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remake


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I think I get what you're saying.
It was between
"I control my actions, emotions and thoughts"
and
"I'm aware of my actions, emotions and thoughts"
It seems as if my body sometimes does stuff on it's own. But at least to some extent I am able to slow it down.
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the matrix [Re: remake] 1
#23464717 - 07/22/16 01:21 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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anything you practice you can get good at, and if you are good at it then you will seem to be in control. however, your reactions in situations are not exactly in control, they are your concertive trained response to the situation (same principle = training = practice or repetition)
this means that your control is always somewhat compromised, or at least not as much in the moment as you may believe...
what appears to be you in control is your responses which are how you last left them... and this is where control actually comes into play, how you leave yourself.
consider: you observe your self in action, and determine if things need adjustment, then you practice the adjustments by planning and dedicating time, working out the method of combining the stimuli with responses (it can be less conceptual - eg to learn skateboarding you arrange to go to the park and fool around, that can work)
whatever you practice becomes absorbed into your control matrix.
[this is your total control opportunity - practice]
everything else is automatic, or based upon reflex, knee jerk responses etc.
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My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground on which I stand.
Thich Nhat Hanh
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remake


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Alright Alright Alright! Everything is alright! Cause you are you and I am me. And it's not so fucking scary as it seems to be! We're here people of the earth. Just people. And we just want to be treated with sincerity! And we want to play.
You are all incredibly special and talented and UNIQUE. So colourful.
We just need to know we all want the same thing. A best friend. Someone to love.
Joke around don't joke with.
No one is dangerous. You are you. And don't have to be afraid!
Good Day Friends!
I lost my mind and found my soul.
We are all going home! Where we can play forever. It's not a competition. It's a show!
Also, fuck all of you too!
Don't be so serious.
Nothing is different, but everything is! And if somethings wrong, we'll make it right! Okay?
Okay!
Tell us how you feel! Tell us what you think! Tell us if you're afraid and we'll make it all go away!
Everything is fine. JUST FINE.
Woo hoo. Yeah. Sweet patatos and fried rice.
I'm so fucking glad.
You don't need a car or a credit card to play like a child in the back yard. That's not my line. But it's cool too.
Edited by remake (07/26/16 01:25 AM)
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remake


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Re: the matrix [Re: remake]
#23477539 - 07/26/16 02:44 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Okay yes, this will be the last one!
We really never do anything for the validation or admiration. And my poetry is shitty.
But I don't care. I can do what I want.
Bye bye!
(It probably won't be the last one.)
(I'm going to annoy all of you until you love me.)
I think I do need your validation and admiration. Yes yes. Oh, I'm hopeless.
Making my own purpose. Nothing needs a fixing. But I'm fixed on shifting into the next dimension.
Edited by remake (07/26/16 02:57 AM)
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Re: the matrix [Re: remake]
#23477610 - 07/26/16 03:47 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Wow interesting thread!
-------------------- Hostile humankind Can't you see you're fucking blind?
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RJ Tubs 202


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Re: the matrix [Re: remake] 1
#23480643 - 07/26/16 11:00 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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FranniePilgrim said:
I lost my mind and found my soul.
I especially like that one!
I like to say, we can operate from our head or from our heart.
I remind myself to not take things so seriously, but damn, it's a challenge.
Lighten up . . . Lighten up . . . Lighten up
I tell myself
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remake


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As I look now at the shit I wrote I came to the conclusion that I am an actual idiot. I think my ego has died. It seems like a movie upon reflection. Pretty cool. I can barely find a reason to chase any feeling, and it's truly quite tranquil. My head is pretty clear. I know what I want to do for now, more or less at least. Strange how quickly my life and goals change. I feel pretty stable now. Wish I could say I wrote all the previous posts without intent of some kind of recognition, but I didn't. Think I'll just go back to being nobody special. It's nice and safe there. Don't know what the fuck I was saying half of the time.
I'm going to start listening more, and reasoning by myself less. I sliced down my experience to the point of my brain becoming pretty fried. I don't give a fuck to figure it out anymore. Don't think this philosophising shit is for me.
Or
Maybe I'm just going to be a hypocrite and come back all flamboyant and shit again when something unexpected happens. Emotions are crazy. Peace and quiet for now.
I think I might be slightly schizophrenic.
Who there!?
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Rahz
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Re: the matrix [Re: remake]
#23511484 - 08/05/16 01:09 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Head in the clouds, feet on the ground.
-------------------- rahz comfort pleasure power love truth awareness peace "You’re not looking close enough if you can only see yourself in people who look like you." —Ayishat Akanbi
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remake


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Re: the matrix [Re: Rahz] 1
#23511628 - 08/05/16 03:48 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah man. It's really strange. This year I met a new circle of friends. And a lot of opportunities started opening up concerning certain type of pleasures and activities I have yet to indulge in.
I have always been a loner. On the outside of things.
I met these people and at first expressed my friendly nature. I got a bit too emotionally involved and started feeling bad for not being able to maintain my initial implemented personality in front of them. Started punishing myself, doing favours for them and stuff. Got to a point where I wasn't able to say no.
It really got to my head because they are good people. My perception was twisted in such a way I thought they were the ones trying to control me. But I'm starting to realise too that they probably didn't care for me maintaining that personality in the first place. That they already accepted me as I was, as I wanted them to accept me and as I believed myself to accept them. Monotone or extravagant or distant. Available but not needy.
I realise now too that the stress and worry was in fact all in my head. Explaining myself to them sometimes has done more harm than good.
So yeah, I'm just going to be real from now on. Keep my opinions about unfolding situations to myself. And stop saying sorry. All in good heart and intention. Just gets a bit tense if people come up to you and say shit like:
"WHY AREN'T YOU SMILING, MAN!?"
"WHAT'S WRONG? YOU LOOK SAD!?"
"YOU LOOK DEPRESSED!"
etc. etc.
Shit like that freaks me the fuck out. Even worse!
"WHY ARE YOU SMILING!?"
"I just want to chill and do my things man! Ain't got nothing to do with you!"
I don't like forcing and explaining and maintaining my expressions.
Edited by remake (08/05/16 04:13 AM)
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Into The Woods
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Re: Unplug. [Re: remake] 1
#23512844 - 08/05/16 01:29 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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FranniePilgrim said: We are standing still in space. You are a human. You literally have nothing to do right now. Perhaps some task scheduled at the tick of a movement.
Don't push and pull yourself.
We most certainly are not standing still in space. We're standing on a planet rotating on it's axis at roughly 1670 kilometers per hour, as well as orbiting the sun at 110,000 kilometers per hour, as well as (based on data from the cosmic background explorer satellite in 1990) our entire galaxy and all nearby galaxies (called the local group) are moving at 600 kilometers per second (2.156500 million kilometers per hour) in the direction of the constellation Hydra.
Standing still in space, my fuzzy white peaches.
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Re: the matrix [Re: remake]
#23514740 - 08/05/16 11:37 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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FranniePilgrim said:
As I look now at the shit I wrote I came to the conclusion that I am an actual idiot.
I suggest you come to the conclusion that you're human.
That's the only reasonable conclusion.
Anything negative is self-hatred.
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remake


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Infinity exists in imagination in order to manifest itself through your hands to the satisfaction of your eyes. Everything you - do - is unique. What - you do is up to you and no one else. Creativity is our endless pool. Slow down. Relax. Let that line follow your dreams. There's no right or wrong concerning your talents. Those talents dont need to be manifested in any particular place or space in order to be "legit". "God is in the detail".
also, you're never too old or young to start or learn. It's a fucking blank canvas! And you're a blank slate. Nothing is ever done, nothing has ever begun!
And you will never recieve a "pat on the back" that lasts. I get this! I'm just feeling nice at the moment.
Have a nice day!
Edited by remake (08/12/16 09:54 AM)
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