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OhMrJohnson
Ashes Against The Grain

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Connoisseur said: Im not trying to get off H
Therein lies your biggest problem
Nothing's gonna change for you unless you're willing to change your ways
I've seen sooo many people die or get all fucked up because of opiates man I don't want that to end up being you
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T-Rex




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Re: I hate my life [Re: SunnyD]
#23357002 - 06/18/16 06:59 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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Wait this threads over a piece of pussy? Wow. I hope not
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Connoisseur

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Re: I hate my life [Re: T-Rex]
#23357006 - 06/18/16 07:01 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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No its not, it may seem that way but its really not
Thats just one of a myriad of factors
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Connoisseur

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I dont want to live anymore at all
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Connoisseur

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Im not gonna kill myself and leave the burden on others of my death but I dont want to live anymore at all
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SunnyD
WiZarD oF LoVe



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I love you man , keep your head up  I've gave you my thoughts,
Find things to occupy your time that isn't drugs,
I just want you to know it's possible to change your mindset on life
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Connoisseur

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Re: I hate my life [Re: SunnyD]
#23357029 - 06/18/16 07:12 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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I cant believe I ruined everything.
I hate myself and I wish I wasnt alive.
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Connoisseur

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I feel worthless and stupid and like a piece of shit
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SunnyD
WiZarD oF LoVe



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We all have our regrets and shameful memories I'm trying
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        And to everyone who thinks life is just a game, Do you like the part you are playing? This is the time in life I am living! And I face each day with a smile My music Library of Synthesizer goodness
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Jokeshopbeard
Humble Student

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Connoisseur said: I feel worthless and stupid and like a piece of shit
The only people who don't know this feeling aren't even true humans. I wouldn't dedicate a cent of my time to a human that didn't know that feeling well:
To those human beings who are of any concern to me I wish suffering, desolation, sickness, ill-treatment, indignities - I wish that they should not remain unfamiliar with profound self-contempt, the torture of self-mistrust, the wretchedness of the vanquished: I have no pity for them, because I wish them the only thing that can prove today whether one is worth anything or not - that one endures. --Nietzsche
It's not exactly the happiest thought in the world, but I know he's right.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Connoisseur

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Re: I hate my life [Re: SunnyD]
#23357057 - 06/18/16 07:24 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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Im a worthless piece of shit failure who has nothing to offer anyone and who doesnt deserve to be alive
Im not worth a single god damn thing and I know it
I hate what ive become and what I am period
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Moonshoe
Blue Mantis


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You keep making posts like this, I keep telling you to try SAMe, you ignore me, rinse Repeat.
If you really wanted to feel better you could try.
You must enjoy your misery.
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SunnyD
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Re: I hate my life [Re: Moonshoe] 1
#23357075 - 06/18/16 07:32 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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I dont think your a bad guy at all
I like you a lot 
And I can say that about my self years ago, I used to be so unhappy every single day I know what it is like, maybe not the exact same scenario
But I know regret, shame confusion and overall being very unhappy most of my childhood And my drug addictions after that
I'll try to help and relate and too support you as much as I can, but you must also take your own steps and I truly believe you can do itQuote:
Moonshoe said: You keep making posts like this, I keep telling you to try SAMe, you ignore me, rinse Repeat.
If you really wanted to feel better you could try.
You must enjoy your misery.
And shut up
That last line was just uncalled for with self righteousness
SAMe ain't gonna fix all his problems, you don't know it all
I like you man, but sometimes you come off as a know it all And we're not gonna get into it.
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Edited by SunnyD (06/18/16 07:36 AM)
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Connoisseur

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Re: I hate my life [Re: Moonshoe]
#23357078 - 06/18/16 07:34 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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I have some SAMe
I just havent tried it yet because I pulled out of my depression for a while and didnt feel the need to take it
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1234go
Ban Lotto Champion


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Connoisseur said: I dont want to live anymore at all
That's the H talking.
Whether you like it or not, you need to leave it behind.
Or, be that guy in the pub that makes a thread like this once a month or so.
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Connoisseur

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Re: I hate my life [Re: 1234go]
#23357103 - 06/18/16 07:43 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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Im sick of being that guy
Im sick of being someone I hate
I tried so hard to make a life for myself I wanted and I lost it all
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Moonshoe
Blue Mantis


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Re: I hate my life [Re: SunnyD]
#23357104 - 06/18/16 07:44 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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You may have taken it that way but you are wrong
Conn keeps making these same miserable threads over and over about his depression. I Keep recommending something that will almost definitely help and probably radically so.
Several other members who have been through the exact same thing (suicidal depression) confirmed that it helped them enormously. Night and day.
I have also been through suicidal depression . SAMe helped me enormously.
The fact that conn keeps making threads about depression but is ignoring something he easily could do that will almost certainly help literally means he must not want to feel better . On some level he must be enjoying wallowing in his misery.
If he wanted to feel better there is absolutely nothing stopping him taking SAMe.
Obviously it won't cure everything in his life but it will take the edge off the suicidal depression that is ruining his quality of life. Once he starts feeling less horrible that will allow him to make other positive changes in his life.
Conn needs to admit that if he has a means to alleviate his depression but is choosing not to use it on some level he is choosing to remain depressed .
Recognizing that is a step towards getting out of the cycle of self pity that is keeping him stuck.
Literally four or five people in wca reported the exact same kind of Black depression and all reported remarkable improvements from SAMe.
Hex enduction for example was making exactly the same kinds of "I want to die" posts for a long time. He tried SAMe and now he is like a different person.
If conn wants to try something other then SAMe that's obviously fine but he hasn't been trying anything. He is depressed and the depression leads him to heroin. If SAMe can help the depression (and I am certain it can) it can also make it easier for him to stay off heroin.
If conn isn't willing to make that simple effort (literally the easiest possible thing - taking a pill he already has) to feel better he needs to ask himself why.
@conn: you will have ups and downs. Take the same daily . It continues to increase in effect for months and you shouldn't stop taking it just because you temporarily feel a bit better .
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Edited by Moonshoe (06/18/16 08:05 AM)
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Connoisseur

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Re: I hate my life [Re: Moonshoe]
#23357110 - 06/18/16 07:47 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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Moonshoe while your partially right your also partially wrong
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Moonshoe
Blue Mantis


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Imagine someone who constantly complains about mosquitos biting them and how itchy they are , who has a can of bug spray beside them but never uses it.
If someone complains about something repeatedly but refuses to even attempt something that multiple people have told them will almost surely help, it gets annoying .
If your not willing to attempt to remedy the situation you are just complaining for its own sake, like people who complain about how much they hate being fat but refuse to diet or exercise .
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T-Rex




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Connoisseur said: Im sick of being that guy
Im sick of being someone I hate
I tried so hard to make a life for myself I wanted and I lost it all
You didn't ruin your life. Your just putting all your emotions in this one basket. You'll move on. Your soaking in your pity. You need to learn better coping skills or any obstacle you reach in life your gonna be whining and carrying on about life sucks while sitting in the bathroom shooting up. Move on, man up. People out in the world have it worse then you.
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