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Connoisseur

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I hate my life
#23356921 - 06/18/16 06:25 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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I hate myself and dont know what to do about it, I wish I could go back and do it all over again......
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Jokeshopbeard
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I know that feeling.. I get it when I get stuck in my head. A good dose of meditation is the best cure I've found.
Good luck man.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Connoisseur

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I cant take it anymore, I was just up all night shooting heroin wishing I was dead
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daz01
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Keep your head up and stay positive. Life is all a learning experience. I don't have any regrets anymore, they all taught me very important stuff. Have you thought about opioid maintenance?
-------------------- Pain is temporary. It may last for a minute or an hour or a day or even a year but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it will last forever.
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fungusmuncher
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Re: I hate my life [Re: daz01]
#23356938 - 06/18/16 06:32 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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The wake doesn't drive the boat. You have a chance to start over right now, this very instant.
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OhMrJohnson
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Connoisseur said: I hate myself and dont know what to do about it, I wish I could go back and do it all over again......

I know sometimes life can feel hopeless at times but you just gotta try to make the best of what you've got and keep on truckin' even when it sucks
I've been a meth addict for years so I know how hard it is to just stay positive sometimes but trust me, more junk isn't gonna solve your problems, it's just gonna dig a deeper hole
Life can get better man but in the end it's up to you to take the steps necessary to pull yourself away from the negativity and create a new life for yourself
I wish I had some better advice to give but this is all I got for ya
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Diminish the sub-principle and leave its toxic trace.. Once and for all!
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T-Rex




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Connoisseur said: I cant take it anymore, I was just up all night shooting heroin wishing I was dead
Don't give up. Ride this shit out till the wheels fall off. Sometimes you're flush and sometimes you're bust, and when you're up, it's never as good as it seems, and when you're down, you never think you'll be up again, but life goes on.
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LunarEclipse
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fungusmuncher said: The wake doesn't drive the boat. You have a chance to start over right now, this very instant.
I blew it, took another hit instead.
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Jokeshopbeard
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Connoisseur said: wishing I was dead
I know that one well too. That lust for oblivion that one can find in the extremities of excessive drugs/alcohol/sleep. It's a bad spot brother, you know you got people here rootin for you to get through it no matter what.
Just don't give up tryna break that downward spiral. The upwards one is bliss when you get a few rungs up.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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Shroomopotamus
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take some lsd and be (:
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    This is a trap! A trap! You are all busted! Busted! You fools!
If a time comes where I fail to appear I've been abducted and I will miss you all Please smile and pet puppies as often as possible Be happy Be nice (<3);}
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plasma
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Yo OP. Get that needle out of your arm and put Jesus in your life
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SunnyD
WiZarD oF LoVe



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Quote:
OhMrJohnson said:
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Connoisseur said: I hate myself and dont know what to do about it, I wish I could go back and do it all over again......

I know sometimes life can feel hopeless at times but you just gotta try to make the best of what you've got and keep on truckin' even when it sucks
I've been a meth addict for years so I know how hard it is to just stay positive sometimes but trust me, more junk isn't gonna solve your problems, it's just gonna dig a deeper hole
Life can get better man but in the end it's up to you to take the steps necessary to pull yourself away from the negativity and create a new life for yourself
I wish I had some better advice to give but this is all I got for ya
This is good Heart filled advice
Some of your words tonight are extremely saddening.. But you can turn your life around
But it's up too you.. I believe you got what it takes, I really like you and wish you my love 
This IV H seems to be a root of this unhappy cycle I have seemed to notice
Just know in 2014 with my benzo addiction, I tooo was suicidal and recklesss in the midst of my addiction
You can change it all, Its up to you my friend
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        And to everyone who thinks life is just a game, Do you like the part you are playing? This is the time in life I am living! And I face each day with a smile My music Library of Synthesizer goodness
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Connoisseur

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Re: I hate my life [Re: SunnyD]
#23356964 - 06/18/16 06:46 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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I dont know how much longer I can go on like this.
I feel worthless.
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Connoisseur

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plasma
ɹoʇɐɹǝpoɯ

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"I would have butt sex with you" - some guy in pics of pubbers
There is still worth. It's all about perspective
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T-Rex




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Connoisseur said: I cant take it anymore, I was just up all night shooting heroin wishing I was dead
If you really need help. You are in NY right? I can set you up with a very good friend of mine. She runs a Foundation to help addicts in NY get help. All expenses paid for you just have to be willing to accept the help. Say the word and I'll make one phone call. She sent me to rehab and changed my life all thanks to her son/my friend who gave his life in order for his mother to set out on the journey of helping addicts free themselves of addiction. love you buddy, We all do. You got this
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T-Rex




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Re: I hate my life [Re: T-Rex]
#23356983 - 06/18/16 06:53 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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And if inpatient rehab is not feasible i do know a prominent NY Dr who has a very successful Taper plan with Buperenorphine. Death is not the answer. There is always a solution.
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Connoisseur

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Re: I hate my life [Re: T-Rex]
#23356984 - 06/18/16 06:54 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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Im not trying to get off H
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T-Rex




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Oh well then, the key to Longevity?
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SunnyD
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You can't depend on some one else for your happiness, it's a sad truth
Lovers come and go, happens to most. I understand it hurts real bad.
But you can stop the root of all your problems, and not fail any future drug tests, your playing with fire.
Your a really awesome guy and I just find this unhappiness a waste of your true happy potential 
Try to keep your spirit up brother Make the steps, cause your IV drug habit seems to be a one way street into a brick wall at 100mph
My best advice is just drop it now before you get into it bad again and stay the hell away, no exception s
Easier said than done of course, but it's possible.
You can be happy again if you fix the root of the problem

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        And to everyone who thinks life is just a game, Do you like the part you are playing? This is the time in life I am living! And I face each day with a smile My music Library of Synthesizer goodness
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