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Heisencybin
Heisencybin



Registered: 02/16/15
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Loc: Ohio
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The night I died countless times...
#22494320 - 11/08/15 05:38 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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This was at the ripe age of 17. Doing well in school, sports. Beginning to experience with substances. I loved lsd. Started small and before I knew it, we have a stable connect and I was taking 3 hits almost every weekend. Well one niggt, I wasn't in the best frame of mind, just ended a relationship etc. I swear these hits were overdosed. Minimum 150 mcg per hit.
The night started out fun with Mrs butters worth giggling and smiling in my ear. I tried to put on never ending story with my buddy on my vhs, but the cords multiplied and I gave up quickly. I stood up, and picked a hair out of my mouth, but when I did this, I realized many more hairs suddenly in my mouth. I then looked at my hand and saw I now had a cat paw for a hand... and so was my other hand. I d Giggled and began walking around the floor meowing at my friend and in a fit go giggles. We put on guitar hero and I watched as the visuals, geometric kaleidoscopice patterns immersed the rooms with rainbow auras. I was esctactic.
Before long, I became a little dizzy and stared at a wall behind me, which began to split diagonally. The top was a light blue with insane visuals while the bottom half was red. I became more dizzy and laid down but continued to stare at the wall until I was busted out of body for the next 4-5 hours...
I then had the most terrifying experience of my life. I experienced death in every way imaginable over and over and over and over countless times. Well over the hundreds. I died of overdose, stabbing, shot, car crash, sickness etc. All of it. But this is how it would set itself up...
I would die, then a new scenario came about where I was present in a situation to make a decision. These were real life situations and there was a good and bad choice to take. I was continously forced to choose the wrong path and would die a horrific death, repeat.
At this point I accepted that I was dead for thousands of years, that I was stuck in some sort of hell, and all of humanity kr had ready come and gone. I began looking for ways to really kill myself before these situations escalated, but considering I was out of body, I had little control over my actions. I was hearing sirens all night. I felt people performing CPR on my body countless times. I felt puke on my chest with my hand from my many overdose deaths. It was all so real I and accepted that I was stuck here forever...
Until finally, I was able to breakthrough and choose the right choice in these played out scenarios. All of the sudden, I was back in the basement and everything turned from a deep red over glow to a light blue aura around the room. I was in shock I was still alive, that humanity was still a thing... I even went outside to double check nothing had really changed
I learned a lot that night and how I needed to change my lifestyle and even suffered a bit of PT SD from such an intense experience. I died hundreds of times that night while out of body for 4-5 hours straight. I am alive and have grown from that night. It has made me a better person, but with an awareness I was probably too young to comprehend. I am almost 25 now and can understand the implications of this one special night in more depth. But holy fuck, I never want to go out of body on lsd again and believe I am dead for what felt like thousands of years and also experience death and pain the way I did in my own personal hell.
Hope you enjoyed my story. There are plent more details, but you get the gist. LSD is one hell of a drug play safe kidsh
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Bigfeely123
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Re: The night I died countless times... [Re: Heisencybin]
#22494412 - 11/08/15 06:33 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Good read. Damn... I'm surprised you didn't freak out more than that. At any time did you go into fight or flight mode?
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voodoochild1000
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Re: The night I died countless times... [Re: Bigfeely123]
#22494586 - 11/08/15 07:55 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Sounds ridonkulous
-------------------- ....."So Great!"....-Me on 1.5mg LSD ...."We don't need this" -Larkin in response to my "just picked wild LSD!" post
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Heisencybin
Heisencybin



Registered: 02/16/15
Posts: 1,020
Loc: Ohio
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I had no time to go into fight or flight. It was too quick. I felt a little dizzy and woozy like I needed to sit down as I felt the intensity build up extremely quickly within each second. Before I know it, I'm stating at the wall as it distorts and I'm beginning to get confused and overwhelmed only for a few seconds, then bam! Shot straight through the wall I was staring at into another realm of trippy, yet realistic situations where I was more of an observer in my body with lack of self control
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