Usually I am somewhat high most of the day, but the last two months I quit using my medical marijuana to obtain/keep a job, it is temp but about to be permanent. Anyways I use to drink almost a fifth a night about a year and a half ago, went to rehab after almost dying from mixing alcohol, benzos and lean. I was sober for about 6 months before drinking again. It started off slow and is nowhere what it used to be but it has been slowly getting worse due to tolerance building easily. I want to quit again yet I find myself in a weird headspace when I try, is there any way I can pm someone anonomysly so I can talk without any personal info at all coming up? Anybody in the same boat? Any sponsors out there? Any advice?
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No tl;dr..
Read the 4 things at the bottom if you read nothing else.
Been through it, not really sure what I can say to help you. It's basically all on you and your will power.
I'm hesitant to put my name out there for you to PM, because right now I'm all drugged up and often end up making decisions I regret when I get sober. I can offer my help, but unless you really have something to build off of, it's basically just quit or don't.
Hopefully will be going to bed soon, so don't exepct a response tonight, even if you see me posting elsewhere (it's kind of a deep discussion and one I'm not ready to get into right now) and if you want to accept the fact that any point I may withdraw from it (I will tell you as such at least though) because I don't think I can help, then we can try.
I don't out people who are anonymous, even if I don't like them. I take my honor and trust other people have placed in me very seriously. Nothing you say to me will be repeated anywhere else.
Before I sign with name so you can PM me, I feel the need to restate these points: 1. I'm on stuff that alters my behavior, and I am a completely different person now compared to who I am sober. What seems like a good idea now, rarely ends up being a good idea sober. 2. I'm not going to entertain a pity party, you're anonymous now, so if that's honestly what you want, please don't PM me. Look hard to make sure that's not what you're expecting. No one will know whether you PM'd me or not, so you don't even have to admit that is what wanted, this is your opportunity to remain anonymous if that is what you were seeking. I won't tell people that's what you wanted if you don't PM me and it seems that way (at this point no one can know whether you PM'd me or not. If you don't PM me and basically tell me that's what you were looking for, I will not say so here or anywhere else you didn't PM me). I just simply won't tolerate it. 3. If you're going to get pissy because I call you on your shit (no one is perfect and no one is exempt from it) or because I just stop replying, it's best you wait for someone else. 4. It's entirely possible that I will determine I have nothing at all to offer you in the way of advice or help very early on. If I don't feel I can help you, I'm not going to waste either of our time.
I feel you deserve an informed decision, so please, read all of the above.
I am a long term alcoholic with experiences of quitting and starting again. Last time I quit, I started again with just a beer a day when I got home from work to help relax. Eventually (over months) it turned right back into full blown alcoholism. If you can agree to the stipulations and understand all that I've said, PM me and we'll give a shot. But be honest with yourself if you do, if you honestly can't deal with the above, I absolutely encourage you to find someone else. I don't know how many others will throw their name in the hat, but I am offering to do what I can.
-Shroomslip
Edited by Anonymous (11/01/15 02:52 AM)
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