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vandago



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Ex Od'd on H this morning.
#23428108 - 07/10/16 12:20 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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She called me freaking out hoping to find some way to avoid doing it, I was asleep after work and had no answer for her. The same shit doesn't work, I can't offer her anything.
I lost a lot of respect and friends overall when I was dating this girl years ago, invested a lot of my heart into something to inevitably have it broken.
We are still friends, but I think watching her fall now is even more painful then we we were intimate. It's like I have no choice but to just walk away and let her die. She got busted with dope last year, and she's been on probation for it, and just failed a piss test last week for it and had to restart her probation.
I am not a fan of the shit at all. I dunno what to even do.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: vandago]
#23428116 - 07/10/16 12:30 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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follow your gut. Imo you've already made the right decision walking away.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: T-Rex]
#23428131 - 07/10/16 12:37 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Well she walked away from me, she was quite the promiscuous one. I can't deal with a monogamous relationship that turns into lying and behind the back unprotected sex and needles.
Her and I have great chats when she isn't high on dope, but thats far and few between.
She called me at 9:11 pm and let me know she relapsed again and busted her head and wrecked her car.
Like I can't stand hearing about how hard these cravings are, how much shes "trying, how hard it is bla bla bla.
She lives in a fuckin mansion with 5 acres and literally gets everything she wants whenever she wants. Beautiful, funny, close with her family, doesn't even have to work if she doesnt want to, and always goes on about how hard her life is.
I dunno, I guess talking to her is a huge reminder of how incredibly naive and lonely I am. There's something about people on heroin that suck the life out of me, and I kinda feel addicted to wasting my time trying to help.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: vandago]
#23428145 - 07/10/16 12:48 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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She's got you spun. That's the manipulation of a heroin addict. I've been through the hell she's going through. And I learned many times that relationships do not last when heroin is involved for the most part. It becomes your lover. She's using you as an emotional crutch when it conveniences her. From what I gather from your post she doesn't care about creating turmoil in your life. She walked out on you bc she can't stay faithful. She gets pinched by cops for possession. On probation. Fails piss test. Has the wealth/family to get help chooses not to. Calls you after relapsing and crashing her car. RUN. Far away.
From someone who doesn't have an emotional interest in this relationship, you should think about you future not hers.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: T-Rex]
#23428213 - 07/10/16 01:26 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I suppose you are right. I gotta quit being a tool.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: vandago]
#23428227 - 07/10/16 01:35 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Your not a tool. Your human. You were once romantically intimate with this woman. Its not easy to watch someone you love go through this. But first and foremost is yourself brother.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: vandago] 2
#23428238 - 07/10/16 01:40 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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At least shes alive
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: T-Rex]
#23428245 - 07/10/16 01:43 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Ya but she was never romantically intimate with me.
One time she was so high on dope and I didn't even notice it til I went down on her and she nodded off, farted in my mouth, and called me her ex fiance's name.
I got pretty pissed and let her sleep, when she woke up ( late ) I had to take her to work cause she was too high to drive, we got pulled over for speeding, she has a bag of dope in her pocket she tells me about. Luckily we didn't get searched then.
It was always shit like that. Her fiance left her because of her dope habit after they were together and she used me as a relapse tool, just a crutch. After about 6 months she was with 4 other guys and fucking her fiance at the same time.
It was like sober her was awesome, but was a fraction of time. I dunno why I let it get passed a couple weeks. She was stealing from me too.
Hell one time she called me crying because her dog had cancer. I rushed over and took it to the vet with her to get euthanized. We go in there and she isn't even upset anymore, and I had never put a dog down before. So I am in the vets office crying, shes like meh, and the vet sticks the dog and the dog dies in my arms......I take her back to her huge ass house and shes like "ok I had plans with my fiance already today, thanks for taking my dog to get killed" and leaves me there with her mom.
There's no other word for that accept tool bag. Most of our time together when we were sexual was when I was a huge drunk. I just went to bars alone and drank alone and didn't talk to anyone. She invited me out one night and I thought it was just a friend thing....I guess I had been so damn lonely for so long I took the bait without a second thought.....but I had never dealt with a heroin addict before like that.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: Connoisseur]
#23428246 - 07/10/16 01:44 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Connoisseur said: At least shes alive
For now. It's been getting worse and worse. She's od'd several times before this, but today was the closest she came to dying.
Her mom actually keeps shots of narcan in the house.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: vandago]
#23428264 - 07/10/16 01:55 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yeah she's certified trash. Fuck that slut vandago. Move on. So many more chicks to play Captain Save A Ho with.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: T-Rex]
#23428266 - 07/10/16 01:57 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Oh and I would of been out at the mouth fart, fucking gross.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: T-Rex]
#23428287 - 07/10/16 02:09 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Ya I dunno why I even bother talking to her anymore. It's always bad news.
She's pretty much sucked my ability to love or trust a female ever again I think. It's been years and I still can't fathom honesty.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: vandago]
#23428311 - 07/10/16 02:24 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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vandago said:
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Connoisseur said: At least shes alive
For now. It's been getting worse and worse. She's od'd several times before this, but today was the closest she came to dying.
Her mom actually keeps shots of narcan in the house.
So does mine
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: Connoisseur]
#23428325 - 07/10/16 02:45 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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seems like you are addicted to her drama, stop letting her drag you through shit
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: xzylocybin]
#23428328 - 07/10/16 02:51 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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I just answer the phone.
I hardly ever call her, nor do we even see eachother.
She just calls out of the blue either to stay in touch and things are fine, or a week later in panic because she fucked up again.
I'm in the most desolate time in my life right now. I am more alone than I have ever been before. It's nice to hear a voice.
I'd much rather it be a positive one that I didn't fret over though.
When we were seeing each other I had no clue how much baggage was coming with her, and it left me pretty wrecked. It also ruined a lot of friendships I had having her around and I'm one to not notice a lot of stuff until it's place in hindsight.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: vandago] 1
#23428335 - 07/10/16 03:01 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Come man, stop wallowing in self-pity
Whats stopping you from walking away and starting fresh? Be in charge man, own the world
-------------------- Ach en wee ben ik de klos, met mijn boog schoot ik een albatros... A philosopher is a person who knows less and less about more and more, until he knows nothing about everything.

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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: Tripsurfer]
#23428347 - 07/10/16 03:13 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Meh, there's a lot more going on than her demise that's negatively impacting my life.
It's just a venting thread mainly.
There's a lot stopping me from moving on to a happier place. A lot of shit I can't control.
It's been a steady decline now way before her.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: vandago]
#23428374 - 07/10/16 04:00 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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some times u have to go through hard times but they come and go good luck bud
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I should probably just stick ice in her ass and her pussy and call it a day.
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Re: Ex Od'd on H this morning. [Re: vandago]
#23428382 - 07/10/16 04:18 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Sucks to hear about your friend...and how shitty you're feeling.
I had to walk away from someone like that once. It's not easy, but sticking around hurts more.
I gave you the key when the door wasn't open, just admit it See I gave you faith turned your doubt in to hoping, can't deny it Now I'm all alone and my joys turned to moping Tell me here, where are you now that I need you? Where are you now? Where are you now that I need ya? Couldn't find you anywhere When you broke down I didn't leave ya I was by your side So where are you now that I need ya? Where are you now that I need ya?
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ga ga ga eets eets how you gone be mad on vacation? MONICA COULDN'T TELL TIME UNTIL SHE WAS 13
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