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LSDreams
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moonrockmushy said: Ehh I'm getting fat and I drink too much, but I'm less miserable than I've been in years so I'm calling it a win.
Eh thats a step away from hell alright. And also i usually gain some weight too after being stuck in the opiate trench that long, but for some reason this time my metabolism kicked into overload or something. Im always fucking hungry and shit like 3 times a day. And i even lost a little weight too im pretty sure? Such contrast from before, i had to take a laxative everytime i knew i had to goto the bathroom and i hardly ever ate.
Also you should trade that booze for cannabis man, i mean it may not seem as bad as opiates but i dont want you to go through a different withdrawal if youre drinking that much. Weed helped get back on my feet when i wasnt sick but just feeling empty.
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: LSDreams]
#23778209 - 10/27/16 08:14 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yeah weed just bugs me out these days for the most part. I think alot of it is my inability to feel okay. I have to settle for this sick mania. I know I need to stop drinking though i have drank every night for 8 weeks and 3 days now. The same amount of time I have been free of opiates. Strange coincidence
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kakashi68
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moonrockmushy said: Yeah weed just bugs me out these days for the most part. I think alot of it is my inability to feel okay. I have to settle for this sick mania. I know I need to stop drinking though i have drank every night for 8 weeks and 3 days now. The same amount of time I have been free of opiates. Strange coincidence 
a distorted reality is a necessity to be free
-------------------- You know, just sometimes in between the first cigarette with coffee in the morning to that 400th glass of cornershop piss at 3am--you do sometimes look at yourself and think--this is fantastic. I'm in heaven. -Bernard Black
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: kakashi68]
#23778248 - 10/27/16 08:23 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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If you know a way to get it for free clue me in.
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Mush 4 Brains
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: LSDreams]
#23779897 - 10/28/16 12:11 PM (7 years, 3 months ago) |
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LSDreams said:
Also you should trade that booze for cannabis man, i mean it may not seem as bad as opiates but i dont want you to go through a different withdrawal if youre drinking that much. Weed helped get back on my feet when i wasnt sick but just feeling empty.
I agree, it's definitely better to stick with just the weed mostly if possible. Alcohol ocasionally has the nasty habbit of kicking my cravings into full swing. Plus of course you're more impulsive when drunk too. And worst of all you become dependent on it on a daily basis easily if youre using it as a dope replacement. Which seems like what Moonrock has got going on now. I was there, still trying to cut down my drinking.
I gotta say, personally i feel that the initial come up/rush of a few fat swigs of hard alcohol is comparable to an opiate come up. But once that rush fades it all goes downhill. I often get emotional or mean with people that stress me out or duck with me in any minor way. So a lot of times i prefer to drink alone when i do.
I have a huge alcohol tolerence, its scary how much i can drink and still be functional and seem sober. Keyword is seem. I can get into a state with alcohol where i should be unconcious but im up doing weird, risky or stupid shit i shouldn't.
My friends and family have been around me enough to know when im drunk. I don't slur or stagger, but im out of my mind drunk still. But anyways yeah, MJ ftw.
When i was using i didn't really smoke much, not like i used to. I rediscovered mj when i quit early last spring. At first i hated how i felt after smoking it. I'd get so anxious, worried, paranoid, and sometimes even have somewhat intense panic attacks. Then I'd get this feeling like my heart was beating out of my chest but irregularly/out of rhythm, id have like butterflies and knots in the pit of my stomach, and id like forget how to breathe right and would be like almost hyperventilating.
My mind would be racing worrying about everyone and everything at once. Id start to see all the flaws in my life, think about the things i should or shouldn't be doing. After a while the panic would fade away, and id get the munchies and chill out lol.
Even though i didnt like the unpleasant feelings i began smoking just because i was so depressed and felt so empty after quitting dope. I smoked just to feel anything at all.
But i started to use those difficult experiences smoking would cause to my benefit. I began to be able to think rationally, talk the anxiety away in my head. Id ask myself questions like "is there anything thats going to harm me now? Is this or that something i can control etc.."
After i calmed down id get really introspective while high and be able to examine things really closely and come up with solutions, realizations, epiphanies. I began frequently writing in a journal too which helped me a lot with processing my feelings. I learned a lot about myself..
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#23826249 - 11/12/16 03:37 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Rustifer said:

Where are you, you big quitter? Miss you homesliz.
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kakashi68
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fuck me. First fucking cold in 5 years. More people should know opiates cure the common cold
-------------------- You know, just sometimes in between the first cigarette with coffee in the morning to that 400th glass of cornershop piss at 3am--you do sometimes look at yourself and think--this is fantastic. I'm in heaven. -Bernard Black
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: kakashi68]
#23838981 - 11/16/16 02:25 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yeah ain't that a bitch? I heard it is because they change your body temperature slightly making your body inhospitable for infectious agents.
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ModestMouse
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All of the classical wisdom of heroin use is true its led me to where I am broke jobless and living place to place Nothing to my name right now
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: ModestMouse] 1
#23841965 - 11/17/16 02:24 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Funny because I usually held down a job when I was using. I'm not one to steal and ain't nobody going to pay me for sex. Sometimes I would hustle like I sold gold for people, sold pills, and burned down some credit cards but no matter how much I worked I was always broke, so it was ultimately a waste. The jobs always sucked and never lasted long, but there sure were alot of them. For a long time I could put on a good front while sick, and I did the jumping on and off of bupe for a while, but eventually that just gave me even worse precipitated withdrawals and I couldn't handle it anymore.
The first time I left the job I'm at now because I was sick was the last week I used. I like this job and knew it wouldn't work if I was using. Lucky break really. Still get cravings but not that "you're going to get high, I don't care if you don't like it" feeling.
Keep at it man. Never to late.
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kakashi68
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moonrockmushy said: Funny because I usually held down a job when I was using. I'm not one to steal and ain't nobody going to pay me for sex. Sometimes I would hustle like I sold gold for people, sold pills, and burned down some credit cards but no matter how much I worked I was always broke, so it was ultimately a waste. The jobs always sucked and never lasted long, but there sure were alot of them. For a long time I could put on a good front while sick, and I did the jumping on and off of bupe for a while, but eventually that just gave me even worse precipitated withdrawals and I couldn't handle it anymore.
The first time I left the job I'm at now because I was sick was the last week I used. I like this job and knew it wouldn't work if I was using. Lucky break really. Still get cravings but not that "you're going to get high, I don't care if you don't like it" feeling.
Keep at it man. Never to late.
only so many sick days before you you have to go to work sick.... ergggggggggg yuck the fucking worst.
-------------------- You know, just sometimes in between the first cigarette with coffee in the morning to that 400th glass of cornershop piss at 3am--you do sometimes look at yourself and think--this is fantastic. I'm in heaven. -Bernard Black
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Apostle
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: kakashi68]
#23860424 - 11/23/16 12:07 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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chillen on some kratom
i think i am seriously ill but im uninsured so i kind of ignore the symptoms
its like dope sickness, i vomit alot and just generally feel like shit but its been too long since i used so i know its not. Maybe hepC or a blood related illness.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Apostle]
#23860681 - 11/23/16 01:30 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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bro can you go to the doctor please?
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Connoisseur] 1
#23860788 - 11/23/16 01:59 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Any abdominal pain? Jaundice? Weird urine or dooks?
Don't listen to conn I'm an internet doctor I'm here to help. I recently watched this
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kakashi68
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Apostle]
#23860937 - 11/23/16 02:59 PM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Apostle said: chillen on some kratom
i think i am seriously ill but im uninsured so i kind of ignore the symptoms
its like dope sickness, i vomit alot and just generally feel like shit but its been too long since i used so i know its not. Maybe hepC or a blood related illness.
Its funny because health insurance here is a total scam. Costs more than you get back.
While you just go to the public hospital and its basically free. Its what you get when your country actually gives a shit about its citizens rather than "protecting freedumbs" and intentional policing.
But I dunno? do you just have the flu? being dopesick is basically just like the flu. vomiting cant really move lots of pain.
Blood infections typically arnt all that bad physically at first. But there MUCH more severe in the long run and if you dont get it treated now you might never have the chance to get if fixed.
-------------------- You know, just sometimes in between the first cigarette with coffee in the morning to that 400th glass of cornershop piss at 3am--you do sometimes look at yourself and think--this is fantastic. I'm in heaven. -Bernard Black
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i started watching that a few days ago but seeing as i havent used a needle since my overdose i had stop it. ill watch it later if i relapse like i want too.
but yea that's a big contender but i honestly feel like it must be something worse. well something extra i should say because im almost guaranteed to either have theC or be immune(yes its possible).
i ate 40 percocet 10mgs and then 100 5mg percocets after that all in a pretty short span without doing cwe. to the point where i couldnt eat 2-3 withought throwing up. which doesnt mean that i stopped trying.
im thinking i fucked my liver
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Apostle]
#23863024 - 11/24/16 09:13 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Do you have jaundice or swelling?
Lack of energy and generally feeling unwell are definite signs of hep or cirrhosis, but knowing you it is probably superAIDS.
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Apostle
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kakashi68 said:
Its funny because health insurance here is a total scam. Costs more than you get back.
While you just go to the public hospital and its basically free.
yea i get all my care from the ER.
i feel like the insured get more opiods without question.
though i've had luck recently and that's only a suspicion.
if i did get insurance it'd be something cheap.
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moonrockmushy said: Do you have jaundice or swelling?
Lack of energy and generally feeling unwell are definite signs of hep or cirrhosis, but knowing you it is probably superAIDS.
no jaundice but if i don't smoke weed or do some opiods im puking all day and yes i have no energy.
i have had a handful of sex recently partners and im alergic to rubbers so that big scare is a possibility.
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Apostle]
#23863039 - 11/24/16 09:22 AM (7 years, 2 months ago) |
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Sucks your state doesn't take care of you. When I wasn't working I got treatment at urgentcare for free. Prescriptions were like $3. No wonder Florida has the highest risk of AIDS for any state.

Take care man.
edit- sorry that honor goes to LA, and I posted the wrong infographic. fixed
Edited by moonrockmushy (11/24/16 09:26 AM)
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Apostle
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thanks dude. you too.
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