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satch1234
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Schools out for summer (bitch slapped) 2
#22478067 - 11/04/15 07:46 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Finished my last exam for the year this morning! So exciting So I'm on my way home thinking of that sweet lsd I have stashed away, the thriving cacti garden, the DMT I haven't touched in months , drooling.
I get in the door, have a quick tidy up and put some icaros on for background effect to get me in the mood .
Now unfortunately for me I had adopted I pretty intense cigarette habit over the last few months during study, now in hindsight I have been waking up with stinking breath, feeling like shit, clearing my throat every 3 minutes.... you know that usual shit.
But this knowledge was all alluding me a couple hours ago.. I grab the pipe and venture out in the sunshine for some much needed dmt interaction. I pack it big with enhanced leaf, I know this stuff I remember it, strong, good batch.... I Let all my breath out in a long exhale, and put my lips on the pipe, icaros singing.. long inhale the familiar taste, o fuck its still good and its coming fast.
In my minds eye I see the smoke going down my throat to meet a lung full of tar and disgust! I cringe, O fuck, a million pins and needles take over me, inside and out running out under my skin where it was outbreaking from that shit corporate poison. I see myself days before hunting around for butts like a junkie, I cringe again. The punishment for mistreating the temple. The punishment for giving in. Another scenario is played out where I let my friend talk me into doing something stupid a week ago, giving into fear and insecurity.
The trip is then balanced by some rainbows and some positive aspects, the beautiful things around me, the things i can change, I must became strong and powerful so powerful that I can fight for beauty without ever giving in, to do this starts with treatment of the body, and it will all follow.
Shhhit needed that was a good welcome back to realm.
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Re: Schools out for summer (bitch slapped) [Re: satch1234]
#22478570 - 11/04/15 09:56 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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DMT is always like a reset. I was getting down on myself and negative, it had been a month or two since my last breakthrough... Well it cleared my bitchyness up instantly and I was ashamed for acting like that almost instantly. Sometimes it's like you get stuck in your head and DMT explodes you out of that mindset and it's like you've been extroverted.
Have you looked into vaping? I quit smoking it's been 10 months smoke free with vaping. I feel great when I wake up. No coughing, no lung pain, taste great doesn't fuck with your breath, and no smell on you or your car/house.
Have fun with your LSD I plan to sneak a trip in this weekend if I don't have to work.
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satch1234
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Re: Schools out for summer (bitch slapped) [Re: Eggtimer]
#22478842 - 11/04/15 10:57 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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O no shit man I gotta get vaping!
Yes I feel when I am sober I am almost squinting at reality, which leads to fucked up behavior, then when the psychs hit my eyes widen, take it all in, feel my body, and reset
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Re: Schools out for summer (bitch slapped) [Re: satch1234]
#22479016 - 11/04/15 11:56 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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satch1234 said: O no shit man I gotta get vaping!
Yes I feel when I am sober I am almost squinting at reality, which leads to fucked up behavior, then when the psychs hit my eyes widen, take it all in, feel my body, and reset
Edit: Holy fucking shit I smoked way too much hash before typing this so sorry.
I know you're a more rational type of person but have you tried self-inquiry/mediation? This isn't all hippy dippy bullshit and I'll try to explain the science behind it.
Basically there's a center in your brain known as the default mode network. Part of this creates a constant self referential narrative that keeps you from feeling at peace/content/happy. You can function fine and usually better with it off. I've noticed a huge amount of extra mental energy and stamina. It was like I was running my brain on redline before constantly every second that I was awake. Now it's like I'm sailing smoothly through my day/life. Part of the default mode network creates the sense of self(I). One theory is that it evolved in response to civilization and complexity. Psychedelics and/or self-inquiry can turn this off. From my experience being stuck in the (I) feeling is what causes the narrow ugly view like seeing the world "through the glass darkly." For example thinking oh "shit I gotta do this now?!" or "I can't believe so and so did this" or the feeling like your day was 80 hours long rather than 8. For me there was often times a sense of impending doom and gloom.
Self-inquiry really changed my everyday life with the help of psychedelics. I'm basically living outside of time and have very few thoughts if I don't want to. I don't worry constantly for no reason like I used to. I didn't know I had a choice in the matter! My mind is calm all the time and I feel like I'm observing so much more of my world. I see beauty in almost everything and everyone.
Before this I hated basically everything and myself because I thought my anxiety and inability to talk to people freely without tensing up was forever. Time moved like a slug now it flies like a hawk 
Here is a video explaining the science"yes it does appear to be real science" behind the concept. This guy has a lot of other good videos on it and tends to take a more scientific approach rather than spiritual. 8 minutes
Here is a video explaining what self-inquiry is and how to do it
Here's something close to my current vaping set up and it's cheap as fuck... I spent over $100 on mine. The battery charges last FORFUCKINGEVER and you can even charge phones and shit off of it. http://www.myvaporstore.com/Innokin-iTaste-MVP-3-0-Pro-Starter-kit-p/ink-mvp3pa.htm The tank should make huge clouds and taste great it's similar to mine... Right now I have a kanger sub-tank nano
There are so many vaper flavors it's mind blowing. To start I would buy 2 12mg nicotine bottles one that was high in PG the other high in VG. The mix the ratio with VG/PG% I don't recall right now but one is smooth and one is harsh. It creates what they call a throat hit which makes it a little more similar to smoking. Some people like it for others it makes it way too harsh and overwhelming.
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satch1234
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Re: Schools out for summer (bitch slapped) [Re: Eggtimer]
#22479165 - 11/05/15 12:52 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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I checked out the video man cheers! I've actually spent far more of my life investigating spiritual practice than science! I bought "Be Here Now' when i was 15-16 it took me on a wild ride, loved it, the entire eastern scene, I travelled through hindu countries, tripping, opium, reading buddhist text. I actually have a huge Ganesha flag on my wall that I'm staring at right now, with others around my house.
I'm actually not entirely sure what changed or when.. you know I think it was shulgin, someone played me some shulgin rant, he was waxing poetic about neurology, receptors, chem, it just hit me like WOOW, it clicked with me and allowed me to integrate some questionable nBOMe experiences and such. Here I am studying science years later.
Absolutely there are some practices that show fantastic results, just meditating can stop a stupid decision in its tracks. Im happy! Im free! Its algood! Probably abused the shit out of mdma a few to many times which may result in the odd flat day, but its was worth it 
I haven't smoked at all after the deemz today, don't even feel like it! Its great! Going to wake up tomorrow make some fresh juice and drop a couple hundred mics 
Now that vape tho mmm, bet that shit taste good.
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Re: Schools out for summer (bitch slapped) [Re: satch1234]
#22479194 - 11/05/15 01:03 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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satch1234 said: I checked out the video man cheers! I've actually spent far more of my life investigating spiritual practice than science! I bought "Be Here Now' when i was 15-16 it took me on a wild ride, loved it, the entire eastern scene, I travelled through hindu countries, tripping, opium, reading buddhist text. I actually have a huge Ganesha flag on my wall that I'm staring at right now, with others around my house.
I'm actually not entirely sure what changed or when.. you know I think it was shulgin, someone played me some shulgin rant, he was waxing poetic about neurology, receptors, chem, it just hit me like WOOW, it clicked with me and allowed me to integrate some questionable nBOMe experiences and such. Here I am studying science years later.
Absolutely there are some practices that show fantastic results, just meditating can stop a stupid decision in its tracks. Im happy! Im free! Its algood! Probably abused the shit out of mdma a few to many times which may result in the odd flat day, but its was worth it 
I haven't smoked at all after the deemz today, don't even feel like it! Its great! Going to wake up tomorrow make some fresh juice and drop a couple hundred mics 
Now that vape tho mmm, bet that shit taste good.
All good.
I'm in the states so not sure if you could get those there but there should be tons available. Right now I got à la mode by a company called the simple vapor co. It taste really good. Sweet in the best possible way. I also got BV4 by a company called mayhem.
Also I've got a hash pen I use with my vape. There's almost no smell and gets you high as fuck.
It won't be as good but there are guides on youtube how to make your own at home.
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satch1234
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Re: Schools out for summer (bitch slapped) [Re: Eggtimer]
#22479202 - 11/05/15 01:07 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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You guys are on another level over there..
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