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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#22512396 - 11/12/15 02:10 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Getting down on yourself definitely won't do any good. Sometimes it is worth the sacrifice to get a bit of sleep, long as you don't go backwards. I would certainly take it right now if I had it. Flopping around like a fucking fish here. Made it 48 hours tho.
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Rustifer
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I for sure have a bit of a buzz off of it, tolerance is such a weird thing.
I'm not really upset about it or anything. It's only tramadol. I don't think it's going to set my withdrawals back any. I hope it's just a little break from the depression and lethargy I've been putting up off and on the past two months.
Keep it up man. It will be over soon. If it get's to be too much, if you end up about to go score tomorrow, take tiny slivers of sub until you're alright. Subs can be a good tool to withdrawal from if you use them for a very short period. 1-2 1mg strips can over 4-5 days can really reduce the amount of pain you have to deal with.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#22512427 - 11/12/15 02:30 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Tramadol got me off pod tea. I snagged 500 pills for maybe 100 bucks after international shipping. I knew I'd need them some day. Proud to say I got sober to finish grad school and our wedding. Suffice to say that didn't last long since drunk kids like to run stop signs leading onto highways.
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Rustifer
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#22512444 - 11/12/15 02:38 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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oh damn dys you have a phd? What is it in?
Sounds like you got it later in life? I really want to go back to school. I tried twice in my early 20s to go to college, and had to drop all my courses due to getting strung out. I'm hoping this coming up year or the one after to go back. Community college at 30. I expected so much more out of myself.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#22512465 - 11/12/15 02:45 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Somewhere in mid 20s, but no, it's a master's degree. I decided against any doctoral programs, but did manage to get published a few times which was neat. Scholarly articles and some fiction. Articles paid nothing but a pat on the back and self satisfaction, the fiction got me 50 bucks each and free copies of the publication.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#22512517 - 11/12/15 03:19 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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What's your degree in?
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: The Moose]
#22515174 - 11/12/15 06:21 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Hey when you guys are in withdrawal do your eyes get all fucked up? I've been seeing double and shit and everything is all hard to focus on. I don't remember this particular symptom ever before, maybe it's just cuz I've been awake since tuesday morning. It makes it very hard to drive., and I'm wondering if my eyes are just permanently fucked now.
I just let a kid roll some cigarettes outside a store, and he was like, "what's wrong with you, you geeking?" because I was shaking apparently. Maybe also because my pupils are huge at night, looking at him seeing double and shit, wearing 3 hoodies in 50 deg weather. I guess people can tell, would hate to have to work like this, but I could swear things are getting better. I got some weed and that helps alot. If that doesn't knock me out I have 2 nips. If I can't sleep tonight then maybe tomorrow.
Man I'm so glad I didn't crack today. I would feel like such shit if I did.
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Rustifer
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You made it through day 3! Awesome man. It goes downhill from here.
What are nips?
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#22516082 - 11/12/15 10:10 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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The little 50 ml bottles of alcohol. Whiskey in this case.
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hex_enduction said: Damn I remember you from back when you made that thread. You've really not relapsed since?? That's amazing, weren't you doing fentanyl all day every day for like weeks/months?
Also, there's a user on here with a very similar name who has similar addiction problems with opiates, especially fentanyl.
Yup. I still worry about the permanent damage ive caused to my heart and you know the difference in feeling things.. but not too bad of a bargain. A complete life change helps soo much.
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moonrockmushy said: Hey when you guys are in withdrawal do your eyes get all fucked up? I've been seeing double and shit and everything is all hard to focus on. I don't remember this particular symptom ever before, maybe it's just cuz I've been awake since tuesday morning. It makes it very hard to drive., and I'm wondering if my eyes are just permanently fucked now.
I just let a kid roll some cigarettes outside a store, and he was like, "what's wrong with you, you geeking?" because I was shaking apparently. Maybe also because my pupils are huge at night, looking at him seeing double and shit, wearing 3 hoodies in 50 deg weather. I guess people can tell, would hate to have to work like this, but I could swear things are getting better. I got some weed and that helps alot. If that doesn't knock me out I have 2 nips. If I can't sleep tonight then maybe tomorrow.
Man I'm so glad I didn't crack today. I would feel like such shit if I did.
Yeah, i remember that. Its probably your dilated pupils taking in excess light. It looked like i was tripping balls when i stopped, lol. And my advice for the inability to sleep would be to instead of trying to sleep, just keep your mind occupied. Thats the biggest thing when your sick is to keep your mind occupied as much as possible for those first couple days. Weed definitely helps, just smoke and keep your mind occupied with a movie or something. Alcohol was useless for me. Drink damn near a whole bottle and kill my stomach and i was barely buzzed. Theyre both CNS depressants and alcohol aint shit compared to fent or h. pm me if need some more advice man. Glad youre working towards being healthy.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: LSDreams]
#22517735 - 11/13/15 11:36 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yeah I think it is the light contrast that fucks with me. Like driving in the dark, being in sunlight or watching TV in a dark room.
Yeah I try to at least lie down a couple hours, but I'm always listening to music or watching movies or playing guitar. I actually love drinking when I'm sick, for like an hour or two at least it feels great, but even a little hangover can be brutal. Just one drink right before bed is usually ok tho, and sometimes it lets me doze for an hour.
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Cowb0yNeal00 said: Where yall at? Please dont say dead.
Im still hanging in there.
Its not as romantic, being a junky, as when i was younger. Friends have died, health is failing and time is mocking me.
Im sick more often than i am high and work very hard to give every penny to drug dealers who cant even deliver a consistent product.
I envy the dead.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Apostle] 2
#22518461 - 11/13/15 03:05 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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30 days tomorrow evening.
The only time I think about it is when my back really really really hurts. Like can't get out of bed until I stretch out a knot. I was driving this morning and the damn thing was a white hot poker right from my lower back up to my shoulder blades. I reached for my instant release oxy's and realized I didn't have them anymore. I didn't crave want or "need" them, but at least it's a reminder that I can live my life without them.
Then I went and found a bunch of stunning mushrooms and a new patch!
Keep at it boys. The first few days I was sick I just laid in bed puffing away on some Gumby Kush until I couldn't think anymore. I've never smoked so much weed in my life than during that first week. At least a half ounce if not more. If I was awake and breathing, I was 
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#22518915 - 11/13/15 04:42 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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I'll be at 4 tomorrow, but I'm making it to 30 goddammit. I am smoking a bunch, but probably only like .5g/day cause it stops working if I overdo it.
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<--addict. I've stayed away from opiates because I know I would never come back. Alcohol seems to be getting the best of me though..
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: TheMovement]
#22520090 - 11/13/15 09:22 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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To everyone who is struggling, try to keep your heads up! I have almost 180 since my last shot of methamphetamine, and since mid 2008 since my last opiate relapse. I have been low lately as I have actually come to realize everything I pissed away to drug addiction but lately it's helped me to stay stronger. It was hell for a very long time and shit got way worse right after getting off meth again but it has been very rewarding to continue to stay away from that shit. Stay strong and God bless
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: BoomRad]
#22520103 - 11/13/15 09:24 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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BoomRad said: To everyone who is struggling, try to keep your heads up! I have almost 180 since my last shot of methamphetamine, and since mid 2008 since my last opiate relapse. I have been low lately as I have actually come to realize everything I pissed away to drug addiction but lately it's helped me to stay stronger. It was hell for a very long time and shit got way worse right after getting off meth again but it has been very rewarding to continue to stay away from that shit. Stay strong and God bless
Thank you for your post. Stay stong man. Everyone regrets something, but you can look back and you can't stand still, gotta keep on truckin
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Love this thread. Almost 5 years since my last shot of dope. Was 18 years old and homeless. Over 4 since I last drank alcohol. DMT and shrooms on occasion as a spiritual tool. The visuals and body high are just a bonus. Stay strong!
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God, I had an opportunity to buy heroin. I wish I had
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: TNK]
#22520230 - 11/13/15 09:48 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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I'm wanking and fuckin my dick raw the past week what is this lol. I feel like I'm 20 again.
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