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Fert Nitty
Example of a bad example



Registered: 09/19/13
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#23332106 - 06/11/16 08:49 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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Congrats rust. I hope to be there soon bro. I made it a week, and pussied out. I let social anxieties get the best of me and convince myself to use to get through social situations and obligations. Opiates are like the best drug for that for me anyhow
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Bootzilla9595
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Fert Nitty]
#23332180 - 06/11/16 09:09 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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Had a good old fashioned relapse a little less than a week ago. Clean now for 5 days. I'm stupid.
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Connoisseur

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what did you relapse on?
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Bootzilla9595
Stranger



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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Connoisseur]
#23332240 - 06/11/16 09:28 AM (7 years, 7 months ago) |
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Meth
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Ir0NLunG68420
BLaZeDuP


Registered: 11/27/04
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Loc: Tripville
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Quote:
Ir0NLunG68420 said: I've done opiates my whole life. I have been clean since January 20 2015. I was shooting .5-1 gram a day of pure H for 2 years straight. I am going on vacation in less than a week and I know that the person I'm staying with is on opiates. Sad part is I know I will partake. Good thing is I will not use a needle! Still scary, but it's inevitable.
Well sorry for the late reply and thank you for all your concerns. I ended up going on the vacation and extended my stay from 2 weeks to 2 months. I did partake in Subutex while there but kept it under control. I was doing a quarter of a pill every 3 days or so.
The main thing with me is to never be around heroin again or the needle. The needle is what really started my physical addiction. I had done opiates orally or up my nose for years and years. The downfall was finally living with people who shot up regularly.
I was using Dilaudid daily for a good 3 months or so this was in November 2013 I believe. Anyway I was snorting about 12-16 mg a day. My living arrangements changed and I moved with the folks that used Dilaudid as well except they would only get a 4mg pill.
They'd go sneak off in the bathroom and I'd snort 8mg on my own. They'd come out that bathroom looking so fucking high and still have half their pill left. It only took a few days for me to finally get angry that I was "wasting my money". I said fuck it.
Long story short it was completely pointless from that point forward to not use IV.
I moved away again and couldn't get pills anymore. It had been a good month or two without opiates. I never really got dope sick from stopping either.
Now the real addiction started when I called my weed man and pretty much asked if he had some boy. He said to me how much? I replied not knowing anything about it because I had never done it, $20. He said come on.
I got the stuff and he knew I didn't fuck with it but he gave me a half a gram. Way more than $20 worth. I remember looking at it and thinking did he think I was talking about cocaine because it was a white chunk.
I got home and opened it up and that flowery smell hit my nose and I was like okay here we go. I had smoked opium a long time ago so that smell was familiar.
That was to this day the smallest tiniest most minuscule piece I have ever done. Boy o boy that boy o boy had me in love head over heals. Best high ever, never got that high again.
I finished that half a g off in about a week. Well about 2days went by and I needed more. More than I had needed anything before then.
That was it I was hooked. Nobody knew I was on it. I still can't believe that aspect of it.
After so long I wanted help. I went to the er. They offered me a spot in a detox clinic. Best decision of my life. I went in expecting subs or does and they said nope that's not how we do it. They kept me okay though. The key was the benzos they gave me every day.
Moral of story. DO NOT PICK UP THE SPIKE. If you do get hooked get plenty of benzos to come off they help.
I got into some legal trouble back in March 2015 for possession Valium, Xanax, DUI and PUI. Violated my probation back in Oct 2015 I've had a warrant since then. I will be turning myself in this week.
Thanks for listening... End of rant
-------------------- "I never meant to give you mushrooms girl, I never meant to bring you to my world, but now you're sitting in the corner crying, and now it's MY FAULT, MY FAULT." -Eminem- Second grow log GT & B+ First grow log Mexicub & B+
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Rustifer
prestige worldwide


Registered: 04/10/05
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Loc: Central Texas
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commin' up on 10 months here in a few days, hope all you guys are doing ok.
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sanchothestoner
Satan's Grandson



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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#23589632 - 08/29/16 10:58 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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i'm right here
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



Registered: 07/01/05
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#23590334 - 08/29/16 02:54 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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7 days no heroin Just kratom, weed, and a bit of drink. I finally found a dosage that works for me to keep from being sick with kratom, which has been a godsend this time around. I took a vacation in the mountains and found when I came back that I just don't want to use, or at least I don't want to go cop. I'm trying to figure out what lifestyle changes I need to keep it this way, I think cutting out the alcohol is one, and just spending more time out in nature rather than cooped up in my room, and I need to start exercising and eating healthy.
That's really awesome Rustifer. I'm glad you made it, lemme know if you ever need support. I'm a little better at giving solid advice than I am managing my own life for the most part.
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hex_enduction
satta massa gana



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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#23590397 - 08/29/16 03:16 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Quote:
Rustifer said: commin' up on 10 months here in a few days, hope all you guys are doing ok.
Holy shit rust, congrats
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Connoisseur said: oh ive cried on drugs sunshine said: Tragic. I told the cop not to do it but he didn't listen.
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Apostle
Philanthropist


Registered: 12/12/09
Posts: 31,501
Loc: FL
Last seen: 1 year, 23 days
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HEYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Hi eveyone. Hope everyone who is suffering through addiction is in a better situation when i last chimed in.
I'm clean of heroin for a couple days...4 tops. I feel fine and should take this opportunity to quit for good.
it's not often one gets a pain-free detox and like i've stressed before and have experienced many times, it is usually unintentional.
If certain things had panned out id have scored heroin the last few days. but they didn't and i didn't.
Gonna smoke some weed and meditate on this.
I really need to stop Angering the God(s) who have given me so much. I should say God and not God(s) as that is Heresy but i like to keep an open mind.
AnyWHOOO, the point is i've gotten blessings left and right and it's about time i start showing some appreciation.
I was meant to do something great, at least it feels that way, and i seem to do everything in my power to destroy myself and negate all the advantages i've had in this life.
i feel good now though. I really hope we don't score tommorow. i got to convince my running partner to quit too. he wont take gabapentin though and is still kinda sick(i feel no w.d. whatsoever) so there's the risk that he'll cave in
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ModestMouse
IM WALKIN ON SUNSHINE


Registered: 05/06/13
Posts: 19,227
Loc: Upstate
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Apostle]
#23591726 - 08/29/16 09:16 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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That's the danger of scoring In pairs If one person relapses usually the other one does too.
That's how it was with my friend. We'd both be a few days clean feeling good then one of us would say something like "but I could really use some dope right about now" and within an hour we'd both be shooting up.
I'm 3ish days clean
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Apostle
Philanthropist


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Loc: FL
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: ModestMouse]
#23591754 - 08/29/16 09:27 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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how do you feel?
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ModestMouse
IM WALKIN ON SUNSHINE


Registered: 05/06/13
Posts: 19,227
Loc: Upstate
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Apostle]
#23591777 - 08/29/16 09:32 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I feel fine I only had a 2 day relapse I'll probably keep the sober ball rolling on dope But tomorow I get to smoke grass again and do etizolam which I miss. That will be nice.
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Apostle
Philanthropist


Registered: 12/12/09
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: ModestMouse]
#23591779 - 08/29/16 09:33 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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yea im about to smoke weed right now
and i have a bottle of Gaba
withdrawls don't stand a chance.
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Bodhi of Ankou
*alternate opinion blocks path*


Registered: 06/02/09
Posts: 24,778
Loc: Soviet Canukistan
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Apostle]
#23591948 - 08/29/16 10:37 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Reporting for duty boys
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timelapses
Life in free form



Registered: 01/26/11
Posts: 4,600
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Right there with you. One more day Hunter.
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kakashi68
Connoiseur of Illicit Substances


Registered: 11/25/11
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: timelapses]
#23592050 - 08/29/16 11:23 PM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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dont buy into NA's bullshit. Think about the total amount of time youve been clean rather than thinking youve reset to zero.
I did detox again and taking my 2nd real crack at it. I know what I did wrong.
EDIT: OH ALSO on the plus... im a fully qualified drug worker now. yay If anyone needs any help I have a fair amount of knowledge now, feel free to msg me if you need help, guidance or any strategies.
-------------------- You know, just sometimes in between the first cigarette with coffee in the morning to that 400th glass of cornershop piss at 3am--you do sometimes look at yourself and think--this is fantastic. I'm in heaven. -Bernard Black
Edited by kakashi68 (08/29/16 11:28 PM)
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timelapses
Life in free form



Registered: 01/26/11
Posts: 4,600
Loc: in a shroomery prison
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: kakashi68]
#23592160 - 08/30/16 12:45 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm riding this train and AA and NA and Mormon AA it hasn't worked though it does for fun.
Loved the line, how do you know some is full of bullshit? He said he drank a 12 pack and didn't even feel a buzz.
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timelapses
Life in free form



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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: timelapses]
#23592162 - 08/30/16 12:46 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Why don't you pet your pet pig you motherfucker.
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timelapses
Life in free form



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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: timelapses]
#23592203 - 08/30/16 01:10 AM (7 years, 4 months ago) |
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Bad form, my ip address is being addressed but at least my camera is, though not mike, covered. PBS is coming over.
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