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Rustifer
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fight through it man.
things get so much better the longer your off it.
i've been a junkie for a long time now, coming up on 12 years since I first did heroin, 11 since I first got strung out.
it's taken a lot of very hard learned lessons, but i feel pretty good about the possibility of me staying off it for good. for the first time in my life i'm finally starting to sort of understand how someone is able to say no to the stuff.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#22947196 - 02/26/16 01:47 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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I'd rather deal with the cravings then ever being sick again. Five hours go by and it's been 8 minutes, sweating and kicking legs, insomnia, mania, fuck all that.
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Acaterpillar
A little mad...



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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#22947300 - 02/26/16 03:14 AM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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I've only recently reached the point where tar actually sounds unappealing to me. I think it's been close to a year since my last time using, and two years since I first started kicking the addiction. To anyone who is currently struggling, remember; it does get better.
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Fert Nitty
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Day 1 kicking dope again. This time i plan to make it (through withdrawals, i doubt ill ever be clean forever but i need to be right now i have alot of important things going on in ny life and i can't keep doing this shit ) i got a handful of xanax bars, an ounce of kratom or more that i will probably ignore, all the weed i want, and a 4.5 day weekend to chill
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moonrockmushy
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#22948835 - 02/26/16 02:34 PM (7 years, 10 months ago) |
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Dys said: I'd rather deal with the cravings then ever being sick again. Five hours go by and it's been 8 minutes, sweating and kicking legs, insomnia, mania, fuck all that.
Yeah honestly even if I just use one time, I am feeling drained and kinda edgy for the next 2-3 days. Not really worth it for a 12 hour high.
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TNK: On the note of the overdosing thing- I've been told I've overdosed several times with no recollection of it and brushed it off as nothing. I've seen people overdose right in front of me and they said the same exact thing. So looking back on it I wish I had took that as a sign to chill the fuck out; with the drugs we choose to do some of us are lucky to be alive at all.
Yeah I wonder how many times this has happened to me already. There's been so many times where I wake up on the ground with my extremities all asleep and no recollection of anything after doing a shot. For all I know I am blue and gurgling on the floor. Seems likely now that I'm looking back. It kinda sucks too, or maybe is a blessing in disguise, but I don't think I get an especially great rush when this happens it's just "hey that's kinda nice " then nothing.
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Adden

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171 days last craving a few weeks ago.
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Rustifer
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden] 3
#23081856 - 04/04/16 09:43 AM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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I got 5 months yesterday.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#23081937 - 04/04/16 10:21 AM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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3years or more, where did the days go...Deep down a line would be alright.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#23081949 - 04/04/16 10:24 AM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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Rustifer said: I got 5 months yesterday.
Congrats dude. Seems like yesterday already eh?
Had a dream last night that a dentist had to pull all of my teeth (cracked one a few weeks ago and I hate dentists). I was strapped to the chair and the dental surgeon turned on the nitrous. Started to kick in and the nurse said "starting dilaudid drip" and I freaked out trying to escape and say stop but was strapped to the chair and just kept fighting and struggling to get away and rip it out of my arm. Also fear of needles. Not fun.
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Rustifer
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#23082063 - 04/04/16 11:10 AM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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Yeah, it feels like it was just yesterday, but at the same time, i felt all 13,169,500 seconds of it.
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Fert Nitty
Example of a bad example



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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#23082094 - 04/04/16 11:21 AM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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im on day 2. feelin pretty shitty. got a long day of school directly into work
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NobodyCares
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Fert Nitty]
#23082115 - 04/04/16 11:30 AM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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Good on you man! You can do it. Just try to keep putting one foot in front of the other (metaphorically) until the day is done and you have 3 days instead of 2. String enough days back to back and you'll be looking back on weeks, months, and years with pride.
I have five years and three months, roughly. Almost no cravings for a long time, but I was on suboxone for the majority of that time and it's only been ~18 months I've had no opiates at all in my system. Anyone else go off suboxone? I was on a really low dose, and it was still a fucking hell getting off of it completely. Like terrible dysphoria, muscle spasms, insomnia for weeks.
I've been tempted to start messing around with kratom, but I honestly don't know if I could even trust myself with that. It's been a long time, but I can still tell that the path to doing H all day every day is well worn and absolutely there if I start fucking around with opiates again.
-------------------- The story goes, or the way that I was told There was a king that always felt too high and then he fell too low And so he called all the wise men to the hall And begged them for a gift to end the rises and the falls But here’s the thing, they came back with a ring It was simple and was plainly unbefitting of a king Engraved in black, it had no front or back But there were words around the band that said Just know: This Too Shall Pass
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Fert Nitty
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: NobodyCares]
#23082124 - 04/04/16 11:32 AM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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NobodyCares said: Good on you man! You can do it. Just try to keep putting one foot in front of the other (metaphorically) until the day is done and you have 3 days instead of 2. String enough days back to back and you'll be looking back on weeks, months, and years with pride.
yea, I am trying to look at my busy day/week as a blessing. Might keep me busy enough to get through this
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NobodyCares
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Fert Nitty] 1
#23082156 - 04/04/16 11:40 AM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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I found that keeping busy and having things to keep your mind focused makes a world of difference. Even if it's stuff that feels shitty in the moment (having to work or whatever) I always found those days were a little easier than the days where I was just at home climbing the walls and feeling awful.
-------------------- The story goes, or the way that I was told There was a king that always felt too high and then he fell too low And so he called all the wise men to the hall And begged them for a gift to end the rises and the falls But here’s the thing, they came back with a ring It was simple and was plainly unbefitting of a king Engraved in black, it had no front or back But there were words around the band that said Just know: This Too Shall Pass
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Fert Nitty
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: NobodyCares]
#23082275 - 04/04/16 12:19 PM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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And when you get home you might be able to get some rest
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Fert Nitty]
#23082303 - 04/04/16 12:29 PM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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Sittin here jus dreamin bout the xan oasis
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Rustifer
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Capybara1]
#23082327 - 04/04/16 12:38 PM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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I've came off subs a couple times, it's harder than kicking methadone.
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berrymybody
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#23082501 - 04/04/16 01:32 PM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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i can rel8. this juice is like crack, but more expensive. soo addicting. when i can't afford it i get sad
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trvptamine
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: NobodyCares]
#23082531 - 04/04/16 01:42 PM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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NobodyCares said: I've been tempted to start messing around with kratom, but I honestly don't know if I could even trust myself with that. It's been a long time, but I can still tell that the path to doing H all day every day is well worn and absolutely there if I start fucking around with opiates again.
If youre trying to stay away from H definitely don't do kratom man. That's what got me back into opiates again.
I bought some kratom a few months ago then started vaping oxys, then h, then banging again. Im not using nearly everyday or having any physical addiction though either. But I bought kratom for fun and now im shooting h for fun.
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Seriously_trippin
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: trvptamine]
#23082546 - 04/04/16 01:48 PM (7 years, 9 months ago) |
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I have 4 days but I can't wait until I get a dose
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