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MushroomBilly
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My life keeps repeating itself
#23343143 - 06/14/16 11:58 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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It's taken me a while to realise but my life keeps repeating itself in so many ways I could literally write a book here. For example, my first long term girlfriend when I was 15 was a small petit brunette called Sarah. Years later I spent 7 years with a girl called Sarah who looked exactly the same in every way and was born on the same date. Yet despite some attraction, I guess, I was never wildly driven for either. I left that second woman for another who looks exactly like the girlfriend I was with after the first Sarah for 4 years and sometimes it shocks me how similar they both are and how happily and sexually driven I am with them. They're so physically and psychologically similar it's unreal. Life is good with them.
Many years ago as a teenager I became an enthusiasts of a particular small engined car and this continued into my 20s. I bought a car and inherited a skip load of parts with it which led to many, many hours of tinkering and learning which had nothing whatsoever to do with my eventual career. Years later after selling it all many years previous, I became an enthusiast of another small engined car and went to buy one to renovate (after a long time out of it) only to find I was gifted another skip load of parts and similar tinkering time.
At school I was an Army cadet and rose through the ranks to get the highest rank only to feel a little intimidated at taking on a semi cadet/officer grade (which I refused). Years later I find myself at the highest uniform grade in my current organisation yet similarly put off by moving on.
Many, many times I read spiritual discussions I have clearly read before - often years before but nevertheless I have read them.
Mushrooms only ever tell me to feel grateful now (over and over in different ways - is the same message) and LSD teaches me that everything always comes back to zero or one.
And I ALWAYS, ALWAYS find myself asking the question: 'Is there a path? Or are we creating the path??'
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Jokeshopbeard
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I find the only time my life repeats experiences like that is when I have not yet learned the lesson they provide. Once I finally grasp it, I move on.
-------------------- Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing... there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you? Something can happen to the body, but it will either heal or it won't. What's the big deal? Let life knock you to bits. Let life take you apart. Let life destroy you. It will only destroy what you are not. --Jac O'keeffe
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pachoo
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Told you man. The circles.
OP - do you feel like you're on a path? Do you feel like you're on the correct one?
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MushroomBilly
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Re: My life keeps repeating itself [Re: pachoo]
#23345763 - 06/15/16 01:58 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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I think there is a path - i turned my whole life upside down a couple of years ago as I felt I was on the wrong path and things are much better as a result. But then I notice that to some extent my reality is being shaped by the way I look at things - that there are opportunities (other, possibly better paths) that I don't see due to my current frame of mind. Then on the other hand sometimes I feel like no amount of changing my focus / visualising etc would have changed things which have happened - there are some landmarks I just had to go through to be the person I am today...
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