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Invisibleremake
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Unplug.
    #23420001 - 07/07/16 11:49 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

We are standing still in space. You are a human. You literally have nothing to do right now. Perhaps some task scheduled at the tick of a movement.

Don't push and pull yourself.


Edited by remake (07/22/16 08:52 AM)


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Re: Unplug. [Re: remake]
    #23420025 - 07/07/16 11:59 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

Meh. I wish I could. I'm just on the final stages of moving home. Renting a van this weekend to get everything finished, am in a mad rush right now, just taking a break.

Oh how I wish I had nothing to do right now. I'd dose some mescaline and see some friends. Instead I have a list as long as my arm of things that need doing by the end of the day tomorrow.


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Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not.
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Re: Unplug. [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
    #23420046 - 07/07/16 12:07 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

Your mind? Where is that at. Those things are movements that have yet to happen.

Whatever you are doing right now is all that you are doing. You are just in your body. Looking at something.

A joint? A cup of mescaline?



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Re: Unplug. [Re: remake]
    #23420059 - 07/07/16 12:14 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

My mind? My mind is currently wishing that I didn't have all this pressure weighing down on my shoulders. Impermanent as it is (5 days from now it'll all be behind me), it's here right now.


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Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not.
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Re: Unplug. [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
    #23420088 - 07/07/16 12:26 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

Mescaline takes so much preparation! :mad2:  Best drug ever but such a pain in the ass to extract.


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Re: Unplug. [Re: mt cleverest]
    #23420105 - 07/07/16 12:32 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

Unless you have a man that supplies HCL.

I do agree though. Have done many, many, d-limonene tek extractions. A rewarding end product, but definitely effort.

Definitely the best drug ever though. By a long, long way IMO.


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Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not.
--Jac O'keeffe


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Re: Unplug. [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
    #23420271 - 07/07/16 01:40 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

I wish I had a source for hcl. For the no hassle (deskinning is a bitch for me, after which I have cactus bits under my fingernails for weeks) and the easier comedown I'm guessing.


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Re: Unplug. [Re: mt cleverest]
    #23420280 - 07/07/16 01:45 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

Comedown is no easier IMO. Full alkaoid extract is a little more 'dreamy'. Only difference IMO, I've done plenty of both.


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Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not.
--Jac O'keeffe


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Re: Unplug. [Re: remake]
    #23420448 - 07/07/16 02:49 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

I unplugged for real about 6 years ago. The main thing is to consciously make a decision that one is happy with poverty, because really the entire point of The System is to make things more efficient, consequences be damned.

I live in the country on an invalid's benefit. Right now it is cloudy and the wind is whirling in the mountains above my house. It's cold as fuck here (South Island of NZ in the middle of winter) and I am the happiest person I know by some margin (if you don't count the fellow I go and listen to at the Buddhist Centre on Wednesday evenings), despite being the poorest.

For 5,000 years Babylon has practiced its ability to tempt and entrance. Can you do without the pleasures she offers? If you can't, unplugging will be impossible.


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Re: Unplug. [Re: viktor]
    #23420544 - 07/07/16 03:29 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

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I unplugged for real about 6 years ago. The main thing is to consciously make a decision that one is happy with poverty, because really the entire point of The System is to make things more efficient, consequences be damned.

I live in the country on an invalid's benefit. Right now it is cloudy and the wind is whirling in the mountains above my house. It's cold as fuck here (South Island of NZ in the middle of winter) and I am the happiest person I know by some margin (if you don't count the fellow I go and listen to at the Buddhist Centre on Wednesday evenings), despite being the poorest.

For 5,000 years Babylon has practiced its ability to tempt and entrance. Can you do without the pleasures she offers? If you can't, unplugging will be impossible.




I am currently unplugging. Its a process...for me it is. I quit my "high status" corporate job yesterday, in fact.


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Re: Unplug. [Re: viktor]
    #23420559 - 07/07/16 03:35 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

It seems to me as if literally nothing is really happening. It's one instance of - life. Everyone is moving to and from different - spaces. No one is going to the "future" or "past". We are just standing at different points and consuming and living according to the clock's movements.

We are all talking and acting according to what we're thinking everyone else is thinking. But. That doesn't even make sense. Because no one is ever thinking what you are thinking and its all just a big fuckup. And fuck all is happening anytime else. We are timeless. And killing ourselves.

Maybe I'm a complete idiot...haha


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Re: Unplug. [Re: remake]
    #23422216 - 07/08/16 02:27 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

I'm sitting at home smoking a cigarette and drinking coffee within a giant sandbox that's not really that scary.... These words are being imprinted through a physical device and engraved into the sea of communication connected with physical cables. Transmitting particles and shit. I think that's how it works...

I'm fucking stupid. I don't know much about anything really but I do know I'm at my house on earth and there is no rush to die. We choose our poisons...

Guess I should stop smoking and drinking and fill that with something healthier. Not now though my body is relatively new.

What would you do in eternity?

All you need is to not kill yourself right now...

The rest is pretty much your choice if you can stomach a boss or friend or family member or stranger calling you names.

The world was created by who cares a billion movements ago. Let's move into something cool now and not blow ourselves up. Cool thing is we actually have the freedom into that which we are moving. But we have to build it.

We have science and brains to learn about how to use everything more efficiently.

You are as natural as can be. Have hands and feet and speech. We are manipulators. Maybe mundane right now. But shit! There's no rules except don't die...well. I think we're essentially the same mind underneath.

Being selfish in our knowledge doesn't really benefit anyone. Together we hold the power to create something spectacular. Not unicorn shit. Real. Tangible. This reality type of shit.

Realistically we can talk about the nature of the world as it is moving and thriving now in the absence of time. And accurately view ourselves objectively. We were what we always were. Here where we always were. Just here. On earth, running around, chasing shadows and dying. Yeaterday was a place. Tomorrow is now. Or whenever, rather, wherever you'd like. Realistically speaking though. We only have what we have right now. Which is literally everything, including our movements, in front of us.

And there's so so so much to discover.

And make and show to each other.

By the "time" (moment of movement) you are reading this I'll be some place else. But we'll be together either way. Just in our moment. Ever moving across eternity.


Edited by remake (07/08/16 04:20 AM)


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Re: Unplug. [Re: viktor]
    #23423248 - 07/08/16 11:20 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

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I unplugged for real about 6 years ago. The main thing is to consciously make a decision that one is happy with poverty,..
I live in the country on an invalid's benefit. Right now it is cloudy and the wind is whirling in the mountains above my house. ...

For 5,000 years Babylon has practiced its ability to tempt and entrance. Can you do without the pleasures she offers? If you can't, unplugging will be impossible.




I'm curious, it is of course possible to live without punching a time clock, but many fill the void with TV or facebook in retirement. So 'unpluging' could be taken to have more than one level.

So perhaps there is also the question of what we do with our time and how we feel about that. Even a monk who feels he is competing with other monks, to sit the longest, or get the teachers approval, though poor financially and in that sense 'unplugged' is certainly not psychologically free.

So I'm vaguely curious what you do with your time that you enjoy.

It would seem enjoyment is a key, not size of bank account.

Children of course enjoy themselves a lot, but they lack equanimity,
and insight, etc. so perhaps there are a few more levels.


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Re: Unplug. [Re: remake]
    #23430453 - 07/10/16 08:41 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

"I" ""you" "him" "her" "she" "he" and "they" are all used by the ego. To fully embrace the God mind we must prevent ourselves from using these words as they allow our demons (ego) to manifest. Until God is embraced we will not fully indulge in the truth that we are free to do as we please but convince others to believe in it souly for the purpose of reinforcing the belief in its truth. To become self reliant, we are to imagine that we are the last person alive on earth, and it does not matter whether or not we help people, because we can not be helped, we can only be offered the truth that allows us to help ourselves, though speaking the true word of God is the only way for anyone to hear the message.


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Re: Unplug. [Re: bigdoodie]
    #23430492 - 07/10/16 08:54 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

some like to plug which is a whole 'nother issue with unplugging


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Re: Unplug. [Re: redgreenvines]
    #23430558 - 07/10/16 09:19 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

None of us actually enjoy television, or games, or even music. it is our ego that drives us to do these things because of our dependency of other people in o rder to feel a sense of empowerment. these things we do are food for the ego and the bigger our ego the more power we feel. When we lack our true state of beingc empowerment is the only thing that makes us feel alive. We would not do any of these things if we were to find ourselves in a world in which we were the only occupant of. Everything that we do differently in this world than that imaginary world is because of our dependency of other people. If we were to live in that world, we would realize that people are not important to us and that we have a strong will to survive, and that we need nothing but ourself and God, or the God mind- ones true state of being. We work, express emotion, indulge in entertainment, and indulge in hobbies, food, sex etc, all for feeding our ego in order to gain empowerment over people, and it is all an illusion, as superiority is not real. Division is the illusion and we are the universe


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Re: Unplug. [Re: remake]
    #23430965 - 07/11/16 12:35 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

Regarding employment, the term "corporate bragging" means to talk a lot about how incredibly busy you are.

Being "busy" is the # 1 complaint of humanity. As some say, it's a form of bragging. "I have more to do than you!"

Being "busy" is a modern day religion. We highly value people who appear super super busy.

Take two employees. One feels very hectic and busy, and the other is relaxed. Who do you respect more
and who gets the promotion? The busy person. Feeling "busy" is a voluntary state of mind and had nothing to
do with productivity. Feeling "busy" usually reduces productivity.


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Re: Unplug. [Re: RJ Tubs 202] * 1
    #23461462 - 07/21/16 02:28 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

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RJ Tubs 202 said:
Regarding employment, the term "corporate bragging" means to talk a lot about how incredibly busy you are.

Being "busy" is the # 1 complaint of humanity. As some say, it's a form of bragging. "I have more to do than you!"

Being "busy" is a modern day religion. We highly value people who appear super super busy.

Take two employees. One feels very hectic and busy, and the other is relaxed. Who do you respect more
and who gets the promotion? The busy person. Feeling "busy" is a voluntary state of mind and had nothing to
do with productivity. Feeling "busy" usually reduces productivity.




I took what you said and applied to my brain mechanisms and it rings true, man. I'm young and working at a fairly easy going place. My boss is very laid back and I have wondered for quite some time how he manages to keep his posture and patience while maintaining his work ethic.

There really is no rush to do anything. At least here where I am, luckily for me I suppose. I got bored at a time because work seemed to come in slow and I felt as if I wasn't "challenged" enough, but boredom is actually pretty awesome to be honest. And I have discovered so many things to "challenge" myself with between jobs.


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Re: Unplug. [Re: remake]
    #23461477 - 07/21/16 02:34 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

I woke up this morning at 4 am and wondered around my flat. I was pretty stressed over some girl I met and whether or not I should do something about it. While sitting, fervently toking a bong, I came up with a few simple words I am going to repeat to myself as often as possible:

I control my actions, emotions and thoughts.

Just that line, continuously. Might only work for me, but that's what I'm thinking right now.

You - control - your - body.

As long as we know this, we can see that time and impulse and "instinct" CAN actually be ignored and you CAN sit still and do nothing while "deadlines" whisk by.

Nothing happens until it is - made - to happen. No one can tell you what to do. You can't tell anyone else what to do. Nothing's going to drop from the sky. You're not going to wake up in the future.

Also looked at myself in the mirror, and I was like:

Okay. Hey! That is me. I'm not somewhere else. That's how I exist as of this moment. And I literally control everything I put in and do with that thing.

This doesn't eliminate "wants", but puts in perspective actual "needs". Which is basically nothing. We don't "need" as much as we think we do.

Observing other people stuck in a continuous rush, expressing sighs and moans, gossiping, hating, scheming and acting haphazardly on assumptions almost becomes hilarious.

People DEMANDING "respect" (or rather, in this sense - "power" over the individual, separate bodies of others) seems an extremely strange and ultimately futile pursuit as well. And it doesn't really make sense for people to feel they have no choice in being influenced by these "gods" standing over them.


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Re: Unplug. [Re: remake]
    #23461595 - 07/21/16 04:07 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

the issues with control can tip your equilibrium.


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Re: Unplug. [Re: redgreenvines]
    #23461628 - 07/21/16 04:33 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

I think I get what you're saying.

It was between

"I control my actions, emotions and thoughts"

and

"I'm aware of my actions, emotions and thoughts"

It seems as if my body sometimes does stuff on it's own. But at least to some extent I am able to slow it down.


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the matrix [Re: remake] * 1
    #23464717 - 07/22/16 01:21 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

anything you practice you can get good at, and if you are good at it then you will seem to be in control.
however,
your reactions in situations are not exactly in control, they are your concertive trained response to the situation (same principle = training = practice or repetition)

this means that your control is always somewhat compromised, or at least not as much in the moment as you may believe...

what appears to be you in control is your responses which are how you last left them... and this is where control actually comes into play, how you leave yourself.

consider:
you observe your self in action, and determine if things need adjustment, then you practice the adjustments by planning and dedicating time,
working out the method of combining the stimuli with responses
(it can be less conceptual - eg to learn skateboarding you arrange to go to the park and fool around,
that can work)

whatever you practice becomes absorbed into your control matrix.

[this is your total control opportunity - practice]

everything else is automatic, or based upon reflex, knee jerk responses etc.


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Re: the matrix [Re: redgreenvines] * 1
    #23466922 - 07/22/16 05:57 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

My actions are my only true belongings.
I cannot escape the consequences of my actions.
My actions are the ground on which I stand.


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Re: the matrix [Re: RJ Tubs 202]
    #23477400 - 07/26/16 12:42 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

Alright Alright Alright! Everything is alright! Cause you are you and I am me. And it's not so fucking scary as it seems to be! We're here people of the earth. Just people. And we just want to be treated with sincerity! And we want to play.

You are all incredibly special and talented and UNIQUE. So colourful.

We just need to know we all want the same thing. A best friend. Someone to love.

Joke around don't joke with.

No one is dangerous. You are you. And don't have to be afraid!

Good Day Friends!

I lost my mind and found my soul.

We are all going home! Where we can play forever. It's not a competition. It's a show!

Also, fuck all of you too!

Don't be so serious.

Nothing is different, but everything is! And if somethings wrong, we'll make it right! Okay?

Okay!

Tell us how you feel! Tell us what you think! Tell us if you're afraid and we'll make it all go away!

Everything is fine. JUST FINE.



Woo hoo. Yeah. Sweet patatos and fried rice.

I'm so fucking glad.

You don't need a car or a credit card to play like a child in the back yard. That's not my line. But it's cool too.


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Re: the matrix [Re: remake]
    #23477539 - 07/26/16 02:44 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

Okay yes, this will be the last one!

We really never do anything for the validation or admiration. And my poetry is shitty.

But I don't care. I can do what I want.

Bye bye!

(It probably won't be the last one.)

(I'm going to annoy all of you until you love me.)

I think I do need your validation and admiration. Yes yes. Oh, I'm hopeless.

Making my own purpose. Nothing needs a fixing. But I'm fixed on shifting into the next dimension.


Edited by remake (07/26/16 02:57 AM)


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Re: the matrix [Re: remake]
    #23477610 - 07/26/16 03:47 AM (7 years, 6 months ago)

Wow interesting thread!


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Re: the matrix [Re: remake] * 1
    #23480643 - 07/26/16 11:00 PM (7 years, 6 months ago)

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FranniePilgrim said:

I lost my mind and found my soul.





I especially like that one!

I like to say, we can operate from our head or from our heart.

I remind myself to not take things so seriously, but damn, it's a challenge.

Lighten up . . . Lighten up . . . Lighten up

I tell myself


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Re: the matrix [Re: RJ Tubs 202]
    #23511444 - 08/05/16 12:34 AM (7 years, 5 months ago)

As I look now at the shit I wrote I came to the conclusion that I am an actual idiot. I think my ego has died. It seems like a movie upon reflection. Pretty cool. I can barely find a reason to chase any feeling, and it's truly quite tranquil. My head is pretty clear. I know what I want to do for now, more or less at least. Strange how quickly my life and goals change. I feel pretty stable now. Wish I could say I wrote all the previous posts without intent of some kind of recognition, but I didn't. Think I'll just go back to being nobody special. It's nice and safe there. Don't know what the fuck I was saying half of the time.

I'm going to start listening more, and reasoning by myself less. I sliced down my experience to the point of my brain becoming pretty fried. I don't give a fuck to figure it out anymore. Don't think this philosophising shit is for me.

Or

Maybe I'm just going to be a hypocrite and come back all flamboyant and shit again when something unexpected happens. Emotions are crazy. Peace and quiet for now.

I think I might be slightly schizophrenic.

Who there!?


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Re: the matrix [Re: remake]
    #23511484 - 08/05/16 01:09 AM (7 years, 5 months ago)

Head in the clouds, feet on the ground.


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Re: the matrix [Re: Rahz] * 1
    #23511628 - 08/05/16 03:48 AM (7 years, 5 months ago)

Yeah man. It's really strange. This year I met a new circle of friends. And a lot of opportunities started opening up concerning certain type of pleasures and activities I have yet to indulge in.

I have always been a loner. On the outside of things.

I met these people and at first expressed my friendly nature. I got a bit too emotionally involved and started feeling bad for not being able to maintain my initial implemented personality in front of them. Started punishing myself, doing favours for them and stuff. Got to a point where I wasn't able to say no.

It really got to my head because they are good people. My perception was twisted in such a way I thought they were the ones trying to control me. But I'm starting to realise too that they probably didn't care for me maintaining that personality in the first place. That they already accepted me as I was, as I wanted them to accept me and as I believed myself to accept them. Monotone or extravagant or distant. Available but not needy.

I realise now too that the stress and worry was in fact all in my head. Explaining myself to them sometimes has done more harm than good.

So yeah, I'm just going to be real from now on. Keep my opinions about unfolding situations to myself. And stop saying sorry. All in good heart and intention. Just gets a bit tense if people come up to you and say shit like:

"WHY AREN'T YOU SMILING, MAN!?"

"WHAT'S WRONG? YOU LOOK SAD!?"

"YOU LOOK DEPRESSED!"

etc. etc.

Shit like that freaks me the fuck out. Even worse!

"WHY ARE YOU SMILING!?"

"I just want to chill and do my things man! Ain't got nothing to do with you!"

I don't like forcing and explaining and maintaining my expressions.


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    #23512844 - 08/05/16 01:29 PM (7 years, 5 months ago)

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FranniePilgrim said:
We are standing still in space. You are a human. You literally have nothing to do right now. Perhaps some task scheduled at the tick of a movement.

Don't push and pull yourself.




We most certainly are not standing still in space. We're standing on a planet rotating on it's axis at roughly 1670 kilometers per hour, as well as orbiting the sun at 110,000 kilometers per hour, as well as (based on data from the cosmic background explorer satellite in 1990) our entire galaxy and all nearby galaxies (called the local group) are moving at 600 kilometers per second (2.156500 million kilometers per hour) in the direction of the constellation Hydra.

Standing still in space, my fuzzy white peaches.


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Re: the matrix [Re: remake]
    #23514740 - 08/05/16 11:37 PM (7 years, 5 months ago)

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FranniePilgrim said:

As I look now at the shit I wrote I came to the conclusion that I am an actual idiot.




I suggest you come to the conclusion that you're human.

That's the only reasonable conclusion.

Anything negative is self-hatred.


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    #23534074 - 08/12/16 09:28 AM (7 years, 5 months ago)

Infinity exists in imagination in order to manifest itself through your hands to the satisfaction of your eyes. Everything you - do - is unique. What - you do is up to you and no one else. Creativity is our endless pool. Slow down. Relax. Let that line follow your dreams. There's no right or wrong concerning your talents. Those talents dont need to be manifested in any particular place or space in order to be "legit". "God is in the detail".

also, you're never too old or young to start or learn. It's a fucking blank canvas! And you're a blank slate. Nothing is ever done, nothing has ever begun!

And you will never recieve a "pat on the back" that lasts. I get this! I'm just feeling nice at the moment.

Have a nice day!


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