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AllGreyThumbs
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: ModestMouse]
#22568583 - 11/24/15 02:43 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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ModestMouse said: How old are you?
I'm... well, I'm 39, and an asshole. There are people on here legitimately trying to better themselves, and I'm... well I'm not exactly sure what I am doing. Mostly I'm just bored at work which is the story of my life, and maybe of a lot of life.
But don't mind me. Stay strong. Have your hopes and dreams. Find a life that makes you happy. Just think a little bit about the choices you make and whether they are taking you closer to the life you want or just sucking you into the life that is expected of you by our overlords and their society of carefully programmed biological robots.
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LSDreams
Contemplative Stoner



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I always liked kratom when i was using it for it bit in between my fentanyl binges. It never got me high really, even dumping out huge un weighed piles out of each of my 100 gram bags... the most i got was placebo. It didnt really phase me at all coming straight off fent, but it did work wonderfully after i switched to oxy and then ran out. I just think of kratom like i do with coffee. After abusing fent though, only a few of the stronger opiates are effective these days.
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usulpsychonaut


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I gotta plant some poppies soon. How do they do under grow lights? Nothing I can get beats Opium.
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Adden

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Good luck doing an indoor grow of poppies. I've only had success outdoors in basically just sand with some random nutes and whatever was available in the dirt. The giganthemums only turned out a crop of about 250 heads but they were only the size of a baseball.
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Apostle
Philanthropist


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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden] 2
#22570852 - 11/24/15 10:47 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Six days clean. Seven?
Idk.
Fuck opiates. J/k imy
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usulpsychonaut


Registered: 05/12/08
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#22570855 - 11/24/15 10:48 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Its just getting into summer here, is it any good planting outdoors now?
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Adden

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Google poppy climate zones and compare vs your climate zone data trends.
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kakashi68
Connoiseur of Illicit Substances


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usulpsychonaut said: I gotta plant some poppies soon. How do they do under grow lights? Nothing I can get beats Opium.
Why not just grow them outdoors? Plenty of people grow them ornamentally. There not illegal to grow as far as im concerned. No one would think twice about em unless theve been scored for morphine.
-------------------- You know, just sometimes in between the first cigarette with coffee in the morning to that 400th glass of cornershop piss at 3am--you do sometimes look at yourself and think--this is fantastic. I'm in heaven. -Bernard Black
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Rustifer
prestige worldwide


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Posts: 7,071
Loc: Central Texas
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#22570987 - 11/24/15 11:39 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Having a moment. I'm ing pretty hard over the past few years. I got to thinking about how things were in the first half of my 20s vs how they have been in the second half. It's amazing how powerful the mind can be, I was feeling alright before that, now I've sweat through my shirt and have the chills, and I'm super anxious.
I used to be pretty outgoing, had a ton of friends, always going out and doin' thangs, used to dance and sing a lot, used to have a personality. Now I have to force conversation, my friends are all tired of dealing with me. My life's a fucking wreck man. I gotta do something about this, but I don't even know where to start.
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Adden

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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#22571024 - 11/24/15 11:55 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Removing yourself from your environment and friends (good or bad) and starting yourself somewhere new might not be a bad idea if you can do it. A lot of people who have success just gtfo and get better faster. That's what's fun about being an adult; just grab your shit and go. Move somewhere that mushrooms grow if you're gonna do it.
Texas is nice this time of year for that right? Or is it over?
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Rustifer
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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Adden]
#22571054 - 11/25/15 12:21 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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I already did that, the 5th of this month I got my brother to buy me a bus ticket and burned off from SA to the DFW area. I'm staying with him in a spare bedroom now. It's helped tremendously. While I'm still dealing with PAWS really bad, I don't get the hardcore gut-wrenching cravings I normally do, simply because I know I can't score here. If I was still in SA I would still be strung out, dead or in jail. Heroin is really, really, bad there, it's dirt cheap and open-air markets have popped up more and more the past year or two.
Mushroom season is already over here, it got down to 33 a couple nights ago, September and October are the good months. I don't even know if I could handle tripping right now. I think I would have a melt down, and start freaking out about what my life has become.
Getting out and getting a job is going to be really good for me. I need to suck it up and get it over with already. I have one application out right now, kinda expecting to get a call, but it's for tech support, and I don't think that will do the trick. I need something where I'm actually doing something with my hands, like working in a kitchen. I look around a little bit on the internet most days, but I don't know this city at all, and I don't have a car so that severely limits me. Someday soon I'm going to get frustrated by this and make the 2 mile walk up to where there's a couple dozen fast food/chain restaurants and find something. That depresses the shit out of me though, I'm going to be 30 in a year and a half. But I'm kinda thinking something low stress low responsibility like that is what I need for now. My work history is already terribly spotty and filled with shitty jobs the past few years. I need to just do this and then pay for some fake job references in 6 months to a year once I get to feeling better, get a car, and finally get this red hat certification done and start looking for 'real jobs' again.
It's just all such a mess right now, this is not what I expected from my life.
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#22571643 - 11/25/15 07:24 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Yeah I can't believe how the last 10 years has gone for me. Still though, even thinking about that I'm still having a bitch of a time keeping myself from going back. I know once I get that ball rolling there's no turning back. I've gotta stop drinking and smoking weed, since when I get burned out/hung over I think my self-control goes in the shitter.
Hope you hear from the job today, but in any case make staying clean the priority.
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Rustifer
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Glad you're still going strong man. Keep it up. Did you ever end up getting any of those jobs you interviewed for?
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moonrockmushy
High on Spite



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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#22571744 - 11/25/15 08:10 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Naw haven't heard anything yet, kinda glad though I'm not sure I'm quite ready to be pulling 12h shifts.
I don't know if I'm going strong, still going tho. I definitely feel better, but still haven't had a moment where I feel ok.
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Rustifer
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Stick it out man, it will come quicker than you expect. It might not be as good as you expect, but fucking fight through that part.
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LSDreams
Contemplative Stoner



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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Rustifer]
#22588703 - 11/28/15 10:55 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Well i bought 100 bucks of the finest dope in town yesterday after not doing ANY opiate at all since like may or something. I went home for thanksgiving break and i kinda had a feeling i would get something. So i hit up my boy (whos pretty much my brother whos been in "recovery" for awhile) to see what was going around these days and apparently it was my lucky day cause dude had shit ready to roll as soon as i asked. I havent picked anything up off the streets in a even longer time too so i was a lil paranoid, but it went smooth as fuck. I went in with my boy and we got an awesome deal and it came in beautiful beige rocks. Now i thought that since ive been clean for over half year, that my tolerance would be basically fresh.. but i mustve destroyed my opiate receptors with fent so i decent line of fire got me in a really good mood. Then today i did some for my evening shift at work, which ive never done at my newish current job before. I was probably the calmest chillest mother fucker in that store today... it just felt really good to adapt to whatever situation was thrown at me today , plus super efficient work-wise.
Im not glorifying it or anything, because i definitely know the heavy cons of dope, but it was a wonderful "occasional" experience. If only that were that easy to maintain
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Apostle
Philanthropist


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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: LSDreams]
#22588736 - 11/28/15 11:04 PM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Working on dope isnt even fair.
Its like playing life with cheat codes.
Glad u enjoyed it!
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Severo Blizzard
Viva La Résistance!


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Im addicted man, alcohol and weed everyday
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Lucis
Nutritional Yeast

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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Apostle]
#22588886 - 11/29/15 12:12 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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Apostle said: Working on dope isnt even fair.
Its like playing life with cheat codes.
QFT 
I totally agree. I used to acid stain/cut concrete for a living, shit was laborious in nature, but I was always high as a kite on dope and worked my ass off 12-14 hours a day without a complaint. Would work in apartment buildings a lot, so was able to use vacant apartment bathrooms to cook in, which was fun.
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Cowb0yNeal00



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Re: Where are all the addicts? [Re: Lucis]
#22588904 - 11/29/15 12:22 AM (8 years, 2 months ago) |
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"in nature" lol jerry used to say that 
thats a sick job bro. What state is this is?
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