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ethereal_euphoria
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Don't really know where else to turn...
#23391723 - 06/28/16 05:31 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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My substance abuse has finally gotten out of hand. It started with liquor when I was 15 or 16. I really liked drinking and it was cheaper than buying weed. If I didn't want to smoke everything I had, I could shell out a few bucks to my mom and get a bottle to split with friends. I didn't realize it at the time, but killing bottles 5 out of 7 days a week was not normal for anyone, anytime. I just had fun. I did very well in school, remained actively involved, held a job, and was active in my church against my will. If I could do all that, it didn't seem like a big deal to me. Then I got older, found out shrooms and acid were readily available around me and I just didn't know it. Made friends, started getting it regularly from a friend that hung out with my circle a lot. Tripped excessively. Almost every day for a couple of months and then I backed off when I was about to go to college. Picked up drinking even more. Started talking to my boyfriend who I was crazy about. Funny thing was, he was a lot like me: driven, successful in whatever he put his mind to, loved electronic music and listened to Bassnectar with me for hours, and he loved getting fucked up as much as me. THe real kicker? He sold everything I loved so much. I thought that was a bad thing at first, but he made me feel like it was only as bad as we made it out to be. We went to different colleges and still stayed together. I started doing molly all the time because I had a lot of friends with connects and it was stupid easy. Still drinking crazy heavily, still tripping multiple times a week at this point. Completely sucked ass at college. Only thing I was involved in was the NORML club where I made more drug friends. Ended the first year with a GPA so low it could touch the floor if it wanted to. Transferred to boyfriend's school. MOved in with him. He goes to jail for getting busted with wax and weed. Start drinking even more.
And then it continues for the entire year we lived together. We started getting crazy angry at one another. I blacked out all the time. We started fighting, verbally and physically. I made a lot of mistakes. Lost all of my friends. He dumped me for not getting my shit together. I live alone now, and I discovered there is some quality coke being sold in my apartment complex. I don't even need to drink anymore. I just do coke and trip when I don't have it. I don't know what to do. I lost my job, I have no idea if I'm going to be able to pay my rent, but I have more lucy as a fallback to get what I can before the end of the week.
How do I stop this cycle? I can't believe I lost him. I can't believe I lost so many friends. I can, but it doesn't seem real. I don't know how to fix it and I'm scared.
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ModestMouse
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The bassnectar is the root of your issues. When you start to listen to good music your life will take a sudden upswing.

On the real, you should see a psychologist. You appear to be an alcoholic, which is a manageable illness when you're aware of that fact.
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Niffla



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Re: Don't really know where else to turn... [Re: ModestMouse] 2
#23391747 - 06/28/16 05:40 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
ModestMouse said: The bassnectar is the root of your issues.

I just about died
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Re: Don't really know where else to turn... [Re: ModestMouse]
#23391755 - 06/28/16 05:42 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Lmao jesus christ, ModestMouse. That is funny tho and i like some of bassnectars shit.
OP, start with small steps at first to get your life back on track. I know it seems impossible and like this huge big deal right now.
But just start with small, simple steps that will improve your life, and do something productive every day no matter how hard it is. That's how i was able to pull myself out of my depressive slump i was in for 3 years. Now I'm abt to start a badass job and making real money. You can do it OP, i believe in you  Feel free to msg me if you wanna talk, sometimes it helps to talk to another woman.
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Niffla



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Re: Don't really know where else to turn... [Re: Niffla] 1
#23391763 - 06/28/16 05:43 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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But yeah, OP, the one common theme in this is the alcohol. Not only that but that your intake has continually increased over time.
Your starting point is curbing the alcohol situation. Or even better eliminating it altogether. Which is easier said than done obviously. I've been there, believe me. I spent like 7 years where I literally drank nearly every single day.
I couldn't quite eliminate it entirely but I did minimize it. Now I only drink 3 or 4 times a month.
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Stopping drinking booze.
Find AA or something.
U dont wanna end up living in a cardboard box, cause thats the next step of an alcoholic...
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Re: Don't really know where else to turn... [Re: LogicaL Chaos]
#23392352 - 06/28/16 09:29 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Strange, I always thought mushroom tolerance increased dramatically with consecutive dose's. Doin it daily sounds impossible.
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yogabunny
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We have some substance abuse support threads in our Physical & Mental Well-Being Forum, if you're interested in the support of others:
cannabis: https://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/23258801
opiates: https://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/23267340
alcohol: https://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/22559523
OP, you're doing great already because you realize your consumption is style is addictive and destructive. I was a "high functioning" alcoholic for a really long time too. Sober almost 6 months now. If I can, anyone can!
You got this.
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Re: Don't really know where else to turn... [Re: Bodhi of Ankou]
#23392384 - 06/28/16 09:39 PM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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Stop drinking and doing drugs until you are stable. Then if you feel like you can handle moderation then try that. Or just stay away if its doing more harm than good.
Doing coke is lame. Just find a way to cope with your problems that doesn't involve getting trashed, and get off the internet and go find a job. Do yard work if you have to.
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Re: Don't really know where else to turn... [Re: Lophosaurus]
#23393192 - 06/29/16 06:44 AM (7 years, 6 months ago) |
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You can listen to as many people as you want but at the end of the day it is all up to you.
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