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ReposadoXochipilli
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I'm ok with drinking a little on my days off if that is what it stays at.
So is everyone. You mentioned binge drinking before. Then you act like 4-6 days is some kind of miracle. If you're an alcoholic you can't drink like you're not. I don't know so I'm not going to try to define you. Maybe you're an alcoholic; maybe you're not. It sounds to me like you need to put it away for good, though.
if i had to define myself i would say i am in recovery. binge drinking would just be by the definition, i have always been a heavy drinker from the first time so more then 3 drinks in a sitting or whatever it is now is very normal. for me to have 2 weeks of mostly no drinks is pretty nice, but yes not a miracle.
my drinking has curtailed mostly by age, 30 now. i also am working at a place where there is no employee drinking so no discount helps, even though if i were to have a drink they would probably give it to me.
i used to drink a lot, besides that as i mentioned i work in the business so i have a stranger relationship with alcohol then most. i feel like i actually have control of it for the first time ever really.
would really prefer to get my level of drinking to the point that it accompanies food, like pairings and such. also the cocktails i was playing with were low proof girly things, like strong wine, that was an interesting way to make drinks and not get too drunk.
i don't know, anything compared to my early 20's is progress. im comfortable with the direction im headed. lots of good things going on, thats helps also.
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sui
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Been drinking a lot, dealing with stress, not able to find work, my diet sucks, Im lacking motivation, but its not too bad, drank one beer today, I had a little over two yesterday, didnt finish the last one. I found some good weed though and that helps.
Was up to a twelver a day for a week or so. The stress from not being able to eat as healthy as i like and not being able to save money, Is getting, to me and it doesnt help to deal with the stress by buying beer. Least its not whiskey though!, I never drank a tone of liquor.
The fridge gets delivered on monday. Its going to be nice to be able to store food, It will improve my mood, and Ill be able to create some better routines for myself. Being able to get up and drink some coffee and have breakfast before i go out and make my money for the day will be awesome. Plus i wont have to immediately spend the money i make if i want to eat something.
I really like drinking beer, but i dont want to drink 12 a day.
I feel like my motivation will improve, I feel like crap and it is unmotivating if you feel you have to skip meals in order to save money. It makes it hard to want to be at my house if i cant make healthy food and just end up out spending what money i have.
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BlueIndian
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous [Re: sui]
#24353931 - 05/27/17 11:39 AM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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How goes it ppl? Been a while since I've posted in or read anything in this thread. Unfortunately things are pretty much the same for me. Still doing the things that I do. Sui, I'm a beer lover too. Don't know what it is but I love beer. I will say one thing that is positive for me is I haven't drank any liquor in just over 2 years. That was getting out of hand. I was drinking a cheap $9 bottle of Smirnoff every 2 days. Drinking it mixed with cranberry juice from the time I woke up until I went to bed...or slept on the couch. I was hitting bottom bad and my marriage was about to fail. Wife needed me and my support badly a couple years ago and I was too busy drowning my own sorrows in the vodka to be there for her. Even though I gave it up then, I don't think she has forgotten/forgiven me for not being there. I'm not sober by any means....but I am better than I was then. Several times she would look into my eyes and tell me I needed to slow my roll because of yellow eyes.
Beer is a habit for me. I honestly don't have any other liquid to drink that I like. Don't drink sodas. It's beer or water. So...that needs to be worked on. But I do have to give myself credit on the liquor part. Not one shot in over 2 yrs. The only time I've walked in the liquor store in 2 years was to get everclear to use as an extract. And I had no interest whatsoever in drinking it lol!
Well, though I'd pop back in on this thread...been a while. Some things don't come easy for a lot of us. Baby steps are better than nothing. So keep at it guys and gals.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: BlueIndian] 1
#24356848 - 05/28/17 04:42 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Nolan Addict/Alcholic
I just recently started attending NA/AA meetings because I got tested positive for THC at a rehab center my sister is in when I went there for counseling. I tested very low on on the drug test so they reccomended I do a 90 day 90 meetings program.
I got in mostly for weed but I'm not ready to give that up. But I have been clean for a week now last time was when a friend offered me a beer.
Tough going to the meetings and just being exposed to the program has made me aware that I did have an alchool problem.
Before I tought my drinking was not that bad but then I realized how much and how often I was drinking especially my drinking habbits, which were very much just binge drinking looking to always get wasted.
I noticed I mindlessly drank like sometimes I would just grab a beer just for the sake of it.
Or if I'm with friends going out to bars they would always tell me that I was drinking too much or always getting to drunk.
I always taught that going out or hanging out with friends was only fun if you get drunk, it was a sure fire way for me to have fun with friends.
Sure enough with this method I did end up partying with alot of people and got to know alot of people ans was known by a lot of people, thing tough was I do not remember about 80% of them. It was a common occurence for people to greet me on the street calling out my name and all I can think is whats his/her name again. Alot of the friends I made were quite plastic and I endes up snuffing the few geniune ones I meet.
The past few months I started going to the meetings, I started not liking alchool it just made me slugish and quite sleepy or sick.
Even tough I'm not tottaly commited to being complety clean I'm quite happy and more determind to start that step with alchool.
Thabks for letting me share.
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Thayendanegea
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Nolan92]
#24368154 - 06/01/17 02:40 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Thanks for sharing Nolan...sounds like your head is in a good place. Personally, I believe that the program of AA is good for anybody....pretty much teaches you to live by the golden rule.

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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: BlueIndian] 1
#24368171 - 06/01/17 02:46 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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@ Sui & Blue Indian, I was a beer drinker too...problem was, it ended as a 30 pack a day plus shots and shooters. I told myself over and over that I wasn't alcoholic and pretty much pissed away everything that was good in my life in the mean time.
Truth is, you can be as much of an alcoholic drinking beer as that guy that drinks a handle a day of cheap vodka....you just piss a lot more. I'm forever grateful that AA was there for me when I finally came to my senses (in a jail cell).
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TheFakeSunRa
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea] 1
#24368299 - 06/01/17 03:43 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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you just piss a lot more.
And gain more weight...
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30 pack a day plus shots and shooters

Damn...
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Thayendanegea
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: TheFakeSunRa]
#24370166 - 06/02/17 08:31 AM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Yeah...I owned my own business so I drank at work too...shots and shooters were only when I went to bars.
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TheFakeSunRa
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#24372040 - 06/02/17 07:13 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Goddamn. The body can't take much of that. I don't care who you are. It seems like you'd also need a meth habit to be able to keep moving.
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Thayendanegea
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: TheFakeSunRa]
#24379665 - 06/05/17 01:29 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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cocaine / meth....tomatoes/ tomottoes.....did a lot of coke plus chain smoked cigs. I can still taste that taste that was in my mouth/ lungs after a spree...more than 18 years since Iv'e done anything. It is a sickening taste and I use it as a reminder of where I never want to go again.
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TheFakeSunRa
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#24380750 - 06/05/17 08:09 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Well I'm glad you got out before it killed you dude
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: TheFakeSunRa]
#24381612 - 06/06/17 07:16 AM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quick reply-
So I'm joining a gym and giving it a go
I'm planning on using the elyptical or bike for an hour every morning or evening to try and burn away this fat I've accumulated on my belly
I'm a tree climber, and this extra weight is really holding me back, but more importantly I'm looking to start exercising and quit drinking in the same day, to hopefully start some great new habits and to get into better shape for my already labor intensive job
Now does anyone have suggestions as to types of workouts I should be looking into on the bike/elyptical? Or should I just get into the damn gym and make it happen for an hour each day? (Obviously kicking the drinking habit as well)
Any responses appreciated, thanks fellas and ladies!
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: stzacrack]
#24381849 - 06/06/17 09:31 AM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Don't make your exercise routine so brutal you dread going back.
Instead of deciding before hand what your workout should be like go in and see where you're at.
And if you do get lazy about the workouts that isn't tied into your sobriety. It's good to get in shape and build healthy habits but however all that goes DON'T DRINK.
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Thayendanegea
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: TheFakeSunRa]
#24401712 - 06/13/17 08:37 AM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Hey friends....Another alcoholic friend passes. My business partner just passed in Jan. from this disease, now his best friend just died from a grand mal seizure over the weekend. I guess he was trying to detox himself for the thousanth time...I actually sponsored him 14 yrs. ago when he put together a couple years sobriety and seemed to be embracing life and on track. He took his will back and wound up on the streets off and on during the past decade. I saw him at my bus. partners life celebration and he was drinking. He was a very good guitar player and a excellent musician overall. He could make anyone laugh at any time and had a heart of gold...name was Jim and he had 4 kids. He was 59. Anyway, I'm going to another viewing tonight....this shit gets old. "But for the grace of God, there go I"
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#24401818 - 06/13/17 09:11 AM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Thayendanegea said: Hey friends....Another alcoholic friend passes. My business partner just passed in Jan. from this disease, now his best friend just died from a grand mal seizure over the weekend. I guess he was trying to detox himself for the thousanth time...I actually sponsored him 14 yrs. ago when he put together a couple years sobriety and seemed to be embracing life and on track. He took his will back and wound up on the streets off and on during the past decade. I saw him at my bus. partners life celebration and he was drinking. He was a very good guitar player and a excellent musician overall. He could make anyone laugh at any time and had a heart of gold...name was Jim and he had 4 kids. He was 59. Anyway, I'm going to another viewing tonight....this shit gets old. "But for the grace of God, there go I"
Sorry for your loss.....we AA's spend far too much time at funerals and life celebrations of folks that couldn't get off the bus for whatever reason. Prayers.....
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Anatoly]
#24402001 - 06/13/17 10:22 AM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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indeed...but, thankfully I get to witness marriages, childrens Christenings, graduations and other gifts that sobriety can bring.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#24406551 - 06/14/17 09:57 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Got drunk against better judgment, currently fighting the urge to go get coke.
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Thayendanegea
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Othyem] 1
#24407987 - 06/15/17 02:24 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Goddam, I remember that urge. I never once chased coke when I wasn't drinking. My only recommendation would be to pray your ass off to take that coke urge away. The closest I've been to death have come during alcohol/ coke fueled rampages.
I know that urge you're feeling ....shit, I just realized your post is 16 hrs. ago....hope you made it through alive and without too much damage.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#24408043 - 06/15/17 02:46 PM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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Apparently, I was on autopilot when I posted this. As far as I can tell I just took some sleeping pills and zonked out. Feeling fine aside from a slight hangover and feeling some guilt and disappointment.
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Thayendanegea
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Othyem]
#24409688 - 06/16/17 07:49 AM (6 years, 7 months ago) |
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A good time to start over.
-------------------- Look Deep Into Nature,and Then You Will Understand Everything Better. Albert Einstein
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