Hey guys,
It's crazy I just came on here to make my fist thread on this forum and then I immediately saw this thread which is basically exactly what I was going to make. Anyways, I'm 19 years old going on 20 and I have been smoking daily for around 3 years now and I am ready to slowly quit/heavily reduce my habit.
For me what I have noticed is very similar to many of your stories. Like many of you, I love weed. I love it so much that I smoke it every day before I do any task usually, simply because I enjoy the headspace and feel no harm in doing it because I am able to be productive and get things done still. At the same time in the back of my mind I often think about how without weed I would find so many other things to do, and how maybe it isn't the best thing for me to be smoking all the time.
While I only smoke around an eighth a week, I still smoke multiple times a day and get fairly high each time. Around a year ago I got a pretty bad concussion which somewhat catalyzed this idea around weed possibly not being the best thing, as it often made my head hurt after the injury and I still get very high from a small amount since the concussion.
Anyways, while I love weed, I feel like at going on 20 years old I am ultimately going to hold myself back from my full potential if I sit around in college and just smoke weed at a heavy rate. For a while I have gone through a cycle of smoking until I feel I become semi-dependent on it, which at this point I admit I am, and while it isn't the worst dependency it is indeed one and I am beginning to feel that clouds my head and thoughts. Through the cycle I often take 2 week to month long breaks when I feel I have been smoking too much, and while the first few days always suck, I begin to feel great after just a week of not smoking. Sitting around and not thinking about the things that are wrong in my life (often pertaining to my health which I have been working on for a while, won't get into it), go away and I find myself being more active and especially meditating very often as well as doing yoga, which are two activities I often stray away from when I am smoking, an interesting thing to note.
Anyways, if anyone read this I hope it helped you in some way as I'm sure you're on this thread for a reason and probably have had some similar feelings. I'm not sure completely where I'm at with weed yet because I do still love it and so many of my friendships are "tied" to it and while it sounds sad, it will be weird to hang with some of my friends when sober. At the same time I plan to reduce my smoking habit greatly and start that with a hiatus of 1 month to 3 months. I would love to be able to just smoke once or twice a week but I've tried that many times and it always goes back to daily. I'm shooting for that this time but if I fail again it will soon be time to quit for good as I am done with the cycle that the sweet Mary is putting me through.
Peace and love
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