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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread [Re: yogabunny]
    #22631088 - 12/08/15 06:44 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

Joel,  alcoholic.

Yogabunny;  I found myself when I was drinking I would rehash the drink I took to some how overcome the guilt I had for the glass of vodka or beer I took. 

Passing these experience in sobriety I have come to terms that yes I'm an alcoholic,  what can I possibly do to fill in this place.

Like you said yogabunny you are using guided meditation that enters you into the realm of a plethora of knowledge that can come to you.


For me, to drink is to die.  I can pick the glass up and look at it but if I go through with the drink my body will succumb the Devils preservative that will effect my organs in a bad way.


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
    #22631115 - 12/08/15 06:51 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

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That's good stuff Joel...Most people miss that "service" part of the program and wonder why they went back out. I have been taking meetings to a treatment center for over 15 years and was institution rep for my home group for 8 years....nothing like going into a jail to speak where you had been previously incarcerated.




Jail was a very dark and cold place.

The meeting were Tuesday's and Thursday's and I would go there and meet up with the chairmen.

I remember the one guy there said that I was spinning my wheels when I would tend to experience life on my own will.

Other things that would go on there would be transfers of commissary and who knows what else.

Jail brought me to my knees asking for forgiveness for the wrongs I have done in this world.


It looks at I will be going to a mental health cottage to try to overcome these manic episodes which require hospitalization.  So I have a plate of anxiety and fear. 

I wish I had a roommate to move in with.


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Roostertail]
    #22631392 - 12/08/15 07:38 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

Shane, Alcoholic.

I was just taking a sponsee through steps 2 and 3.

We came to this part in the big book that says this. Page 60, 4th paragraph.


"Each person is like an actor who wants to run the whole show; is forever trying to arrange the lights, the ballet, the scenery and the rest of the players in his own way. If his arrangements would only stay put, if only people would do as he wished, the show would be great. Everybody, including himself, would be pleased. Life would be wonderful."

My number one problem is trying to take control of my whole life. I found though when I continually everyday worked steps 1-3 as well as 10-12, my problems as big as they might be, seemed so small in the grand scope of things and I also got comfort knowing that whatever happens, God has got me. One day at a time!

Thanks for letting me share!:heart:


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: JustForToday] * 1
    #22633937 - 12/09/15 12:16 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

Yes, that is a poignant paragraph....has to do with acceptance. I got sober with the 3rd edition and pg.449 dealt with acceptance...I think the 4th edition it is on 417. Very good story...one that caught my attention early in sobriety.

My sponsor died from cancer a couple years ago....He always loved pg. 449...spoke of it often. On his death certificate...he died at 4:49 am....I call that a God moment.


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
    #22635771 - 12/09/15 08:01 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

What is your month and year sobriety date so I can add it to the thread?


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: JustForToday]
    #22635824 - 12/09/15 08:15 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

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JustForToday said:
What is your month and year sobriety date so I can add it to the thread?




Mine is 10/18/2013


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Roostertail]
    #22635957 - 12/09/15 08:38 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

I added it already brother go take a look.


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: JustForToday]
    #22636006 - 12/09/15 08:47 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

Cool thanks


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Roostertail]
    #22637293 - 12/10/15 06:32 AM (8 years, 1 month ago)

Well done. Y'all are an inspiration.


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: JustForToday]
    #22637492 - 12/10/15 08:16 AM (8 years, 1 month ago)

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JustForToday said:
What is your month and year sobriety date so I can add it to the thread?



Mark, alcoholic....The worst and best day of my life was 3/15/1999. The day of my last drink.


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
    #22637510 - 12/10/15 08:25 AM (8 years, 1 month ago)

:congrats: nice job man! I'm realizing how much money I spend on alcohol and it's still not enough to stop me :facepalm: her grip is strong. I've been drinking pretty heavily since I was 16, I'm 23 now and I just realize that everyone my age is getting out of that heavy drinking phase but I'm stuck drinking every night religiously. I just can't stop for some reason


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Rebelutionsssss]
    #22638529 - 12/10/15 01:24 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

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Rebelutionsssss said:
:congrats: nice job man! I'm realizing how much money I spend on alcohol and it's still not enough to stop me :facepalm: her grip is strong. I've been drinking pretty heavily since I was 16, I'm 23 now and I just realize that everyone my age is getting out of that heavy drinking phase but I'm stuck drinking every night religiously. I just can't stop for some reason




Joel,  alcoholic.

I realized that alcohol had bonded itself on my soul. I had a amphetemine response once I drank it but when I drank heavily it was more like ketamine.

The relationship ended with me handcuffed sitting in the back of a police car.


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Rebelutionsssss] * 1
    #22638616 - 12/10/15 01:41 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

You sound alot like me back in the day Reb.....not necessarily a good thing. I remember always being the last to leave the party...sometimes getting kicked out lol. Unfortunately, you may be one of us. But, life can be beautiful without alcohol.

The thing that I liked about booze was that it made it easier to talk and come out of my shell...unfortunately, that went away somewhere between the 6th and 16th drink. I would increasingly find myself in a state of oblivion...wondering how I got that way. Then I discovered coke and all was well again...lol... for like 10 minutes. The coke would help me be able to drink as much as I wanted and still talk peoples ears off...thought it was magic dust. Anyway, that story didn't end well....It's called "Living better by chemistry" and that never works out well in the long run.


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
    #22642067 - 12/11/15 10:10 AM (8 years, 1 month ago)

Ive been really scared lately

I've been drinking about a half a case of beer(15) and lately it just hasnt been doing it for me. alcohol used to really help me calm me down and help but lately my mind has been going crazy in circles and the booze just doesnt do it anymore.

I joined an alocholic supprt group online a few hours ago but havn't gotten any responses yet so i figured i'd pop into the shroomery.

i know i need to get into AA and actually help myself, but damn, its so hard. I'm scared to go because 1: i have horrible social anxity and 2: i'm not sure if i can actually stop drinking. i feel like my brain really does 'need' it and i just dont know what the fuck to do

I need to get up and help myself but its so fucking scarey. i dont know what to do


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Adolin]
    #22642173 - 12/11/15 10:38 AM (8 years, 1 month ago)

How bad are your withdrawal symptoms in the morning, gresh?


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
    #22642207 - 12/11/15 10:48 AM (8 years, 1 month ago)

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Malcolm_Xtasy said:
How bad are your withdrawal symptoms in the morning, gresh?





Its hard to tell apart the withdrawls from straight-up nuttty-ness that is me

But generally, in the morning i start out "half awake" for awhile, which basically means i'm still dreaming

once i wake up completely, my heart jumps to about 150-180 BPM. my upper body starts pounding and i sweat alot.

before i actually wake up its 50-75.
I used to be able to drink my heart rate down but it just doesnt work anymore. ive had several beers and then switched to wine and my BPM is still high and my mind is racing


I'm working really hard to fix this shit and clean myself up though


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Adolin] * 1
    #22642303 - 12/11/15 11:26 AM (8 years, 1 month ago)

That is one of the signs of early withdrawal Gresh, although taking a drink usually gets you back to normal...You may have something else going on too...When was the last time you checked your blood pressure? I was primarily a beer drinker and was drinking between 15-30 beers a day at the end....and somehow managed to not start drinking till noon the next day....Sweated out those first few hours....fucked up way to live.

I'm gonna tell you guys (and gals) a story about my business partner. He has struggled with alcoholism his whole adult life...he's now 58 yrs. old. 5 years ago he almost died and became a partial wet brain because of his drinking. He called the cops because there were aliens in his house...this is true...from alcohol. Miraculously, because of some amazing dr.s in Baltimore area he made about a 90% recovery...his liver was nearly shot and encephylepathy almost put him in a home.His recovery took 3 months.

Anyway, like a good drunk, he started drinking about 6 months after being released...kept it pretty normal..I think...was trying to control it and did for a while(By the way, he drinks straight vodka)...So,a few weeks ago, he started drinking round the clock maintenance style and started getting sick...last weekend he got very ill and I wound up taking him to the hospital Tuesday...he was drinking to stop the withdrawals when I took him in.
When they checked him, his BAC was .36...and he was walking and talking almost normally. Long story short, I checked on him yesterday and Dr. said he was having serious dt's...halucinating and yelling at everybody...they had to strap him down. Today...he could remember his name, but, that's about it.Bottom line is..he has dissed his body so bad that his heart is barely working from myopia, his liver is beyond help...and they are recommending hospice care upon his release, whenever that is.
Alcoholism


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea] * 1
    #22642348 - 12/11/15 11:46 AM (8 years, 1 month ago)

:sad: I remember one day after a long weekend of drinking and partying with my ex I went into to work and my boss is standing over me trying to help me with something on the computer and my hands were shaking so bad I couldn't even type. It was really embarrassing and scary.

I also remember seeing a show on (I think it was drugs inc or something) where the guy detoxing died because they didn't monitor his withdrawl symptoms close enough.


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Rebelutionsssss]
    #22642660 - 12/11/15 01:39 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

yeah, grand mall (sp?) seizures are usually the culprit...he is in danger of that now....I used to think I was drinking too much coffee in the mornings....causing shakes..lol. Alcoholism is a disease that tells you that you don't have one.


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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea] * 1
    #22642690 - 12/11/15 01:49 PM (8 years, 1 month ago)

I remember serving tables during the peak of my alcoholism was the worst.. trying to put a full martini glass down on a table when its full as shit :lol: I looked like Michael j fox


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