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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Cowb0yNeal00] 2
#22474476 - 11/04/15 04:33 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Cowb0yNeal00 said: Seems like there used to be a lot more herion and opioid addicts on here. Where yall at? Please dont say dead.
20 days sober is where I'm at.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden] 1
#22474484 - 11/04/15 04:36 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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That's awesome. Hopefully I'll catch up to you in 21 days.
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I will always be a methamphetamine addict and I admit to that
That's why I go to great lengths to stay away from it, because when I'm near it I can't resist
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moonrockmushy said: That's awesome. Hopefully I'll catch up to you in 21 days.
Hah. I sweated this fucker out. Easiest kick in the world. Smoked weed and ate kratom for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I also had a trip hard enough to find my spirit animal(s?) and either my past reincarnation or guardian spirit. I went near full blackout. God bless my wife for poking her head in every once in awhile and putting a cold towel on my forehead. Reminded me of the scene in Looper and things got worse. Also a subsequent mushroom hunting journey that was more of a spiritual sojourn along a beach similar to one I grew up on. It's not an issue of how good of a drug it is or how good it feels anymore. I dealt with a lot of really deeply rooted shit, even going back to my childhood. I pulled some traumatic memories out of The Vault and kicked their ass. I took pause for loved ones passed. I'm getting a few tears reflecting back on it, but, whatever. Anyway.
I'm just not that person, and it was bound to happen anyway. Coincidentally, to pass the time, I've been scouring the forums for multiple things mycological. And honestly I don't know when to first "count" my sobriety; some people go by last drink/dose, some have said sobriety began when cravings went away. Either way I'm not going to split hairs over it. I'm actually sitting here right now doing my self-assigned myco homework. I'm not going to get into denial or minimalize my negative experiences. I know what it feels like to do XYZ and the subsequent consequences. I get to say "Hey, I'll never be dope sick again" and not be lying to myself. I don't have time for addiction services programs to remind me of it. It's how I kicked booze and wow that was so much harder. I'm coming off of 6 years straight oxy right out the gate from a severe car accidenr. To boot, the exercise from mushroom hunting has lead to weight loss and alleviating depression as well as traveling to amazing parts of the world I never thought I'd see. I hope one day you find what you seek.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden] 1
#22474519 - 11/04/15 05:10 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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And hey please. Shroomery. If you're reading this please see my above post. I'm on the comedown from a sweet acid trip, and it's the first time I've talked of my full recovery and emotions/feelings. I've reached out to no one. I feel really vulnerable and I don't care if people shame me forever, but it couldn't hurt to have someone let me know it's all going to be alright, even though I'm sure I'll be fine. I always figure it out and do what's best in the end. The answer to ever using again is very clear.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden] 1
#22474535 - 11/04/15 05:21 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yeah well you're through the darkest parts, but the journey never ends. One thing I can assure you is that if you go back to using you will regret it. Do whatever it takes to stay clean. Personally I'd advise trying to wean off the krat asap, as that will keep you in a vulnerable state, and take it easy on the weed/tripping if that stresses you out at all. Just stick with it, its really good to hear that you've accomplished this and I want to hear more good from you in the coming days. Keep us posted if you can!
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I've already weaned the kratom. I'm almost done with it completely. I've only tripped this frequently as a last hoorah. I also forgot what acid felt like when not on opiates. As far as that goes, wow! My application for medical Marijuana is pending. I have a healthy and steady diet with a new routine in a completely new environment. Come to think of it, I was supposed to dose my kratom 4.5 hours ago at midnight and I feel fine. The crawling went away quick thank god, fuck that, I'd rather die of dysentery out here on the fuckin Oregon trail lol. That fiending, ugh, I just shuddered. Please don't get addicted to opiates guys. It's worse than a prison. Getting out is like getting through a hole in the ice and you're drowning but your pant leg is stuck on a root. Fuck those drugs.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#22474547 - 11/04/15 05:32 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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By the way. If my life was a book, I would've known that this chapter ended the way it did.. psychedelics and ethnos saved the day.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#22474584 - 11/04/15 06:00 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Dys said: And hey please. Shroomery. If you're reading this please see my above post. I'm on the comedown from a sweet acid trip, and it's the first time I've talked of my full recovery and emotions/feelings. I've reached out to no one. I feel really vulnerable and I don't care if people shame me forever, but it couldn't hurt to have someone let me know it's all going to be alright, even though I'm sure I'll be fine. I always figure it out and do what's best in the end. The answer to ever using again is very clear.
Hey man, if you ever want anyone to talk to about addiction, mainly heroin/opiate addiction, hit me up. I have been sober almost 3 years, but was a long time IV dope user before that. At the apex of my addiction I was speedballing every shot, I was incredibly strung out, literally putting anything I could in my veins, but heroin was the drug I struggled with for the longest period of time. I must say though, the culture still very much fascinates me, drug culture always has.
Also, if you're 21 days clean beware the depression, I found that the PAWS (post acute withdrawal syndrome) never really went away, doc said I pretty much rewired my brain, but around the 1 month mark of being sober I started to really struggle with depression.
Anyway, yeah I don't have all the answers, hell I might not even have 1 answer for you, but I have ears to listen so there's always that.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Lucis] 1
#22474600 - 11/04/15 06:13 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yep. Gotta clean the pipes and let the old noggin heal. Reward system and serotonin depletion and learning how to be happy again without it etc. I've done very many things to prepare for this. I started tapering this time last year when my dose went down 80% at a new pain clinic. Six months later cut in half. Hard tapered 3 months, then hard taper etc.. This has been a long time coming, and I must say being rid of the anxiety has been the easiest. I came to terms with this awhile ago. I'll miss it but no not really lol. I have a little bit of a hard time walking and sure I need a walking stick when I go hunting, but I'll consider opiates again when I can't even crawl. I have more important things to do in life now anyway with plenty of things to keep me busy. It's not been this way for awhile. I can truly say I'm happy again. Some things I'm doing to change myself into a better person will take time and yeah depression will get me anyway, but I hate wasting time on depression because I've got better shit to do.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#22474739 - 11/04/15 07:09 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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I gotta run guys so this will be quick, but will try to get back to this thread later.
Anyway, I constantly think about dope, not using it, but the culture surrounding it, which I am very enthralled by. Do you guys think this is unhealthy? I want honest opinions if you don't mind, not just one word yes/no answers please let me know why you think what you think.
I honestly feel no want to use again, serious as a heart attack, but I just find the whole culture surrounding it very interesting. Something about the despair associated with heavy drug addiction really fascinates me, I remember being in withdrawals and listening to NIN-Downward Spiral album and felt like something posses my soul and bonded it with dope forever that night, shit was full blown spiritual experience from withdrawals.
Anyway, I gotta go to work, but what are your thoughts on this way of thinking about heroin/drug addiction? There's more to the story than this, but I gotta run to work. Like I love looking at pics of heroin related stuff, bloody syringes, bags of dope, but I don't feel drawn in any way to use again, it's just so damn fascinating.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Lucis]
#22474990 - 11/04/15 08:34 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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I anticipate this to probably stay static for six months. I've prepared for a year, and as long as I was using them, and also prepared to have to deal with it the rest of my life. I've had a long time to plan this and I think I'm doing it right. Psychedelics have helped my mind while kratom has helped my body. I imagine this is the sought after goal of ibogaine therapy. The cosmic irony of all of this is that I never believed in them as tools to aid in recovery and boy was I surprised. If addiction is rooted deeply enough for me to find a spirit animal and a guardian/reincarnation I was gifted to see by tearing the veil between our dimensions, then it is time to be gone for good. Drug induced psychosis whatever works. I'd never believe myself if I could've read this post 3 weeks ago.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: BlackWidow]
#22475298 - 11/04/15 10:08 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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BlackWidow said: Been clean from a benzo/coke habit for 2-3 months. All the addicts probably got clean and stopped posting here.
Only drug I do now is nicotine.
i wish that were that case. stay careful out there guys
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: IISkuNkII] 1
#22475390 - 11/04/15 10:26 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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IISkuNkII said: Canada probably
Forbes said that we have the most productive meth heads
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: BlackWidow]
#22475510 - 11/04/15 10:46 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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BlackWidow said: Been clean from a benzo/coke habit for 2-3 months. All the addicts probably got clean and stopped posting here.
Only drug I do now is nicotine.
Happy to hear that you quit etiz dude 
I'm kinda building a benzo habit myself, been dosing every day for over a week at this point. I'm gonna try and go today with no benzos or alcohol.
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Currently looking to stop using everything except for the 'occasional marijuana cigarette' socially and ofc some mush whenever I finally use the 40 cc's I have just sitting there...Alcohol is how I plan to sleep tonight tho.
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Cheers to everyone who is clean! I take a ton of melatonin to sleep abd hope never to be addicted to hard chemicals Love everyone a lot btw
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moonrockmushy said: No I never tapered off. I got really low then kicked off by my Dr for allegedly not taking them, even though I was, then somehow started using again for the past couple of weeks cuz I had shit to do and was about to run out of subs. Couldn't find another Dr. that would work with my schedule/insurance, and honestly I'm just fed up with them doctors.
I'm planning to jump back on subs for like a week or so then just stop, but the best laid plans of mice and junkies often go awry. Gonna get in counseling, and really hope I can be strong enough to make it work. Part of me hopes that since I've been off subs for a few weeks now the w/d will at least be shorter, but that's unlikely considering how long I've been hooked overall it's going to be a few weeks of acute w/d at least I am guessing.
I should'a just done some dippers I'da been better off. Don't relapse kids, it's no fun.
Take the suboxone for 3-4 days in decreasing doses then stop. 8mg, then 6, then 4, then 2, then none.
It's the only proper way to use suboxone, and it works.
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: morrowasted]
#22478263 - 11/04/15 08:38 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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And I got clean almost 7 months ago.
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