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Anonymous #24
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Go to the next meeting you can. If there isnt an in person meeting go to one online. There has been some online meetings posted here.
Also I know of a really good one online too pm me if you want the zoom number
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CaptainTrips420
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I tried a meeting online once but it’s just I don’t know if it will help much but I just got to make the decision not to drink. I’m like a 5 minute walk from a liquor store back in the city now and I got enough money to buy any bottle in the store. But I will not go there and waste my money but I really want to.
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Anonymous #24
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Still sober. Its amazing to me. In a city where I was deeply in the madness when i used to live here.
I am back again except im sober and working the program so its like a completely different city now in a good way.
I wasnt in the program when I was here last but now that i am i am amazed by the sheer amount of meetings here.
FakeSunRa miss you man it sucks you got banned your contrinution to this thread has helped me and many others with their sobreity.
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CaptainTrips420
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I don’t know it’s a little extreme a year for making fun of the admin but it was incredibly rude I don’t think anyone has eaten a million pork chops.
However I relapsed but am now sober again it’s been since last Friday. I got really stressed because I spent a large amount of money on psychedelics but once they arrived I feel so much better. It was just anxiety I really still have a desire to drink I’m just not giving in. But when I did drink last time I didn’t really drink a lot. I hate that chemicals control my life more than I do. It’s downright sad
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CaptainTrips420
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I couldn’t stop thinking about how much I wanted to drink and couldn’t take it no more. I decided I’m going to drink today but I think maybe like once in a while thing. I couldn’t help myself I feel like I’m making the wrong decision but I will feel so good in 30 minutes it won’t matter. I definitely think I’m powerless. Sorry if I let you guys down I’m disappointed in myself too.
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Thayendanegea
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Registered: 02/20/12
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Congratulations Gilligan! It's good to hear some positive stories on this thread. @CT...An old sponsor of mine, long ago passed used to say that "You cannot solve a problem with the mind that created it" Also, "Alcoholism centers in the smarter part of our brain and we cannot outthink it". Both of these hit home for me. How many times do we tell ourselves that this time will be different....I'll go straight home this time, instead of stopping at the bar or liquor store...or I'll stop after a couple.. Only to come to the inevitable conclusion of Shit, I did it again and the guilt and remorse that goes along with it.
I was told that I must make peace with a Higher Power and ask that higher power for help on a daily basis...even if I didn't believe it. I urge everyone who is struggling to try this simple prayer. I did it because I was desperate and had exhausted every other method of stopping. We only have to stay away from a drink today, nothing more or nothing less. If we stay sober today we wake the following day with a new "today" and I again ask God to help keep me sober today.
The 12 steps can come later after a few 24 hrs. sober. These are essential to helping us live with ourselves and getting some "Peace of Mind" that I value more than anything in my life. Again...if anyone ever wants to talk...just shoot me a with your number.
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Running Wolf
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A program that doesn't keep records because of it's high failure rate and being overtly religious.
If they released the failure/success they would loose the cushy kickbacks they get from judges sending people to AA and NA.
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Thayendanegea
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LOL,judges don't get kickbacks and there is not one single reference to a christian God or needing a christian God to help anyone recover...never does it mention Jesus Christ. It simply says to find a power greater than yourself and ask that power for help. Many people use the group as a higher power. Group of drunks...G..O..D. The Big book does say that if you choose a religious God as your higher power, then that is ok.
There is a huge difference between Religiosity and Spirituality. One teaches by negative tenets and the other does not. One note on the failure rate is that it speaks about percentages in the Preface and forwards and it also says RARELY have we seen a person fail who has THOROUGHLY followed our path. This is what I have seen in my time in this program. There are a ton of people who are forced by courts into AA who don't want to be there...I was one and I would have looked for info like what you just posted here because I told myself over and over that if I really wanted to stop drinking, I would do it myself. AA was for weak people. Problem was, I nearly died before I finally was willing to do that one little prayer which was...If there is a God, please help me to not drink and to do your will...not mine. That takes about 10 seconds, I had nothing else to lose.
I appreciate your input and agree that this program is not for everyone...in all honesty it is for those of us who have tried everything else and failed.
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gopher
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Running Wolf said: A program that doesn't keep records because of it's high failure rate and being overtly religious.
If they released the failure/success they would loose the cushy kickbacks they get from judges sending people to AA and NA.
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A program that will take absolutely anyone is bound to have people drop out, back in the day they interviewed for spots and it had an amazing recovery rate
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Yeah all I know is it works for me and the people I have seen actually work the program.
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Anonymous #29
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gillagin780 said: Still sober. Its amazing to me. In a city where I was deeply in the madness when i used to live here.
I am back again except im sober and working the program so its like a completely different city now in a good way.
I wasnt in the program when I was here last but now that i am i am amazed by the sheer amount of meetings here.
FakeSunRa miss you man it sucks you got banned your contrinution to this thread has helped me and many others with their sobreity.
How are you managing the boredom?
Have you gained weight?
Any areas of your life getting attacked by your vice with the booze not there to be the thing youre failing at?
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It works if you work it and you're worth it.
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Anonymous #29
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Anonymous #29 said: It works if you work it and you're worth it.
I refuse to accept that im worth it. Lol.
How wild that youre anon 29 and im 28. We are brothers.
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Anonymous #24
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The boredom doesnt really get to me after my brains reward system fixed itself after i got sober. I gain reward from doing productive stuff now. Things i was never interested in when i was drinking like carpentry.
I am currently away from my home in the military but i bought a house in my home state so i kind of just imagine the stuff i want to do with my house and how i want to improve it when im gone.
I also fill my time with gaining skills that will help me when im out of the military so ive been learning how to code and alot of about linux and IT in general so that i can survive when im out.
I did gain weight but its been muscle from working out and lifting thats something else i started doing way more.
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Anonymous #29
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gillagin780 said: The boredom doesnt really get to me after my brains reward system fixed itself after i got sober. I gain reward from doing productive stuff now. Things i was never interested in when i was drinking like carpentry.
I am currently away from my home in the military but i bought a house in my home state so i kind of just imagine the stuff i want to do with my house and how i want to improve it when im gone.
I also fill my time with gaining skills that will help me when im out of the military so ive been learning how to code and alot of about linux and IT in general so that i can survive when im out.
I did gain weight but its been muscle from working out and lifting thats something else i started doing way more.
I'm dreaming of being there with you mate.
My drinking has made it very difficult for me to hit the gym. I was going religiously and drinking. And occasionally id have a bad hangover and not go to the gym.
About.... fuck 10 months ago I had a motorcycle crash. (I wasnt drunk driving) And broke some bones. So I stayed at home on opiates and drinking for 4 months. And now its 6 months since I've recovered good enough to mildly hit gym..... but now I'm just drinking all the fucking time.
Which is the story as old as time! I'm such a god damn fucking cliche.
And now that I'm 10 months out from the crash I'm 100 percent fine. And could go to the gym. But I just keep drinking like a scummy loser cunt.
I need to just full quit. I gotta just never drink. I can never just have one. I always fuck up. It feels like an impossible fucking task. Staying sober.... forever? Like what the fuck do you mean forever? My mind cant even rationalize it. Maybe a year. I could see quitting for a year. But forever? Fuck.
Im the least religious person youll find... but even I feel like the only way to do this is to find god. Like all the addicts say.
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Anonymous #31
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Mushrooms work for alcohol addiction. Weekly doses until you're on top of it then slowly space them out until you're every 4-6 weeks.
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Anonymous #30
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I like to drink a beer and lift weights. maybe change that mindset a bit. I like that buzz burn when I pound a beer and hit the weights. at my age I cant really get built muscles but my cardio and strengths are good. sorry bout your accident, that shit sucks, but a life time is such a long time. the phish song a DAY IS LONGER THAN A YEAR. make that day your year. get to just get some walking time, and maybe lift little weight on the walk. or find a couple tires to toss around the yard. Get that caveman grunt on. its okay to have a few drinks while trying to end drinking or cut down. just ween ween. at one time Id drink 12/20packs a day. now I drink like 4 in the evening followed with water. water seems to get that booze buzz going more, then eat some food, rest early. I find I like my 4 beer buzz more than I ever liked that sloshed all day feeling.
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Anonymous #24
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Dude make it a goal to go to the gym or something tomorrow. Just physically getting up and going to the gym and maybe doing something will make you feel better and like you accomplished something
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Anonymous #24
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After working the steps and being in the program for awhile you really start to actually enjoy being sober.
Working the program and being sober has allowed me to sort my mind out to the point where I dont have a desire for alcohol anymore. It gets really trippy after awhile honestly its hard for me to describe. I can deal with shit now.
Honestly what AA has done for me has given me this ability to not give a fuck but in the healthest least selfish way its hard to describe
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