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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy] 1
#22608254 - 12/03/15 10:50 AM (8 years, 1 month ago) |
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so i was clean for 5 days up until now had one beer wich led me into opening some wine. i never really realized how weak i am to alcohols pull
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Malcolm_Xtasy]
#22611288 - 12/03/15 11:48 PM (8 years, 1 month ago) |
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It's especially hard when it seems like everything people do revolves around drinking. Most stop at the weekend but I usually just keep drinking everyday until the weekend rolls around again I start the cycle all over again  I'm not going to let today stop me from my goal though. I made it 5 days I'm going for double or triple that
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Could you link it?
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#22637510 - 12/10/15 08:25 AM (8 years, 1 month ago) |
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nice job man! I'm realizing how much money I spend on alcohol and it's still not enough to stop me her grip is strong. I've been drinking pretty heavily since I was 16, I'm 23 now and I just realize that everyone my age is getting out of that heavy drinking phase but I'm stuck drinking every night religiously. I just can't stop for some reason
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea] 1
#22642348 - 12/11/15 11:46 AM (8 years, 1 month ago) |
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I remember one day after a long weekend of drinking and partying with my ex I went into to work and my boss is standing over me trying to help me with something on the computer and my hands were shaking so bad I couldn't even type. It was really embarrassing and scary.
I also remember seeing a show on (I think it was drugs inc or something) where the guy detoxing died because they didn't monitor his withdrawl symptoms close enough.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: ShroomyBudz]
#22715197 - 12/29/15 10:12 PM (8 years, 1 month ago) |
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ShroomyBudz said: If you all don't mind me asking.. I am trying to understand what some of my close friends are struggling with on a deeper level. They don't really like to open up.. What exactly draws you to wanting to drink, and what feeling does it provide you that makes it so appealing? I personally have tried to enjoy alcohol many many many times, and rarely do I ACTUALLY enjoy drinking.. 
Thank you in advance, much love.. 
-SB

i drank because it was fun and that was just the thing to do in my group of friends. before i knew it i was drinking every day and telling myself that it was all in god fun. now im dependent on it and have crushing anxiety without a drink.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: morrowasted]
#22742629 - 01/06/16 02:11 AM (8 years, 24 days ago) |
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So my longest was about four days with no alcoholic about a month ago. Been two days now and I'm going to give it another go. The depression is fucking crushing when you first stop, I have some kratom to help with the first few days but even that's only a bandaid. When did you guys notice that your cravings became less harsh?
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: yogabunny]
#22797909 - 01/19/16 07:25 AM (8 years, 11 days ago) |
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I was doing so well about, 6 days sober then fell off the wagon again was just getting back into working out and taking care of myself but then my shoulder injury started acting up again and I'm back in a chair getting drunk because I can't even go for a walk without extreme pain.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: micro]
#22933529 - 02/22/16 12:59 PM (7 years, 11 months ago) |
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I was sober about a week. Back on again. A week seems to be the most I can make it
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#22940786 - 02/24/16 12:50 PM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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soularize you just summed it up. its that drive for me that all ive done and haven't done that never stops. keeps me at a state of self loathing even when im active and doing all i can to forget that need. its just like it never ends in the back of my mind that i can cure all this with one sip of a liquid.
my current fuck up is im moving, got a new job with more pressure than i know what to do with, and my current female friend is over me. making that two exes that im working with. starting to lose my hair at 23 and i have no idea what the fuck is wrong. if i can cure all this crippling pain with a sip then im honestly saying fuck it. i have valium so im going to give it one more shot to taper but fuck just feel like theres no point anymore
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Soularize]
#22943316 - 02/25/16 02:06 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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JustForToday said: Shane alcoholic.. I came to share tonight.. I got my heart broken really bad recently.. Almost beyond repair.. I haven't drink. I'm going to meetings and crying my eyes out. Its hard yo accept I can never have this woman and it hurts so terrible.. I've been in another world.. That's all I got..
i feel you man, just lost a women myself. but you can never give up hope. when you're up its never as good as it seems and when you're down you never think you're going to be up again but life goes on.Quote:
Soularize said: Thanks for the response Thay.
I was actually in AA when I was about 18, and again for another stretch when I was 21. I have to be honest, I really did not feel like I fit in there at all, and it had nothing to do with me not thinking I had a problem etc. I've always had an easy time admitting that I'm an alcoholic, so there's no denial in me about it, and that was about a decade ago. I really didn't find a lot of people that I could relate to beyond the fact that we were all afflicted, and maybe that's the point? I don't know, just seemed like all the people I met in AA just wanted to go hang out at Denny's, smoke cigarettes, drink coffee, and talk more about sobriety and the big book. You all state that AA isn't religious, but you must surely be able to see how the program can at least feel and appear that way to certain people?
The fact that you guys will tell a person with total conviction that if they don't follow your 12 steps, and only these exact 12 steps, that they won't be able to stay sober, is simply BS. I bought into that when I was a kid. As an adult, I've met quite a few people who were absolute trainwrecks of addicts and alchys at some point, but then managed to get sober and stay that way for years...without AA.
AA is but one option, and I'm happy for anyone who benefits from it to the point that it essentially saves their life, but I think the program's whole statement of "our way or the highway" is both arrogant and misleading. I do believe that for someone to stay sober, they simply have to WANT it more than they want to drink, and I'm pretty sure that's been my problem. Also you mentioned the most important of the 12 steps involved helping others, which anyone can do within or outside of AA.
Am I really supposed to believe, that in this vast universe, there are only literally 12 exact steps that one must follow to get sober? Really? The odds of that seem astronomically slim to me. And to be fair, isn't the efficacy rate of AA something like 10% or less? I'm not totally trying to knock AA here, but it sure feels like there must be other routes to sobriety for those who don't feel like they fit in as well with the AA crowd.
for the majority of people AA does not work
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#22944301 - 02/25/16 10:40 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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thanks guys i really do appreciate everyone on this site who trys to help others when they can. maybe i should just go in listen. when anything gets rough first thing i go for is the bottle. ive cut out hard alcohol which i think has saved me a shit ton of hell but i still drink every day. wine is a big thing for me because i get it for free. hard as fuck to stop when ive been drinking pretty heavily since 16.
ive been slapped in the face by psilocybin so many timesi cant count literally telling me through music or other mediums " when is this going to stop?!?!? when youre dead?!" but my stuborn ass just keeps going back and i dont know why
i need to learn to take my teachers words to heart but, im just lost. its the only thing thats consistently been there for me in my life.
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: JustForToday]
#22958226 - 02/29/16 10:46 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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still cant make it past a few days. not sure what hope i have lately no days i can stay sober, sad to say
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#23009002 - 03/15/16 10:41 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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at least you fed some people that needed it. dosent 90 bucks worth of jack in the box weigh a lot? anyways i made it two days without a drink. then i broke today and got something . its a vicious cycle. just being left without anything to cure the boredom and self loathing is hard. im going to continue to work at it though, cant give up
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: JustForToday]
#23151221 - 04/24/16 07:13 PM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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JustForToday said: Just wanted to share I am sober 2 years today

Before sobriety and after!!
my bad
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Thayendanegea]
#24671108 - 09/29/17 07:00 PM (6 years, 3 months ago) |
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one week sober from alcohol and have cut back a shit ton! feel very proud and strong
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Anonymous #24]
#27211523 - 02/17/21 04:27 PM (2 years, 11 months ago) |
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I was at a month but I fucked up and drank a little bottle of sake from my vacation I’m still sticking with it but my girl chewed the fuck out of me, rightfully so I guess
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Doc9151]
#27213741 - 02/18/21 08:05 PM (2 years, 11 months ago) |
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I'm so sorry to hear that buddy its really a shame they keep these poisons so glorified
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Re: Alcoholics Anonymous (Come and share thread) [Re: Doc9151]
#27213812 - 02/18/21 08:57 PM (2 years, 11 months ago) |
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Try to stay strong for the ones you love, it hurts to hear everything you have going on. Ill keep you in my thoughts and send whatever good vibrations I can your way. I hope things will turn sound for you my friend  I know it can be so hard to put on a good face when the ones around you are hurting
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