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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#22720656 - 12/31/15 11:12 AM (8 years, 30 days ago) |
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Eeso, alcoholic (drunkard). Drunkalog biographical history - I remember stealing sips here and there as a kid from my parent's liquor closet. I didn't start really drinking until I turned 21. Then it was balls-to-the-wall, handles and handles of cheap vodka a week drinking the shit like water. Over the earlier part of my adult life I used to drunk-drive for recreation. Only charged with one DUI that was dismissed (at the cost of $3000 for the lawyer) I totaled several classic cars and my grandparents car, made tons of bad decisions, regrets that haunt me to this day - never-mind the multiple TBIs I sustained in accidents. In 2007 I went to a bar I used to be a bar-fly at for "one beer" to celibate my birthday after hitching back from the south, next thing I remember is waking up on my back on the concrete walk in front of the bar (after closing time). Apparently I was offensive to some low-life who clocked me in the face and knocked me out. Got a fractured skull out of that incident and a chronic sinus infection that haunted me for five years. In 2011 I totaled my truck on Xanax (higher dosage than I initially thought - I was already drunk when I took it) and vodka-on-the-rocks, rolling it three times, partially ejected through the windshield and being found clinically dead when the paramedics showed up, I have the unknown person that heard the wreck and called 911 and modern medicine to thank for being here today. Destroyed several romantic relationships (one that I still yearn for) from being drunk and saying things I did not really mean. My father is an active alcoholic, my grandfather was a dry alcoholic for my adult life until just before he passed.
These are all reasons I rationally shouldn't drink anymore, but I still do. I spend practically all of my money on the shit to boot. I was dry for three months in 2013, but that didn't last.
For all who read this wall of text - thank you.
TL;DR: I'm an active alcoholic who screwed his life and body up with the sauce.
It's cunning, baffling, powerful indeed.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Moabfighter]
#23881614 - 11/30/16 01:17 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Drugs and the Spiritual: Bill W. Takes LSD: http://hindsfoot.org/tcek03.pdf
I don't agree with the claim in that article that Bill W's use of LSD made him a "flawed individual." But it's a really good article about his use and beliefs of it.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#23882089 - 11/30/16 03:34 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Yeah there was one AA at a Mens Meeting I went to regularly that asked me to 'hook him up' after my bringing Bill W's use of it up at one of those meetings. (I did) I don't know how it worked out for him. A number of people I talked to 'in the rooms' were familiar with Bill's use of it via "Pass It On."
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: eeso]
#23882111 - 11/30/16 03:40 PM (7 years, 1 month ago) |
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Big Book: "we agnostics" That was one of the bigger issues for me with AA - the "Higher Power" thing.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: emosavagerabbit]
#24014511 - 01/16/17 12:10 PM (7 years, 13 days ago) |
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Be careful because grapefruit juice is a MAO inhibitor. Specifically grapefruit interferes with the function of the CYP3A4 enzyme.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: TheFakeSunRa]
#24026114 - 01/20/17 04:12 PM (7 years, 8 days ago) |
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TheFakeSunRa said: I've read "We Agnostics"
It offers nothing for me. In fact, it's so patronizing toward people who do not believe that I'm insulted by it.
I don't care about the literature because it completely disrespects my atheism
I don't give a shit about "spiritualism" because "spirits" do not exist. There's no supernatural force that keeps me sober. Not drinking keeps me sober.
I was told directly in a meeting that because I didn't believe in a "Higher Power" (when I said such) that AA "won't work" for me. Well I kept going.. and it worked, to fuck-up my psyche and following, my life situation.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: TheFakeSunRa]
#24028336 - 01/21/17 02:21 PM (7 years, 7 days ago) |
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TheFakeSunRa said: I'm sorry you had a bad experience. I feel like tradition three protects from that. Are you sober these days? I know you kind of already said but why do you think your experience went sour?
No I'm not 'sober' these days. I 'went back out' after my life-situation going to shit because of my refusal to go to a bar, and to instead go to a meeting. (people, places and things) I 'went back out' about three months after my three months in AA. So after six months dry.
And then there's the thing that you're not "sober" if you didn't do the 12 steps. You're just a "dry drunk."
I used to get high before meetings, I had, and still have, no issue with that, but when it came out in a room I got all sorts of shit for it. I don't see what's wrong with the "marijuana maintenance program." Other than that I don't care for weed intoxication much anymore. (I did at the time.)
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#24094596 - 02/16/17 06:18 AM (6 years, 11 months ago) |
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Thayendanegea said:
Alcohol is the great eraser.....It's primary use in the world is as a solvent....kinda ironic, isn't it.
"Intelligence is alcohol soluble."
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Shroomhunter53 said: Thought i would share a cool perspective I recently read,
By Zahrah Sita The word “alcohol” is said to come from the arabic term “Al-khul” which means “BODY-EATING SPIRIT” (also, is the origin of the term” ghoul”).
^This is erroneous.
True Etymology of the word "alcohol":
1540s (early 15c. as alcofol), "fine powder produced by sublimation," from Medieval Latin alcohol "powdered ore of antimony," from Arabic al-kuhul "kohl," the fine metallic powder used to darken the eyelids, from kahala "to stain, paint." The al- is the Arabic definite article, "the."
Paracelsus (1493-1541) used the word to refer to a fine powder but also a volatile liquid. By 1670s it was being used in English for "any sublimated substance, the pure spirit of anything," including liquids. Sense of "intoxicating ingredient in strong liquor" is first recorded 1753, short for alcohol of wine, which was extended to "the intoxicating element in fermented liquors." In organic chemistry, the word was extended 1850 to the class of compounds of the same type as this.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous [Re: eeso]
#24140800 - 03/06/17 10:10 AM (6 years, 10 months ago) |
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37 days sober for me today! Longest I've made it by far in years.
I'd like to recommend another forum specific to controlling/giving up drinking also I've found and think is great, no disrespect to this thread. https://www.reddit.com/r/stopdrinking/
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Enjoywho]
#24438548 - 06/27/17 06:20 AM (6 years, 6 months ago) |
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It's jokingly called the 13th step. '13th steppers'
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