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TrippieHunter
Swagger of a cripple


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Hang in there buddy. Did you take the methadone to get high? If not don't be so hard on yourself. The kicks of RLS will send most straight to their dealer.
Just be honest with yourself and you'll make it bro!!!
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



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Well I wanted to sleep I think, but there's also that sorta junkie logic, 'now is better than later' I can handle RLS but once that restlessness grows into my back, neck, and shoulders, that can be a bit much. I had only missed one nights sleep tho, which is nothing. It's not like I had somewhere to be today.
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TrippieHunter
Swagger of a cripple


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you're alright bro. better to use it now than later. I know what you're going through and it isn't easy man. You can do, and fuck one day at a time. Try
one hour at a time.
-------------------- Just remember keep the camera rolling and FILM THE POLICE!!! CLICK ME WHO'S SIDE ARE YOU ON? CLICK ME TOO! Let it go and you will trip into wonderland!
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zZZz
jesus


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sure aint gonna be easy, good luck man 
i'd def consider switching over to weed, that's like the universal medicine nowadays.. works for everything.. "can't sleep?, tire went flat?, no problemo!, just hit this shit dawg!"
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



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Re: My latest kick attempt... [Re: zZZz]
#22507161 - 11/10/15 09:21 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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I actually just smoked a bit for the first time in a couple days, and it does help as long as I don't overdo it, which can be hard so I sometimes think I am better off without it most of the time. It never really helped me with sleep tho. It actually keeps me up, but it definitely helps with appetite and helps me think about things more clearly for a bit.
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



Registered: 07/01/05
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53 hours clean. Not sure I will be able to pull this off, very touch and go, but I'm going to keep sticking it out as long as I can. Last time I slept was 5 hours on monday night. My record is 5 days not sleeping, and after that even I usually get 1-2 hours only at first. Guess I could try to get sleep meds, but if they don't end up working they make me feel 10x worse and I lose my good judgement.
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Lucis
Nutritional Yeast

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woot woot, I was just thinking about this thread while making my morning coffee.
I know what you mean when you say you don't know if you can make it, I really hope and think you can.
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



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Re: My latest kick attempt... [Re: Lucis]
#22512677 - 11/12/15 06:07 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yeah I just know if I use again it will start the clock over, or even make things worse. drives me nuts that in 30 mins I could be fine tho, even just for a day.
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Lucis
Nutritional Yeast

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yeah, I feel ya.
when I was living near ATL I lived 45 mins away from the dope spot, would kinda like being a bit sick and riding down GA400 blasting music and cussing all the slow drivers out, made me feel alive, sucked when I felt like I would shit my pants anticipating the dope though, also gagging on cigarettes made me puke a few times.
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



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Re: My latest kick attempt... [Re: Lucis]
#22512782 - 11/12/15 07:09 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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oh man I was really so close to cracking for a minute there. Just flailing around all night and knowing that they were opening shop. I waited and I feel slightly better. I just want to sleep, but lying in bed is torture. Much better to be up watching something or walking around. I can eat, I can walk, I have internet and cable tv here. I really shouldn't complain.
I think the thing that stopped me is I didn't want to have to lie. It's almost like I forget that I care about being an honest person sometimes, especially to the people who would do anything for me.
Anyways thanks for the responses man. You've helped me out.
Another hour down.
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



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Well I've just talked to a potential employer, and am meeting with them on Weds. Still feel like shit, but no going back now. Really hoping I feel ok by then at least. Usually I am good at putting a good face when I need to, so this will probably be the best thing for me.
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Rebelutionsssss
Mdmazing



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Good luck man! I hope everything works out for you!! Stay strong
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



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Thanks. Yeah I can't believe I nailed a bunch of interviews in a row all strung out, but I was too scared to take the jobs while using. They're being persistent though, it's nice to be in demand for once. It's actually something I think I can make a career out of too, but if I am on dope I will definitely screw it up sooner or later.
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



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Holee fuck. I just went to the car I was going to go grab something. I thought I should bring a pin, so I went back in. Now I am sitting here trying to stop myself. I sat down and turned on the news and a 17 year old girl the next state over just died of a fent OD I guess, and they are charging two guys with her death.
Just a couple more days. More or less at 60h now. Can't give in so easy.
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yogabunny
fancy cat



Registered: 11/01/09
Posts: 11,281
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You CAN DO IT!!!!
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



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Re: My latest kick attempt... [Re: yogabunny]
#22513883 - 11/12/15 12:57 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Thank you. I had to get a little mad at myself. I might fuck up tomorrow, but not today!
I went to get some McDonalds and a couple drinks instead. Not ideal and I may regret it later, but the lesser two of three evils for sure.
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TrippieHunter
Swagger of a cripple


Registered: 04/05/15
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Stay strong, you are almost out of the worst of it! Good luck with the job, that will help immensely.
-------------------- Just remember keep the camera rolling and FILM THE POLICE!!! CLICK ME WHO'S SIDE ARE YOU ON? CLICK ME TOO! Let it go and you will trip into wonderland!
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



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Thanks man. What a fucking day. I managed to hold out though. I did just go and buy some nice weed, but I don't think that will be a problem. Might even help me sleep, definitely will help me eat and exercise.
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TrippieHunter
Swagger of a cripple


Registered: 04/05/15
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Smoke that shit until you pass out if it keeps you from using. Getting up and moving always helps too, it's just so fucking hard to actually get up.
-------------------- Just remember keep the camera rolling and FILM THE POLICE!!! CLICK ME WHO'S SIDE ARE YOU ON? CLICK ME TOO! Let it go and you will trip into wonderland!
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yogabunny
fancy cat



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Hey Moonrock -
I wanted to share this video with you. It's a little bit woo woo, but it's been helping me so I figured I would pass it along.
I have been practicing kundalini recently, and came across this, and decided to add it in to my morning practice two days ago. I wasn't even really trying to stop drinking because I've been doing so well with just having one or two glasses of wine a day, but since I started this meditation, or kriya, as they call it in kundalini, I have not really even craved a glass of wine. If it doesn't work while you're still withdrawing, maybe it's just something to keep in mind.
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