Hey guys I am new to this forum and just want some insight into some of the things that I am currently feeling after a trip on shrooms.
It's been 2 weeks since I had a bad trip on shrooms. It was the end of the school year, and me and some close friends decided to trip while camping in Big Sur. In retrospect, I was in a pretty good mindset prior to the trip: I was glad to be finished my sophomore year of college, and I felt that I was calm and collected coming into the trip. That being said, me and my buddies took about 2 grams of shrooms each (which ,for me . After the first 45 minutes I was a bit nauseous and had a little bit of anxiety (normal for me on the come up with shrooms); aside from that, I was pretty euphoric, giggly, and enjoying the trip. I also began having slight visual distortions.
Another 25 minutes in, things started to go downhill. If I had one bad thought, it spiraled into a never-ending vortex of thought provoking questions on life and religion. You could say that I was having some sort of an existential crisis. It's not that I don't like to think about these things, but in the moment these issues felt very real and tangible; and it was giving me some of the worst anxiety that I have ever experienced. For the remainder of the trip, which lasted about 3-4 more hours I was stuck in this loop, and just wanted the trip to end.
The day after the trip, I just felt...off. It's hard to explain, but I really did not feel like myself. I have always been an introspective person, but any bad or negative thought about my life or the world around me took a toll on me mentally, and I just felt anxious, as if I were on shrooms again (not just as intense). At the moment it was frightening, because I had only felt this way while high on weed or using shrooms, never when I was sober.
Throughout the next 2 weeks, until the current day, my days have been pretty up and down. Some days are filled with optimism and hope for the future, while other days are riddled with anxiety and paranoia.
I guess my question is when will the anxiety end?
Update to the thread-- Hey guys, just wanted to put an update on this thread. It's been a week since I first posted this, but my anxiety has not gotten better, on top of that, i can't help but feel depressed and uninterested in doing things that I normally like to do, i.e. Workout, produce music, etc.. I really just want it all to end....I feel disconnected from reality and from my emotions
Edited by sumyunguy (06/29/16 10:14 PM)
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Soon. Just give it time. You've been shaken up a bit is all.
If you can, meditate, exercise, and eat a good diet if you want to speed up recovery.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Welcome man. I've had a few bad trips. Months and years from now you'll probably be grateful for it.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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