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new2shroomzz
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Ego death.
#23425064 - 07/08/16 10:23 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Ive worked towards obtaining this the past handful of years. Tonight it happened. Im still trying to breathe
-------------------- "We can't stop here, this is bat country!" — Hunter S. Thompson
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new2shroomzz
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Breathing. Is that what we're really all doing?
-------------------- "We can't stop here, this is bat country!" — Hunter S. Thompson
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Mike4aco
Soy el pinche guey



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Ahhhh such beautiful words i am reading. I hope you had an amazing time becoming one with everything! !!!!!
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new2shroomzz
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I cant even begin to fragmentalize this. I died. Like hospital trip sirens and lights i can remember it all
-------------------- "We can't stop here, this is bat country!" — Hunter S. Thompson
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new2shroomzz
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So what now is the question
-------------------- "We can't stop here, this is bat country!" — Hunter S. Thompson
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new2shroomzz
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Time dilation omfg
-------------------- "We can't stop here, this is bat country!" — Hunter S. Thompson
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Mike4aco
Soy el pinche guey



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You are on a drug. That drug is very powerful. There is nothing you can do about it.
Enjoy your trip to the edges of the universe
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new2shroomzz
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Im fine now. I literally died last night guys. Idfk how to process it but ive been aiming for ego death with meditation and experimentation and hadnt unlocked it until tonight.
I literally remember hearing echoing sirens roaring in my head seeing the ER room and i was dying. I didnt have a split fucing second to think about family or anything. I surrendered and let go. Here i am. Picking back up the pieces of my collective conciousness that has been broken indeed for the first time tonight.
-------------------- "We can't stop here, this is bat country!" — Hunter S. Thompson
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new2shroomzz
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It was so real. I had thoughts of suicide popping up. I was locked in my room. I literally had to coax myself down after i came to.
I wasnt sure if id still be in the ER or in my room upon my return
-------------------- "We can't stop here, this is bat country!" — Hunter S. Thompson
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AkashicExplorer
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Awesome dude!!!!
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The 87 gram MushZilla BEAST
And it just obliterated the uttermost crap out from me. Love, Bliss, Laughter and Enlightenment!
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new2shroomzz
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First for me. I guess we'll see how i write the pages from here. I spun poi for 2 hours straight too. Discovered and learning spinning on different planes at the same time. Some crazy shit. I have a video id really love to share but dunno how 2 upload
-------------------- "We can't stop here, this is bat country!" — Hunter S. Thompson
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AkashicExplorer
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I have solved this in the past:
1- Plug your phone so it is charging. 2- Airplane mode: ON. 3- Start the voice recorder app. 4- Place it near you, but shut off the screen.
Trip and describe when you feel like it whats going on.
Might be late for you to do this haha, maybe you wont even manage to get that done in your phone since you are already tripping haha.
Good vibes man!
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The 87 gram MushZilla BEAST
And it just obliterated the uttermost crap out from me. Love, Bliss, Laughter and Enlightenment!
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Ulyssies
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Wait you had an ego death, or you hallucinated that you were dieing? Typically ego death is associated with having no reference-points or ideas of self. If you felt like you were dieing that would imply you still knew you were a human capable of death. Still sounds like an intense time either way.
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Malcolm_Xtasy
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OP it sounds like you had a psychotic break. Ego death
-------------------- I'm stupid, Enlil is smart. I'm ugly, Enlil is beautiful. I'm a loser, Enlil is a winner. Someday, I hope to be like Enlil but secretly know I never will.
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afrogus
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As you describe it OP, sounds like a classic NDE. Powerful stuff.
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Eclipse3130
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Re: Ego death. [Re: afrogus]
#23426071 - 07/09/16 09:56 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Still living off the joy of my breakthrough 2 years ago this month, the day is with me every waking moment of my life, blessed with wisdom and full of love and light. Had no sense of self, convinced myself I had died because I could not believe anything I was perceiving to be true, I literally had no thoughts of how to be, I had to give up and let it be, and I became it all. I was in a reality which I could only describe as Heaven; a total state of transcendental Nirvana. There was nothing to experience rather than the wisdom of just Being. Came back reborn still growing into the person I need to be, on my long journey! Thank you DMT!
What exactly did you take? It sounds like LSD
Edited by Eclipse3130 (07/09/16 10:08 AM)
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new2shroomzz
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It was Ego Death. I watched everything be stripped of me and my mind was reassembled and reset from scratch. It was beautiful and blissful with a pinch of horrific when i died. Quite the timeless realm that was too. Minutes seemed like hours. Achieved with 3 strong lsd blotters and 6 years of meditation and preparation
-------------------- "We can't stop here, this is bat country!" — Hunter S. Thompson
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fractaloctopus
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Ego death (a terrible term I think it should be ego dissolution to avoid such misinterpretations) doesn't mean a death experience. Although there are typically experiences of dying during ego death, this is one: just the ego itself trying desperately to not "die" forcing you to try to save yourself (and more importantly the ego) and two: not the end of the ego death experience, but just the beginning.
Ego death means the "death" of the ego which in this case means the part of the psyche that tells you that you are a unique and separate thing from everything around you. When it occurs, "you" cease to be. "You" no longer exist. There is only a singular experience of everything in the universe.
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AuroraBorealis88
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Quote:
fractaloctopus said: Ego death (a terrible term I think it should be ego dissolution to avoid such misinterpretations) doesn't mean a death experience. Although there are typically experiences of dying during ego death, this is one: just the ego itself trying desperately to not "die" forcing you to try to save yourself (and more importantly the ego) and two: not the end of the ego death experience, but just the beginning.
Ego death means the "death" of the ego which in this case means the part of the psyche that tells you that you are a unique and separate thing from everything around you. When it occurs, "you" cease to be. "You" no longer exist. There is only a singular experience of everything in the universe.
I think ego death is a fine term because it's Leary's theory that after the ego dies the "new one is born" and on my first trip when I got ego death i really did feel born again.
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JForce
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What died? What didn't die?
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