Last night, I had an incredible experience on 5g PE. About 1.5 hours into the trip, the colors and visuals slowly faded away and became very very dull. I was slipping into dull browns and greys, and I thought my brain was slowly dying. I've had several trips where really strange things happened, and it felt like a second ego took over, dominated by a greenish-yellow hue. Things were askew, like, I have a second personality, or self in my brain triggered by intense trips. This time, it happened again, and it's incredibly fearful to me. My eyes dancing back and forth like being really drunk. Not really ego loss or ego death as I understand it, but it could be. I couldn't focus my eyes, or, think clearly, but not the "normal" confusion of an intense trip. I was convinced my brain was dying, and I had limited life left in me. Several time I wanted to call 911, because it was so frightening. I thought of my girlfriend at work, whom I love more than anything, and how she would come home to discover my lifeless body, and all I could think of was the sadness my loved ones would feel at my death. I texted my father, and several other people that I loved them immensely, without going into detail that I was dying. I lied down in my bed and waited for death, the sadness of knowing my end was inevitable. It was the strangest thing ever, my life was flashing before my eyes. I started a text message to my girlfriend, frantically trying to finish it before I died, so she could know how I felt about her, and not to worry about me, or be sad at my passing. I left this world and lost about half an hour of memory when I "died." I came to gasping for breath, completely invigorated, like I had been underwater for and extended period, and breached the surface for air. When this air filled my lungs, I knew I was alive and wasn't going to die anymore. The colors of the trip returned, and my "main" ego/personality was again in control of my self. To think I was dying, that my brain stopped working, and I had limited time before I faded into death was one of the scariest moments of my life. I really knew I was dying and would finally see if I would wake up in an afterlife, and be judged by whatever God exists. I have always said, if the Abrahamic God was real, and Hell is real, I would deny Him to his face, and judge HIM to be evil for creating Hell.
An amazing experience, really. It wasn't merely letting go, but I was positive I was going to slowly lose conciousness and die.
-------------------- PrimalSoup's Tea Tek
   "I always say the tea is like eating a burning tire covered in dog shit while someone steps on your nuts. Good luck!" "Hell, shrooms have blown up from under me and kicked my ass on 2 grams once." "I think ill eat some shrooms right about now, and ill continue to until it doesnt feel like the right thing to do."
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