445 - 07/12/16 10:56 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yes. I don't think knowing everything would be a good thing, you may aswell just shut up shop if you did. Knowing this has stopped me a few times.
The few times where i havent tried to stop the stream i died both times.
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 Mike4aco
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Bill_Oreilly] 1
#23436449 - 07/12/16 10:57 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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I recently took 1.5 mg lsd. I saw the fabric of reality and experienced several thousands of layers to time and multiverse and the complete existence of all that is was will be. In doing that i experienced several different versions of déjà vu, pre déjà vu, post déjà vu, and simultaneous déjà vu. I know there are different words for it not just déjà, but i dont know what the words are. I want these visions to stop. I absolutely never ever ever ever ever ever ever times infinity want to see them again. They scare the daylights out of me.
I feel that one time, i will trip and anyone who sees me physically will just see my body disintegrate and fall apart
Its times like this that i am begging the Brahman knowledge to keep me in the dark
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Bill_Oreilly
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Mike4aco]
#23436462 - 07/12/16 11:03 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Its not because i am scared, though. The knowledge i am told isnt threatning or scary...but for some reason i find myself not ready, when it comes time.
ill be able to handle it up to a point..then i feel like i am about to be told something that would make me think so hard to the point it would drive me mad.
Its like "the other" knows that i am not ready to know why it has been slowly revealing the fabric of space and time.
Its as if it can show me, but it wont explain itself to me for the same reason i dont explain myself to my friends and family. They are not ready.
i am not ready.
but i am ready to admit i am not ready which may mean i am ready.
time will tell
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Something there is mysteriously formed,
Existing before Heaven and Earth,
Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging,
All-pervading, unfailing,
I do not know its name; I call it tao.
If forced to give it a name, I call it
Great (ta). Being great, it flows out;
Flowing out means far-reaching;
Being far-reaching, it is said to return.
It's just a shot away..
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Mike4aco]
#23436466 - 07/12/16 11:03 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Quote:
Mike4aco said:
I recently took 1.5 mg lsd. I saw the fabric of reality and experienced several thousands of layers to time and multiverse and the complete existence of all that is was will be. In doing that i experienced several different versions of déjà vu, pre déjà vu, post déjà vu, and simultaneous déjà vu. I know there are different words for it not just déjà, but i dont know what the words are. I want these visions to stop. I absolutely never ever ever ever ever ever ever times infinity want to see them again. They scare the daylights out of me.
I feel that one time, i will trip and anyone who sees me physically will just see my body disintegrate and fall apart
Its times like this that i am begging the Brahman knowledge to keep me in the dark
This is about sums up how I felt after eating an enormous amount of mushrooms. I never asked the source to stop, per say, but I felt scarred and traumatized by the things I learned and the experience as a whole. I asked myself for weeks how I could go on with my normal life after having reality torn apart like that. It's also why I stick to more moderate doses nowadays
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Edited by ruaware (12/05/16 04:52 PM)
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pineninja
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#23436493 - 07/12/16 11:15 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Quote:
Bill_Oreilly said:
Its not because i am scared, though. The knowledge i am told isnt threatning or scary...but for some reason i find myself not ready, when it comes time.
ill be able to handle it up to a point..then i feel like i am about to be told something that would make me think so hard to the point it would drive me mad.
Its like "the other" knows that i am not ready to know why it has been slowly revealing the fabric of space and time.
Its as if it can show me, but it wont explain itself to me for the same reason i dont explain myself to my friends and family. They are not ready.
i am not ready.
but i am ready to admit i am not ready which may mean i am ready.
time will tell
When you are ready you won't say stop. You need to be willing to potentially lose yourself and imo thats fucking scary least it was for me.
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Bill_Oreilly
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: pineninja]
#23436504 - 07/12/16 11:19 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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what i am trying to say is that nobody is ready when it comes to a certain point
the question is...how many people push themselves to that point?
This never happened to me until recently, and i have tripped over 100 times, easy
it even happens when im stoned on BHO
ill have these streams and ill answer the streams all the way through up until i reach a point i cant go further.
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Something there is mysteriously formed,
Existing before Heaven and Earth,
Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging,
All-pervading, unfailing,
I do not know its name; I call it tao.
If forced to give it a name, I call it
Great (ta). Being great, it flows out;
Flowing out means far-reaching;
Being far-reaching, it is said to return.
It's just a shot away..
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pineninja
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#23436516 - 07/12/16 11:25 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Tbh You cant speak for others. I was not able to handle the potential loss of self for years my ego was far to strong in the last couple of trips/months i have finally been able to let go you will be confronted with the death of who you are and you need to be ok with that. Thats when you're ready IMO. 9g subs with harmine.
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Just a fool on the hill.
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Bill_Oreilly
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: pineninja] 1
#23436533 - 07/12/16 11:31 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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i tried explaining it but apparently i failed miserably
this isnt the mushrooms holding back aliens because im not ready
this is "the source" refusing to tell me my future when i press up against it
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Something there is mysteriously formed,
Existing before Heaven and Earth,
Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging,
All-pervading, unfailing,
I do not know its name; I call it tao.
If forced to give it a name, I call it
Great (ta). Being great, it flows out;
Flowing out means far-reaching;
Being far-reaching, it is said to return.
It's just a shot away..
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Mike4aco
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: pineninja]
#23436536 - 07/12/16 11:32 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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I push myself to that point each time. Fear is a bad word for it. Im scared yes, but not scared like what that word means. Scared like intimidated i guess?
Heres this giant curtain, and behind it is the meaning to existence, energy, and dimensions. Are you going to peek behind it or no?
Ive let myself peek behind it, but by some merciful reason, i cant remember what happens behind it. Im sure that if i did remember i wouldn't be able to exist physically here, with you guys. Because that realm of existence is beyond physical, beyond everything
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Bill_Oreilly
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Mike4aco] 1
#23436540 - 07/12/16 11:35 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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intimidated is a great word to explain it
its as if the source is so real that i refuse it because i dont want to believe i am not in full control
sort of like neo from the matrix when he explains to the oracle how he fears hes not in control
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Something there is mysteriously formed,
Existing before Heaven and Earth,
Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging,
All-pervading, unfailing,
I do not know its name; I call it tao.
If forced to give it a name, I call it
Great (ta). Being great, it flows out;
Flowing out means far-reaching;
Being far-reaching, it is said to return.
It's just a shot away..
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Mike4aco
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Mike4aco]
#23436542 - 07/12/16 11:35 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yeah i dont feel any threatening scariness. What i feel is that if i learn what is right there at my fingertips, that this life here will be meaningless
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Bill_Oreilly
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Mike4aco] 1
#23436551 - 07/12/16 11:39 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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yes!
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Something there is mysteriously formed,
Existing before Heaven and Earth,
Silent, still, standing alone, unchanging,
All-pervading, unfailing,
I do not know its name; I call it tao.
If forced to give it a name, I call it
Great (ta). Being great, it flows out;
Flowing out means far-reaching;
Being far-reaching, it is said to return.
It's just a shot away..
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Mike4aco
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Bill_Oreilly]
#23436581 - 07/12/16 11:53 PM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Thats what i got with the déjà vu sequence. I saw my entire life. Now what? I dont have to ever get out of bed (until the certain moment happens?) for ever? I saw myself at work the very next day, doing certain things, that when the actual timeline got to that point... I was doing those exact things. Predestiny? No free will? What if i trip and find out exactly what happens when it will happen?
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Bill_Oreilly] 1
#23436618 - 07/13/16 12:11 AM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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A part of me hates that I know exactly what you guys are talking about. 
The voice beyond the curtain sounds very disappointed every time I decline the offer. I'll peek when I'm dead.
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pineninja
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Mike4aco] 1
#23436630 - 07/13/16 12:15 AM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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Quote:
Mike4aco said:
Yeah i dont feel any threatening scariness. What i feel is that if i learn what is right there at my fingertips, that this life here will be meaningless
Which is what happens.
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Mike4aco
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: pineninja]
#23436655 - 07/13/16 12:28 AM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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That happened to me the other night man
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pineninja
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Mike4aco]
#23436664 - 07/13/16 12:32 AM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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I'm still coming to terms with it. Thinking of life like a game seems to be helping.
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Just a fool on the hill.
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Re: Does this happen to anyone else? [Re: Bill_Oreilly] 2
#23436680 - 07/13/16 12:40 AM (8 years, 3 months ago) |
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I would say yes. Mainly on huge DMT breakthroughs where I "realize what reality is/was all along" that "i"(not the individual me but the I in everything is basically responsible)
Something similar to this but that's not quite all of it.
Quote:
as Swami Muktananda would say: “God dwells within you, as you;” “See God in each other;” “God is not an entity;” and “God is within you as you. Not hidden within you. Not a seed (garbha) within you, but you.” God is pure awareness as your own awareness, as your body and as your mind.
I realize something similar to this usually and it gets pretty fucking intense.
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It's all for the s
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