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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: LittleDaddy]
    #23267164 - 05/24/16 06:47 PM (7 years, 8 months ago)

Thanks man. Have you noticed any changes in your sex drive in the absence of daily smoking? Mine has definitely increased. A nice side effect indeed!


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
    #23267594 - 05/24/16 08:35 PM (7 years, 8 months ago)

I'm being more proactive about meeting girls, so I suppose so! I definitely notice I'm more unwilling to change my circumstances when I'm smoking.


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: LittleDaddy]
    #23285300 - 05/29/16 04:13 PM (7 years, 7 months ago)

It gets way easier guys!

I quit in September. I had been smoking real heavily for about 9 years. When I first quit it was really hard. I was irritable, depressed, not eating or sleeping right. Now 8 months off of it I feel better than I ever have. I've been training in MMA a few times a week and it really helps to unwind and de-stress. Realizing how wrecked your lungs are is added motivation not to smoke as well. The best advice I can share is DON'T give away your stash. If you don't have any at home, the first time it's offered to you, you'll be far more likely to give in. If you know you have some you can tell yourself "I haven't smoked in X timeframe, why now?"

Good luck all, be strong. Nothing wrong with smoking marijuana but some of us (myself Included) are better off without!


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: jimmyBbuffet]
    #23285844 - 05/29/16 07:43 PM (7 years, 7 months ago)

Yep, it's definitely not for everyone. Good luck in your abstinence, guys. :heart:


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Le_Canard]
    #23286051 - 05/29/16 08:54 PM (7 years, 7 months ago)

Thanks guys, I slipped and smoked a bowl a couple nights ago, woke up with my phlegm dis colored again, but I'm still motivated to stay on track. I've turned it down a couple times, but I drank a bit, so I went with an impulse.


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: LittleDaddy]
    #23294601 - 06/01/16 01:13 AM (7 years, 7 months ago)

Been 9 days since this started. I smoked once within that timeframe two days ago. Feeling good, motivated about stopping still.
Motivation is way up, been playing more music, doing more school work, everything. Seems like overall I'm just gaining more control of my life - probably wouldn't relate most of that to stopping marijuana, but I'm feeling better without it, as always.


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: LittleDaddy] * 1
    #23311313 - 06/05/16 05:34 PM (7 years, 7 months ago)

Stopped since 2 months and a half ago. Had been smoking everyday for 8yrs.

It was kinda easy for me since I was in a mental crisis, starting to have depersonalization.By stopping I also realized I had panic disorder too at about 3 days off first panic attack, the starting of DP definitly had something to do with my panic attack tho.

It was easy not going back since now with no tolerance I know I'm gon be super stone and with panic disorder it could get shitty. So it's easy to say no when the doobie is at my turn with friends.

Good effects it had on me: social anxiety almost completly vanished, I connected back with my family, I'm more coherent, less lazy, I like my job more and get less mad in general, started cooking instead of ordering food,

Bad effects: light sleep even after 2 months, 2-3 first week were 3x worst tho, 3 dreams everynight minimum, I eat a lot more proly because I'm more stressed, feel more miserable playing video games alone, feel more depressed in general cause the life I build while high is kinda shitty.

I plan on smoking a bit when I harvest my CBD shark shock I'm growing, 90% indica 1:2 thc/cbd. But that gon be in a while. I miss my wake and bake gaming Sunday lol and the good sleep ,the rest no so much really


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Jean-guy Masta]
    #23312662 - 06/06/16 01:10 AM (7 years, 7 months ago)

I've maintained for about 20 days now, with only a single slip up. There's just one problem; I've been doing d-amp every day this week.

This was exactly what happened last time I quit, but the build up to such heavy use was a lot slower and it was coke, not amphetamine that became substitute.

I'm back at work later though, had the last week off which has allowed for this. Need to get this under control - I'm down several hours sleep a night and several meals a day for the last 7 days.

I know this cannot continue. Will revert back to weed temporarily if needs be. I'll update again soon.

Hope everyone else on this mission is doing better than me!


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
    #23312729 - 06/06/16 01:46 AM (7 years, 7 months ago)

Hey homie, sounds like you don't want to take d-amp; do you know what the motive is?


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: LittleDaddy]
    #23324684 - 06/09/16 04:55 AM (7 years, 7 months ago)

As of now I am trying to quit marijuana but I am doing a really bad job at it. I have been a marijuana user, in a country where it is illegal, for over 8years now. It's become a huge part of my life and I do believe I am addicted to it.

There are plenty of reasons why I want to quit and there are plenty of reasons why I can't seem to stop.

From my perspective I think I have an addicting personality and attach to something really quickly, it's a very easy numb inner pain, it's available everywhere, all of my friends smoke it and just generally gives me a false sense of security of not giving a fuck. This recent breakup was a pretty bad one. I wanted to deal with it in a sober state, more so to just get a better perspective on myself and work on becoming better but I can't seem to get over it and I end up smoking just to mask the sadness. Its become a huge financial burden on me a lot and has deprived me a lot of other fulfillment. I no longer practice archery, don't do shopping anymore, don't cook anymore, don't work on my projects anymore. I just wake up, smoke and deal with the shit that needs to be done but most of the time it's me sitting on my ass, lurking on these forums, playing hearthstone and watching episodes. I'm 25, and I feel like I can't get my shit together and I end up panicking, feeling depressed and sometimes I do think I'm better off dead cause this way of life is not what I had in mind. I don't know how I ended up here, especially when marijuana has also given me legal trouble and threaten my freedom.

I've become very lazy through it, my dreams have stopped where before they used to be so vivid, I feel very neutral towards everything, I no longer find joy in meeting up with friends for a coffee, going out and just having ''normal'' fun. Sometimes I feel so dirty about myself as well, like I'm some smack addict, I know it's further from the truth, but you get my point. I just keep going back to it.

I have tried to quit it multiple times. In the past, I had a lot more resistance to it, my mind was a lot more disciplined and when I said no, it meant no. I used to go weeks sometimes of not smoking it and I would be unphased by it. Nowadays I just feel like kidding myself all the time. I say stupid shit like ''I won't buy anymore'' ''This will be my last bag'' ''I need to stop smoking'' ....etc

Pros of quitting
-more financial stability
-more productive
-clearer mind
-memory improvement
-less legal trouble
-ability to deal with myself in a healthier way
-more independence
-admirable
-over all self improvement
-Gain back my happy chemicals

Cons of quitting
-I'll end up with no friends
-More vulnerability to BPD episodes/mood swings
-Emotionally/mentally draining during the process of quitting

Last summer I managed to quit but I relayed on my girlfriend at the time, booze, spice and work to make up for it. It was also forced by a court order cause I was being screened. I saw it as a positive thing and I really started enjoying myself as a non marijuana user. As soon as the screening ended though I immediately went to buy shit so I didn't learn anything at all :sad:

I don't know what I should do but I am glad I found this topic. Its nice to know I am not alone in this :shineon:


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Rosen_Rot]
    #23324913 - 06/09/16 07:34 AM (7 years, 7 months ago)

I feel your pain brother. I've hit that point of managing to somehow drop all of the other shit I used to do in my life too, partly because in removing weed I've switched to harder substances. I'm thinking about reverting to a disciplined 'one small joint a night just before bed' as it's the lowest possible intake I have managed to sustain in my 18 years of poly drug use. The underlying reason being this:

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-Emotionally/mentally draining during the process of quitting



When I've already got a fuck ton of emotionally/mentally draining shit going on in my life (I'm moving out of my house in 1.5 months and leaving the country to start a new life in the next 6 or so).

I need to get my other outlets back on track again (gym, hobbies, time with people, etc) and I figure dropping right back to minimal drug use in the meantime will be more conducive to doing so than ending up on harder shit.


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
    #23324950 - 06/09/16 07:48 AM (7 years, 7 months ago)

This track just popped up on my random out of the 100,000+ tunes in my library as I clicked to post that:



Feels like synchronicity. The path of dropping this shit is noble alright, it's just hard to do with the stressors of life going on around you.


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Rosen_Rot]
    #23325629 - 06/09/16 12:00 PM (7 years, 7 months ago)

Word, man, I would constantly tell myself I need to quit.. but all it took was the firm aspiration to actually do it - continuing to comment on this thread and not let the purpose of the thread down did it for me.

Maybe find something for you that will commit you to word.

The first days are going to be hard, but I bet you it looks up in about a week. And if you lose friends because you stop smoking it is my honest opinion that they aren't true friends. Maybe give yourself some time to become comfortable with saying no and quitting and then see if they're still cool with you while youre not smoking. Good friends aren't products of circumstances. If you live in a community maybe there are some group opportunities of interest you can get involved in? those will bring you around people with similar interests.

I think the big thing is just occupying your time and feeling good. Working out helps so much for setting the tone throughout the day. Little things like gardening, walks, reading, hiking, and music can help pacify those moments of boredom that spark interest in smoking.

It sounds like you've brought pot deep into your life but I'm confident you can gut it out. keep us updated. :smile:


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
    #23325637 - 06/09/16 12:03 PM (7 years, 7 months ago)

JSB,

I feel you and agree that smoking pot is better than other drug use. It's gotta be hard to stop 18 years of drug use.

Have you thought about transitioning all of the other drugs out of your life and then focusing on pot?


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
    #23327999 - 06/09/16 11:15 PM (7 years, 7 months ago)

Thing is I've said to myself that stupid shit as well ''oh yea just one joint a day after finishing my work'' Bullshit. I wake up, 2 cups of coffee and 3 joints later I've ended up missing school, already made the conscious decision that I am not doing anything and basically get ruined.

I don't like to substitute anything cause I want to quit something, not replace something. The problem is the personality, not the drug. If I switch to another drug, I'll get addicted to that instead cause then I can have the satisfaction of saying ''I don't smoke pot'' while loosing all point of quitting it.

The thing that's making this harder, is knowing that my gf of 5years left me and she's doing better than me. I know it is very petty, and I should be happy for her but at the same time it fucking hurts that I have to struggle, while everything looks like it's handed to her. I realize it's just my attitude, but it's still fresh and knowing she left like a breeze and 5 years meant nothing just digs deeper in the hurt, my mind plays games and overdrives my imagination and then I go look for it to subside the thoughts and pacify me. It sucks. I'm quiet the strong person, mentally and physically, but man I feel like I lost all powers.

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The first days are going to be hard, but I bet you it looks up in about a week. And if you lose friends because you stop smoking it is my honest opinion that they aren't true friends. Maybe give yourself some time to become comfortable with saying no and quitting and then see if they're still cool with you while youre not smoking. Good friends aren't products of circumstances. If you live in a community maybe there are some group opportunities of interest you can get involved in? those will bring you around people with similar interests.




It takes approx 3 days for me to recover and accept my life without it. This is what past abstinence has taught me. I won't lose friends cause of pot, at least not in the sense that they abandon me but rather I would have to abandon them. They are absolutely fine with me not smoking it, support my decision and sometimes even expressed that they need a break albeit they have better control then me. No, the reason I mentioned friends is to bring to your attention that I am surrounded by it, so it makes it harder to quit, cause it's so friggen available. I don't have much friends, about 3-4, and I do not wish to lose them for now cause they are helping me survive this break up.

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I think the big thing is just occupying your time and feeling good. Working out helps so much for setting the tone throughout the day. Little things like gardening, walks, reading, hiking, and music can help pacify those moments of boredom that spark interest in smoking.




I have been trying to hit the gym for a while now and I still have not applied. Its been like 4-5weeks of me saying ''this week I'll apply'' and I end up doing nothing about it. I saved up a 100euros for membership and I managed to keep it cause I really want to improve my body and get naturally hgh and feel good.

I actually have a couple of gardening jobs, with really good pay and I don't even take advantage of it. I just leave early cause I am so liberated on time just to go home, play hearthstone or league or dragonsaga and just drink coffee and smoke pot all day. Hell these friggen jobs are not even that huge, couple of hours once a week for each garden, I manage 3.

I have tried to pacify myself with other things but my mind just keeps saying ''this is better with weed'' Ugh. :sad:


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Rosen_Rot]
    #23328091 - 06/10/16 12:04 AM (7 years, 7 months ago)

Word homie, sounds deep...

I can definitely relate when you say you cannot even have one joint... that's why I made the choice to stop smoking completely. I am a compulsive smoker.

As far as "this is better with weed" - that goes away, I promise - your reward system is bent on it, but your brain's malleable and it will change - fortunately, it gets better every day.

Have you considered taking just a few days to get your bearings into quitting and then rejoining your friends?

Also, I have a job pretty liberal with how much I have to work and I would leave when I was smoking as soon as possible... now that I am not smoking, I am actually really motivated to excel in my work.

For the break up, I'm sorry for your loss, man. It's rough seeing someone that important walk out of your life. Time will pacify it... and will bring many revelations of what is truly right for you. And the more you abide by what you find to be truly right, the faster the healing will progress. It is a time for profound sorrow, but also great gain in personal growth, homie.


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: LittleDaddy]
    #23328182 - 06/10/16 12:42 AM (7 years, 7 months ago)

It is pretty damn rough especially when this was the first girl I ever loved and actually was deadly loyal to. But I fucked up and she walked and weed has been such a good pacifier for the pain. I try to keep my chin up, visualize someone better as I wasn't happy in the relationship and try to keep in mind that this is my opportunity to finally grow and become a better version of myself. Hence why I am trying to pressure myself to stop bloody smoking pot all the damn time.

Man, one joint is not enough for the morning alone, let alone the entire day. God damn man it's come to that point where I out smoke all of the hippies in my area. Went to Amsterdam, smoked everything underneath the sun, barely phased. I was smoking 10-15g a week spending shit tons of money on it for what.... to feel a 5min buzz until the craving comes running back.

I need to take a few days, lock myself away from life, focus on other shit and just get things done.

Yesterday I managed to do 3/4s of the day without weed and I didn't have a craving. It was nice.... and I got hopeful, until my friend asked if I want to chip in some smoke and ended up spending money I do not even have :facepalm3:

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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: LittleDaddy]
    #23329594 - 06/10/16 02:31 PM (7 years, 7 months ago)

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JSB,

I feel you and agree that smoking pot is better than other drug use. It's gotta be hard to stop 18 years of drug use.

Have you thought about transitioning all of the other drugs out of your life and then focusing on pot?



No, but I can't say I have any desire, or intention, to remove all other drugs from my life. At least, certainly not the natural psychedelics - Mescaline is the love of my life (drug wise) and shrooms are only just behind it. But TBH, I love psychedelics. I love the insight they bring, the connection and laughter, the ability to see things from a different perspective.

It's the ones that provide pure euphoria that have no place in my life; the stims & opiates (of which I know all of the common ones well) are the ones that have to go, specifically the former as they've always been my weak point. Last time I gave up weed, coke took over for two years. This time, d-amphetamine managed to get a hold on me for two weeks.

I smoked my first joint in three weeks last night. I agreed with my therapist (and myself) to just drop myself down to the lowest baseline I can handle for now - I spent a few years just smoking one joint a night before bed, and doing psychedelics only a few times a year. I was quite happy there, but weed makes me feel more 'dopey' these days than it did back then (actually, I think I just notice it more since learning myself more deeply through meditation), and effects memory more. Not that I smoke anything strong - just Thai Weed, which is a medium/low strength pure Sativa.

There's something deeper to all this though - I've always looked for ways to alter my state. My earliest memories are of jumping through the banisters on the stairs, higher and higher each time, looking for a rush. starting fires, getting into dirt bikes, sex, fights, drugs, fast cars, superbikes, etc, etc. It's the root cause for such behaviour I need to find, else I'll forever be resisting, rather than having understood and overcome.

So, for the time being, I'm gonna stick at baseline. Nothing before work, that leads to a foggy head. If I can spend 16/17 hours awake sober that'll do for now while I focus on getting to the the heart of why I need to alter my state. I nearly had it the other day, but there's a blockage of some sort. It'll click at some point. I suspect it's related to my very early years and my mother. I'll keep you guys posted.

Sending my heart out to you all, keep at it.


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Jokeshopbeard]
    #23334971 - 06/12/16 03:38 AM (7 years, 7 months ago)

Dear Shroomery Forumers ,
I would be very thankfull if you read .

So here's my story ,
I moved to another Country to start my apprenticeship as i was 17 .
I had there the chance to meet new people and start in a really good Hotellerie company. The first year of working i was really entuthiastic and hat a lot of fun working and met a bunch of new people who gave me a new. impression world as i before lived in another country ( Spain) .


I met there people with who i then started smoking ganja regularly, every day 1,2 g when we had time after work etc.
I also got in the Trance/psychedelic scene and went a lot to raves and partying.
After 1,5 years of working i have gotten more and more into shit and really started creating a new carachter of myself but i wasnt really aware of how drugs where changing myself. I was heading more into a spiritual path. I had before always been an extroverted boy and have  very good school friends .

There somehow drugs have led with all the other such as stressfull/monotone and unorganized life to a more and more tunnel vision if anyone gets that.
I have also tried then Shrooms(3)when i was ready and some MDMA(1) and some times Ecstasy(5)
The MDMA on that night of my birthday fucked me up mixed with high quality weed. The anxiety came out!

I had then come to a point where i couldnt control the mind anymore. I was going working , then smoking a bowl and trying to relax after a stressy day in the hotel.

I woken up once and since that day i saw everything in 3rd person.As if i was behind me controlling myself.I was basically  aware of everything on my surroundings. At that time i didnt do much Herb and neither other drugs.
  It did felt rare but i didnt panic and kept on with my daily life basis. After 3,4 months nearly in that state i had lost totally the North vision and opened my eyes for very first time looking how i had messed up myself physically and mentally due to depression followed by anxiety and psychosis finally.

I have now gotten an medical break about for 2 months from my doctor .
I am home now  with family and i have figured it all out but the consequences are devastating.
I didnt have my feet on the ground anymore i had been on such a long mental journey that i have basically lost my head . Its like i have consumes all of my past thoughts and good moments in life and i cant see it with the same eyes , i think  i had  an spiritual awakening.

I still can speak my 5 languages and live normal but i have lost my short-term memory/photographic memory and my head has dramatically shrinked , the hippocampus and the frontal cortex aswell.

Me perceiving life is now completely different but i asume in what i have been into and tryng to take a turn. I have my family , friends and my phsycologist who helps me. I am neither taking anti-psychotics and i wont take them.
Doing lot of sport and meditation and pumping nice Goa/Psytrance tunes .
I am now feeling better but i regret that i have harmed so much myself .

It is my first ever breakdown/depression and i am gaining time by time my autoestime again. I have misunderstood a lot about how Marihuana works and underevaluated it . I think i must be now abstinent for. along time from drugs.
I have learned from it , it also has teached me wich way i should lead really in life and how.
I am thankfull that for but its still very complicated to restart.
Do you think when im recovered when smoking again can lead to a same path???
Has anyone had such a nervous breakdown ?
Do you have any tips for a better recovery?
I am happy how i am now but i cant truly see life as i did before and it will take a long time !
I am going with my 2 eyes opened and with my guts loaded and much more prepared as i was before in terms of security.
I would be happy if someone answers.
Thanks guys peace out


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Re: Marijuana Abstinence Support Thread [Re: Trippedytrip]
    #23335899 - 06/12/16 10:38 AM (7 years, 7 months ago)

Classic depersonalisation story,

I had similar story to you, but I had it after 8 years of drug abuse, meth 2 years every weekend,Coke,binge drinking,ketamine,psychedelics,benzo and opiates pretty much all drugs. And weed everyday

But everyone has their limit, some people will have DP the first time they smoke weed.

I belive I got it from a overkill dose of shroom, 6g PE which was comparable to 15g of cubes ime. But it doesn't matter how it started really

the first thing you have to do is overcome the anxiety and panic which It seems you already have made great progress judging from what you're saying. Good thing you have went for a psychologist since the only solution for that is talk therapy. For many including me the fear of going skizo was the driving force. Once you overcome that ,Once you truly believe you are NOT psychotic, once you understand that this is perfectly normal human reaction to excessive anxiety. Then you will be able to go foward.

Then there is the DP remaining symptoms ,DP recovery is a long path, and it's not linear it goes up and down, up and down ,you will make 5 step foward then 4.7 step back. You just have to keep going no matter what.

Main tip for recovery is first of all good sleep hygiene,interact with people as much as you can, less TV and cellphone,more reality ,go back to work ,eat well,exercise well.put everything on your side to help you.

Also no drugs, especially stimulant. Benzo can help at times but taking some more then once per week is asking for trouble,

I plan on going back to smoking weed myself once I harvest my heavy CBD indica. I will start low and try to keep it occasional. Only you will be able to judge when you feel ready. Don't do it because you're bored or you're mad. Do it when you feel ready and start low and build yourself a tolerence. Its possible that it makes your DP come back a bit and leads you to the wrong path again but only you will be able to judge.

good luck ,people can only understand the anxiety and depression that comes with it, that's what makes it hard for people with DP they are not recognized. they don't know how DP is a truly horrible and crippling condition at times. DP is one special kind of hell but you're not alone buddy


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