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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Ruyguy]
#23493904 - 07/30/16 09:36 PM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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I was a heroin addict for years. It took me leaving my home Alaska and everything to clean up. I got into drinking though which is something I'm dealing with now. But I'm 3 years clean as of June 12th so about a month ago.
Rough stuff but I would trade alcohol wds for heroin any day. That was a cakewalk. Heroin isn't cheap, everywhere, and socially acceptable.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Connoisseur]
#23494263 - 07/31/16 12:35 AM (7 years, 5 months ago) |
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Far worse. Far fucking worse. It's a depressant. Far worse.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: sprinkles]
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sprinkles said: i wish you luck. I am sure i'll be there with you shortly. I really want to quit. I use both on a steady basis. Opiates daily. I am an alcoholic above all else. Tequila is the love of my life. I stopped drinking when I started heroin. I traded one vice for another.
Tequila makes me cry. Rum makes me angry and I'm docile as fuck. But I'll pick fights because with a wrestling background I will win.
I quit heroin 5 years clean but started drinking. Your absolutely right. It's cheap, expected, and everywhere. Alcohol wd sucks I'd take heroin over it any day.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group [Re: daz01]
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daz01 said: Imo, the only way you are going to find a reason to live or finding yourself is first getting sober and staying sober. Your brain is not thinking rationally or logically when addicted. For me, it was simply realising the simple pleasures in life ARE amazing.... exercise, nature, healthy food, relationships, sex, etc, etc. This translated into my hobbies such as hiking, camping, martial arts, travelling, challenging myself, pushing myself.... and most importantly, not being ashamed of myself, fears or thoughts. Not caring about what people thought about me (sober, not when you've done a bunch of drugs... its easy to "not care" when you are high as fuck). It's tough and painful without the drugs to numb your mind.... but it eventually gets to the point where it doesn't hurt. Its still a wee bitty scary but feels good.
There comes a time in your life where you MUST decide enough is enough and make the changes.... it can be now (for me, I literally had decided I as going to get clean and turn my life upside down 4 days before I stopped using.... no BS excuses or plans that I would never follow through with. NOW.) or in 20 years.
I'm a manipulator of people. I know it everyone does. Well the people that don't I feel so terrible. It's why I don't date I don't really care to be around anybody. It's not fair to her or me. I'm 26 and still look like I'm 16. 19 year olds come into me it seems constantly. Fuck I dunno how to deal with the I'm not 18 anymore.
I'm a pessimistic fucking asshole I'm not the wide eyed and bushy tailed drug happy and doing drugs with no consequences. Man I wish I could go back with the knowledge I now have.
I have no sex drive how do I story tell to someone else. There are a ton of stories to be told. Even on this site I can do one better. I catalog my stories here. Thats why Ive been her since 18. I tell you stories.
You got caught up shit that's on you. I'm not a felon.
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Yes.
I cook usually but I laid it on my PA who's in my house. I've cooked for the last 3+times. Hey make some food apparently that isn't going to happen. I hate cooking. Any woman that will feed me you've already won my heart.
Frustrating. I only cook to feed myself but I can cook more. Grrr
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Re: Opiate addicts support group [Re: Enjoywho]
#24082175 - 02/11/17 12:54 PM (6 years, 11 months ago) |
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I'm a narcissistic asshole. I pay for a majority of our house I'm back at ma's place but I have never been homeless.
Just broke down the boxes for trash. This is what life actually is. Go off off to college shit I was going to but it would have cost me 100 grand and I had to help take of you guys.
There old enough to work now get to work.
Complain about doing dishes. Shit I've done them for 12 hours. They are incredibly lazy. I'm an alcoholic because I work to support them.
I gave up my good years. That's fine. they're all gonna going to be great people. I'm scared because I lost my purpose in life. If yoi want anything from my siblings they will talk you up the table.
I'm I'm I'm sure when they're all rich my stories will be forgotten and maybe I'd get to meet a little niece or nephew
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Mush 4 Brains said: I often hear people say how bad their alcohol wd was when they quit and how it was worse than even h wd. And I know that it can be fatal so it obviously can be potentially worse. But even after long stretches of daily/heavy drinking I never experienced anything too terrible. I mean it wasn't pleasant but didnt hold a candle to opiates ime.
I experienced anxiety,physically at first felt maybe a little shaky/minor muscle spasms, depression and nightmares(like CRAZY vivid ones, I looked into it and the science on it has something to do with rem sleep being inhibited from prolonged alcohol use that upon abstinence from can cause some sort of great rebound in REM sleep.. which causes the excessive/vivid dreaming)
The anxiety was really bad as well though. For the first few days of wd, i was on the verge of having a full on panic attack and or psychotic breakdown. That's something I never really got with h wd.
With h I was too busy hating life to be anxious, just so low and depressed that there was no room for anxiety. The only kind of anxiety I could muster was a sometimes impeding thought that I was going to be permanently stuck in that hell.
I lose feeling in my hands and feet I've never been to a detox facility. But I'm sure they will give you the necessary drugs to do it. MA gets trazadone as I'm an insomniac. I dream incredibly vividly when I'm sweating it out.
It sucks because I just need to be left alone but that seems to be an impossibility in my life.
I'm always being chased. Always I hate alcohol wds dreams but I also love them. Very interesting.
I judge how fucked I am by my hands. If I'm not shaking. It's always a crap shoot. I lost my confidence and everything. I'm a very talkative person losing that fucking sucks. When I cant even look someone in the eye thatis what I hate about alcohol.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Connoisseur]
#24469765 - 07/09/17 10:42 AM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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If you do make the kick from opiates do not switch to alcohol like I did. Lord knows this is so much worse. Well they all suck.
Make a clean break and it's surprising when someone tells you I can tell your actually smiling and not faking it. Thank you I feel amazing. I'm so high on life right now I want to dull it down.
Im always here if someone needs someone to just chit chat or vent to. I know the struggle I left my home to get away from it.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: moonrockmushy]
#24469774 - 07/09/17 10:46 AM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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moonrockmushy said: Yeah I find myself spending on all sorts of ludicrous things now that I am off dope. Food, clothes, bills. I don't have any savings to speak of but I do have a bit of equity at least in that I own things of value and am not compelled to sell them for pennies on the dollar.
10 months now. About 3 off kratom. I'm actually clean off all drugs other than nicotine and alcohol atm.
When I tried to get clean in Alaska I went and bought a cd every day. Purchasing things provides that serotonin and dopamine rush we crave.
And I know how to torrent my computer had like 10000 songs on it. But instead of buying dope I chose to do that. Sobriety is actually more expensive
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: JustABoxOfRain]
#24499918 - 07/21/17 10:31 PM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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I was talking to a guy the other day. He's a dope fiend and sniffling. Last time I saw him I tried to counsel him. Don't you have any family or friends? A warm place to lay your head?
No. Well shit man I can't help you with either of those things. That's how I quit. There is no help for addicts either. Unless you can afford detox. Which obviously dope fiends can't.
Back in my using days just the act of getting it with my friend. "It feels like Christmas morning"
I never nodded out or anything like that. I think it affected me differently than most. It's not even a great drug. I have no idea why I kept doing it. It's so bland and just. Blech. Yet I kept doing it.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Mush 4 Brains]
#24557233 - 08/16/17 03:16 AM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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I still think about heroin all the time. I picked up a cold today which sucks. You know what heroin was used for at the beginning? Cough suppressant 
And damn does that shit work wonders. 4 years I've been clean. It's annoying to say the least.
I buy things now instead of dope. Things that aren't really necessary but just the act of buying something releases endorphins.
Considered buying a bag of dope. In this tweaker town. I can get it. But decided to try and sleep instead. Browse facebook for anything to look at.
I fill my time with things to not do it again. Distractions. The life of a junkie sucks. I should be enjoying the things I do but i'm occasionally thinking about a bag of dope as soon as I get sick. Ugh
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Enjoywho]
#24557282 - 08/16/17 04:29 AM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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What pisses me off about this "opoid crisis" the most is...
I've lost a lot of good people od'ing on it. They weren't inherently bad people just lost souls as I was and still am. I just got lucky.
They never cover the actual facts either. The US government banned the op 80 pills and junkies will be junkies. So everyone switched to heroin. I've od'd once on a half a nift. .05. lacing it with all kinds of junk. At least with a pill you are getting the exact same thing every time.
America started the war on drugs and they have it so ass backwards it's dumb. Well more than dumb I could fill this entire page with me ranting about good people that I've lost from it. It makes me super sad.
If I wouldn't have left my home, Alaska, when I did I'd probably be dead right now myself. Super expensive too. Nifty for a fifty. .10 for 50$ but generally your getting .08.
I can't help but think I'm not really that valuable. I'd trade my life for a few of those people.
Ya know? I will never ever give anyone heroin or any opiod that has never done it. I am not going to be responsible for this. It's the most boring drug though I never truly enjoyed heroin. I found it kind of meh as I don't nod off or any of that shit when I do it. It provides me with a big old meh feeling. I just kept doing it and when your dope sick ya being somewhat normal is ok.
Nothing good comes of it at all. I spent up my jar of cash with 5 grand in it. Lost my job, my apartment, left my home. I don't know what else to really say. It ruined the age of 20-22 when I was in my prime. I went to college for a year and passed all my classes but I would just leave when my heroin dealer hit me up. Tapping my foot jonesing.
Waste of life and time. I hate myself all the time for it and my ma loves to bring it up whenever we talk. Just reminds me how bad I want to get a bag of dope
Opiates suck.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: SonicTitan]
#24557992 - 08/16/17 11:39 AM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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Ya for sure. I was a heroin addict. Moved states got clean. Switched to alcohol.
I would take heroin wd's over alcohol any day of the week. That shit is a straight nightmare. Your central nervous system is so fucked beyond belief you can't stop shaking. Alcohol is straight poison man. Your body immediately starts rejecting it when you start drinking. Slowing down all the other functions of your body.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: SonicTitan]
#24562855 - 08/18/17 01:36 PM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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czech said: I don't think so man. I've never had an alcohol problem in my adult life though. It's better than shooting dope but it's not a substitute really it's a different drug with a far different range of effects.
It's like comparing trazodone to heroin sure trazodone can be bad and kill you and all that jazz but it really is better.
Its a different drug that still can control your life. I used to be an alcoholic for years, and I can say compared to previous benzo addiction it holds the exact same amount of "need" for your fix. Being around it my whole life too and knowing many many more people who have destroyed themselves from the bottle. Most of them ARE recovering addicts too...
The hardest thing about alcohol is that it's cheap, everywhere, and socially acceptable. You can buy it at any corner store. Find 1.51 in nickels and you can get a tall can of steel reserve.
Everyone expects you to do it though. I drink for 2 days and am sick for a week. It might of been my 3 year heroin addiction that burned out my ability to deal with it. I'm not really sure.
I did get 2 months sober and all I did was sit at home by myself. Work. etc. I had to turn into a total recluse for that to happen. I've let out to so many people and my friends about my alcoholism and such. They invite me out drinking.
I like to be involved. I like to be involved in the reindeer games That's what made me snap. And the death of my dog from cancer which was something I didn't need. I cry a lot at times when drunk. I felt sad but I couldn't cry. So I got shit faced and sobbed all night long. As I felt that I should he was my best friend.
Haven't really attempted to get sober again. The worst part of AA was admitting fault in front of a bunch of people. I don't like speaking in front of that many people. I'm a talker but not when i'm in a large group like that. I'm more of a people watcher that anything.
A weird thing I read is people with blue eyes have the highest rate of addictions. I'm blue eyed myself. One day I counted. There were 24 blue eyed people and 5 brown eyed. Science has no clue why this is. Also weird out of my parents and 3 siblings. I'm the only blue eyed person. My dad can drink a metric fuck ton with diabetes and literally wake up a couple hours later completely fine.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: moonrockmushy]
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moonrockmushy said: I dunno I was an opiate addict for over 10 years, and probably got withdrawals within the first few months or sooner. I've been drinking for nearly 20, though I couldn't really drink when I was on opiates, and have never experienced bad withdrawals from alcohol. I'm not saying I couldn't, but it is alot harder to get to that point, partially because alcohol is so disagreeable to the body.
For a while after I quit the last time, I was drinking like a fifth of whiskey every day after work, and more on the weekends. I would feel like shit the next day, but it wouldn't be anything like being dopesick and once I got less depressed and started getting on my feet more I started drinking less. Now I just drink beer and wine and my biggest concern is the extra calories, I feel fine when I wake up other than being a little groggy at first, which I think is normal.
I've showed up to work every day the past year, kept my sense of humor, and it's not like I have to cancel plans if I can't get a drink. I don't think they're the same. I can't say that everyone will be like this, or that things won't get worse for me regarding alcohol, but it's definitely not nearly as physically addictive for me.
Also one year clean in a week or two, not sure the exact date.
It took me about 9 months. I had just left home and moved to Washington. I was super depressed that I left everything I knew. I was drinking from the time I got up to the time I went to sleep. Day after day. I don't think I spent a single day sober that entire time. Something finally just broke.
Well I did that for 3 years straight. It was an incredibly depressing time. I didn't want to leave. But I'd probably be dead from heroin. Who knows.
At the height of my drinking i'll drink maybe 4-6 tall cans a day. 3 days of that will get me so sick I can't function at all. I forget to eat. Even the smallest chore of taking care of my body like showering is damn near impossible. I'm gagging. Puking up blood. I lose feelings in my hands and feet, just rolling around praying for death. Or for it to just stop. Whichever comes first. At that point it doesn't matter anymore.
All you want is sleep but sleep never comes. If you do sleep they're always nightmares. Generally I'm being chased. Incredibly vivid stuff. My mind can fill entire towns with 100's of different and unique people. Bright buildings. Etc. Delusions. There are times I can't tell wether something actually happened or not.
I don't really drink hard alcohol at all these days. That shit makes me black out so fast. I can't put down a 5th. Well I can and absolutely will, I think the thing that makes it the worst is forgetting to eat. Alcohol fucks with your insulin levels so hard. Your body starts immediately rejecting it. It slows down all of the other functions it provides just to purge it out.
There have been times I've been so shaky I have to hold the beer or water jug with 2 hands to somewhat steadily hold it. CNS just fucked beyond belief.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#24563171 - 08/18/17 03:34 PM (6 years, 5 months ago) |
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It's one of those things you never notice until it's pointed out, and can't unsee it.
They did a study of AA and NA meetings over a couple months. 70-80% of them are blue eyed. Now they're trying to figure out why. There are a couple theories bouncing around but nothing really based in fact. Just thought. Interesting read. I'd link you to the article but it was a while ago.
Could probably just google around blue eyes and addiction and find it.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: moonrockmushy]
#26078421 - 06/28/19 12:15 AM (4 years, 6 months ago) |
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Started using heroin again after about 5-6 years clean. It's crazy here for what i'd pay 50 dollars for up in Alaska. (.1) I get .2 for 20$. twice as much for half the cost.
Plan on tapering off again though. Got a hook up on subs for less then 5 dollars a 8 mg strip. Really just not digging the money I'm spending even at 20 bucks a day your still spending 140 a week. Weekends or days when I dont have work and nothing to do i'll use 40 or so.
It's really annoying how incredibly short acting dope seems to be. Sometimes it seems like 10 minutes later after the initial rush your already down again like ???
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: moonrockmushy]
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moonrockmushy said: Yeah the rush is really the only good part. Other than that opiates just seem to make me itchy, bloated, and irritable. The high is gone real quick but the side effects last all day.
Good luck with the taper man. I'd recommend kratom over suboxone any day. I've never had an easy time coming off of subs, in lots of ways it's harder than dope. Coming off of kratom was a piece of cake by comparison, and you don't have to worry about precipitated withdrawals.
I only got 4 of them just for the first 4 days. After that i'll pretty much be fine. I could get kratom to the little asian store sells it. Maybe i'll grab some of that too for after the 4 days of that. We'll see how things are going.
It's weird to think about when your only buying .2 at a time but if you buy that 7 days a week your pretty much doing a gram and a half a week. Which I dunno seems like a lot but probably really isn't. I only buy it like that as I know i'll be too lazy to go get more. I could save money buying a teener but I'd just end up doing more.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: dbreeze]
#26334984 - 11/21/19 04:53 AM (4 years, 2 months ago) |
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I actually recently got on Methadone myself. I'm up to 40 mg a day. I could keep going up higher and higher shit i've head of people on well over 100 mg which makes no fucking sense. But I'm good with where i'm at right now. 40 seems to get me to the next dose with minimal discomfort. I'm not trying to be on the stuff forever so when they asked me if I wanted to move up I decided not too. I may go to 50 in time just for the little extra but i'm already getting pretty tired of having to fucking go in that place every day.
It's a bit of a pain in the ass. But it definitely helps I couldn't have just quit using heroin without checking out for like a week for sure. I've still been getting a bag of heroin here and there but I don't need it to make it through out the day. That's just me being stubborn though I plan to completely cut it out and just take my daily methadone. I'm ok with that. Heroin doesn't last for shit it's such a waste of money and so dissapointing. No difference between .1 and a gram I can do it all and still need more 2 minutes after the last hit.
After 6-7 years clean of heroin I came back to it this year. I started pretty much in January. Gonna fully stop it by the end of December. So I pretty much got back on the wagon for a year. Can't say I learned anything except just remembering that it's a complete waste of time and money.
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Re: Opiate addicts support group (moved) [Re: RJ Tubs 202] 1
#26338474 - 11/22/19 03:58 PM (4 years, 2 months ago) |
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Enjoywho said:
I actually recently got on Methadone myself. I'm up to 40 mg a day. I could keep going up higher and higher shit i've head of people on well over 100 mg which makes no fucking sense. But I'm good with where i'm at right now. 40 seems to get me to the next dose with minimal discomfort. I'm not trying to be on the stuff forever so when they asked me if I wanted to move up I decided not too.
Why does a methadone clinic ask you about increasing the dosage? I thought the approach was gradual reduction.
You start at a random spot somewhere low. They started me at 20 but i've heard as low as 10. Every 3 days you can go up 5 mg. It's how you find the spot that you can take it and not be withdrawing before your next dose. Before I hit 40 I was feeling like shit when I woke up and got to the clinic. At 40 I actually feel alright. Take my dose and feel pretty much the same through out the day.
But like the other dude said they'll put you up into the high 100's all you have to do is ask really. I decided not too as 40 seems to be working fine for me and i'm not trying to be chained to the clinic for the foreseeable future. I actually plan on moving states come spring time so i'm going to have to taper down and off by then.
There is no plan for reduction you can literally be on it for life if you choose.
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