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Connoisseur

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Re: I hate my life [Re: T-Rex] 1
#23357124 - 06/18/16 07:54 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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No denying that man
I think maybe its time I just shut up
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OhMrJohnson
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Jokeshopbeard
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Connoisseur said: I tried so hard to make a life for myself I wanted and I lost it all
Read some of the threads I've in posted lately man; I tell you one thing, you're not alone.
I lost my dream too
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Sometimes I feel worthless too, and a bunch of other shitty emotions.
And you haven't ruined everything . . . yet.
Don't beat yourself up cause of a slip-up(or 3). There's probably more members here who quit heroin (or other drug of choice) than are struggling with it now. It can be done. I quit when I was 25, didn't quit drinking until 55.
Anytime I think about a drink, I try and remember one of my worst "bottoms"(I've had a few), and that silly thought that I could handle a taste without doing that whole crash & burn thang quickly disappears.
Remember too, dope these days has a fair chance of being cut with Fentanyl, one hot shot and somebody might be finding your cold body.
Maybe throw away smash/burn all your shooting rigs and delete your dealers # from your phone, too.
You got our support here brother, if you let us. Try and put this shit behind you... . . .
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Connoisseur said: Im not trying to get off H
also the H talking.
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Connoisseur

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Re: I hate my life [Re: vinsue]
#23357140 - 06/18/16 08:00 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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Smack is the only thing that keeps me going because then I dont have to feel the pain anymore
I dont have to feel the truth of what my life is
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Re: I hate my life [Re: 1234go]
#23357143 - 06/18/16 08:01 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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I wouldn't even fuck with H now. Like Vinsue said, a lot of H is cut with Fentanyl now. I've lost 4 friends from Fentanyl Overdoses in the last 6 months. It most certainly is Russian Roulette now. You won't have to worry about the Emotional Roller coast of Life anymore when your wearing a toe tag. Be Very Careful, NY is a deadly drug den for Dope heads right now.
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OhMrJohnson
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The smack doesn't keep you going man, it does the complete opposite
But I think you already know that so i'm done trying to help someone who apparently doesn't want help
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Re: I hate my life [Re: Moonshoe]
#23357149 - 06/18/16 08:03 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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Saying "I hate myself" means there is a part of you that is better than where you are right now. Your current situation is not who you actually are, it's a process you're going through, So you don't need to hate yourself - hate your situation and do whatever you can to improve it. If you want to stop feeling worthless then try to do something useful.
And you probably already know this, but the more heroin you use the less likely you will be able to enjoy anything else. It's making things worse, Sort it out.
You're not alone. , from a fellow worthless pos
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Re: I hate my life [Re: Moonshoe] 3
#23357150 - 06/18/16 08:04 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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I'm not gonna get drug into a long debate over it but you're comparing things that don't really compare. Short of some kind of physical abnormality, dieting and exercise will definitely help one lose weight. SAMe is a nutritional supplement in the same vein of things like Melatonin which will have as many people claiming it works as those who claim it doesn't. It's probably most effective as a placebo and for that to work, you first need to believe it will. Mental states have a snowballing effect. It's just as likely that the positive mood is feeding into the continuous loop as it is that the SAMe is "building over time". Just because someone's mental state is steadily improving while taking it for months doesn't mean it's the SAMe that is doing it.
IMO It's detrimental to a person's mental health to go around telling them to take this pill or that pill because chances are they don't work and then the snowballing effect is heading in the other direction, with them thinking nothing is ever going to get better because this magic pill that everyone told them to take didn't work it must mean you're a hopeless cause. If you want to help Conn, find a way to get him to view his life in a more positive light without popping a pill. Why do I even bring this up? Because you accused him of not wanting to get better simply because he's not running out to buy a bottle of SAMe. I wouldn't either. I was stuck in that negative feedback loop myself not too long ago. I got out of it by making changes in my life, not by taking a pill.
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Connoisseur said: Smack is the only thing that keeps me going because then I dont have to feel the pain anymore
I dont have to feel the truth of what my life is
You got 2 routes here bud.
Route A) Pull the curtains for good on the H and forge a new path in life w/out it
Route B) Keep the H in your life and repeatedly visit the rock bottom suite in hotel hell for the rest of your life
it's pretty black & white IMO
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Re: I hate my life [Re: plasma]
#23357223 - 06/18/16 08:43 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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plasma said: Yo OP. Get that needle out of your arm and put Jesus in your life
Or take LSD instead.
I knew that opium tea was a bad idea 
Get well soon OP
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Re: I hate my life [Re: Niffla]
#23357233 - 06/18/16 08:47 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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Life is a bitch sometimes. It's gonna hurt sometimes. If you can't learn to deal eith the those times/ feelings....if you can't live life on life's terms , you're fucked. Period. Life is always gonna suck, and end shitty. If you do learn to live life on life's terms, learn to accept the ups & downs....then life won't always suck. You'll find peace, you'll find happiness & you'll find success. It's hard, but can be done. I did it. Countless others have done it. Conn can as well. That's all dependent on whether or not he chooses route a & route b.
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My life pretty much sucks ass right now too, but if you aren't willing to make any changes then nobody wants to hear your bitching. I'd take T-Rex's deal if I were you.
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Malcolm_Xtasy said: if you aren't willing to make any changes then nobody wants to hear your bitching.
Amen brother.
It fucks me off how much effort it takes to rebuild after everytime life does a number on you and leaves you with your shattered dreams in a broken and bloodied heap, but fuck me, if you're not gonna keep fighting what are you gonna do with your time here??
Wallowing in self pity has it's place but only a fool stays there for long.
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hex_enduction
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There's good advice in this thread, conn. I know it's hard to acknowledge in a state of mind where everything seems worthless but there ARE steps you could take to improve your life and make yourself a better person. I hope you revisit some of what's been said in this thread when you're in a bit more of a stable state of mind.
The way you feel won't last forever. It's a temporary state like all states. Its entirely possible for you to break out of this mess, but you need to start with being honest with yourself.
Hang in there and remember that no matter how it feels, you're here on earth for a reason and you're still worth something to many people.
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OP get off the H, keep your pecker hard and your powder dry. The world will turn.
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Plain
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Stay strong man! You can kick this life style that has brought you nothing but sorrows.
I believe in you and just know there are prople out there who care about ya
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Connoisseur

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Re: I hate my life [Re: Plain]
#23357500 - 06/18/16 10:16 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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I just wish I could go back and do it all over again.....
If I could I would make myself out to be something more than just a worthless piece of shit
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Plain
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You can still turn things around stop looking back and look forward its easier to figure out where youre going that way.
Good luck man for real just dont give up
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